I see faces everyday, they're looking at me in ways as if the same.

I was sitting in the hospital room with Mari, holding her hand tightly. She really didn't look good but she was still beautiful to me. She looked up at me, her green eyes still happy and bright. I smiled at her, gently rubbing my thumb over her knuckles. I kissed her closed hand carefully, I was afraid to break her.

"I love you Jay," she whispered. "I always promised I'd love you till the end of my days. I did, I still do."

"Don't talk like that Mari, you're going to make it, you're going to be okay. You're going to get out of this," I said, tears falling from my eyes.

"I don't have more than a week, maybe a few days. I'm tired Jack, my body is giving up on me. Please understand that. I want to be with you, I don't want to leave you. Remember I'll be with you even when I physically leave here."

"Please, let's have these moments together and not think about that."

"We need to, I don't have long."

I pressed my lips to hers, I couldn't handle the thought of losing her. I felt her fingers wrap in my hair, the IV now pressing against my face. She pulled away from me and started to have yet another coughing fit. I couldn't stand to see her like this, all weak and struggling to survive. I ran my fingers through her red and blonde hair.

I never thought I would have such limited time with her. There's so much I wanted to go into the past and change, I wanted to just hold her. I didn't know what I was going to do without her. She was my rock, my solid ground, my everything. I excused myself so I could use the restroom. I texted Alex on my way, letting him know everything that was going on.

Once I was done I looked at my phone to see that he had sent his deepest apologies. I sighed and went back to the room. Once I got there I saw a lot of doctors and quickly ran into it. The machine was flat lining.

"Let me see her," I screamed, tears streaming down my face.

"Sir you need to leave," I was told by a doctor.

"I love her, let me see her!"

"Sir, please."

"Marianna, you're stronger than this. Pull through please. Please, I fucking need you. Without you I'm a mess. Please Marianna. Please."

I was sitting on the ground sobbing at this point. I just couldn't handle everything right now. I knew there was nothing they could do but all I wanted was to hold her one more time. Hear her laugh just one more time. Feel her touch just one more time. I needed her, without her, I was nothing. I was nothing at all.

I called the school to get them to call Josie out. I called Alex telling him to pick her up and bring her here. I needed both of them if I was going to make it out of this. I was just sitting there crying, how am I supposed to continue on living without my other half? How am I supposed to live with my heart no longer beating?

"Jack Barakat," a doctor questioned.

"Yes sir," I said, sobbing.

"She's stable enough for a short visit. She won't be alive for long. Please say your last goodbyes."

I walked into the room and saw her laying there, looking almost tranquil. Her eyes were closed, the long lashes laying against her cheek bones. I took her hand carefully, I was still afraid I was going to break her. I pressed my lips softly to her hand, just one more time.

"Mari, I love you, I remember the first time I saw you. Your hair was orange and red, you were standing there awkwardly in the office, wondering why you were there. I remember the first time your anxiety took over you. You were shaking and crying. I remember the first time you were on stage. You looked down at me without a care in the world, you should've seen yourself. I remember when Josie was born. You smiled bigger than I'd ever seen you smile, well second to our wedding day. Oh do I remember that, you were the most beautiful girl I'd ever witnessed. I guess what I'm trying to say is all of my memories include you. Mari, you are my other half, my better half. I love you and I never stopped loving you," I cried to her.

A second later I knew she was gone. She had enough fight in her to listen to me one last time. I knew she loved me too. At that moment I let out the most painful sound you could ever imagine. The sound of my heart breaking was heard around the world. I needed her, she completed me.

"Daddy," I heard Josie whisper.

I picked her up and held her tightly as we both cried. I didn't know what else to do but I couldn't continue to be here with her. I carried Josie out of the hospital and had Alex drive us back home. The minute she was in the house she ran up the stairs and was gone. I didn't know what to do. I was numb everywhere.

Hours passed and Josie hadn't made a sound, I was worried about my baby. I walked up the stairs and saw a light under the bathroom door. I knocked on it and there was no response. I opened it to see Josie in the bathtub an empty bottle in her hands. I saw it was her mom's sleeping pills. She'd taken the entire bottle. I picked up the girl, calling the emergency number. I didn't know if my other girl was going to make it either.

The ambulance arrived and I got in it with them as they worked on my beautiful daughter. What was I supposed to do now? How am I supposed to be strong when the person I was fighting for was no longer here? How can I be strong when my foundation had crumbled away already?

"Sir, has anything tragic happened recently to make your daughter do this," a doctor asked.

"Her mother just died," I whispered, holding back tears.

I'd give it all for one more night with you.

Notes

The chapter we've all seen coming is finally here. This was so hard for me to write because I've gotten very attached to her character. This story is nearing it's end but don't worry, the end is happier than this. (Please don't hate me, I cried writing this).

I tried to update Undercover today but right before I hit submit my computer wanted to update so... I'll rewrite that later.

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Title and lyric credit: Give It All - Train