Alex and I woke up the next morning together, smiles on our faces and wrapped up in his sheets. We finally got to be intimate last night after the show. Thank god too. We needed an escape so bad.
“Morning, Bonnie,” Alex greeted me with a warm smile. I missed seeing him smile like that. I missed seeing the light in his eyes.
“Morning, Alex. I missed this you,” I smiled just as warmly and pulled him down for a nice kiss.
“Trust me, I missed just being in love with you and not worrying about you,” he replied and kissed me again.
“You know we should get our clothes back on so we can get up and join the rest of our motley crew,” I smirked and kissed him on his nose.
“Agreed. I’ll help you find your stuff in the sheets,” he kissed my nose before diving under the sheets to find our clothes.

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Once Alex and I retrieved our clothes and redressed, we joined the others in the front lounge and I fixed Alex and I some cereal. I could not stop smiling and Nyssa picked up on it.
“Someone’s all smiles,” she teased.
“I don’t know what you’re talking about,” I shot my eyes around the room to try to be conspicuous.
“I heard a bunk shaking last night,” Jack added in.
“Dude,” Alex elbowed Jack in the ribs while smiling like a fool.
“About time you guys had fun for a change. Now stop teasing the love birds,” Matt stood up for us.
“Oh Bonnie, can I talk to you in the back lounge alone after breakfast. I want to have some girl talk,” Nyssa asked.
“Sure,” I replied. I needed girl time and I want to talk about how much fun I had at the ball game and with Alex last night.
Once I finished eating, Alex cleaned up my mess and Nyssa dragged me to the back lounge, closing and locking the door behind us.
“Okay so I want to hear about your day at the game before I spill my day,” Nyssa started the girl talk pow wow.
“So Alex’s eyes lit up like the Fourth of July when I he saw me dressed up in my tank and bikini top yesterday. Well we got to take happy pictures and we kissed each other a lot while we waited for the first pitch to be thrown. During the seventh inning stretch I think you and Jack went to get him another beer and yourself a water, they did a kiss cam and it landed on Alex and I. He and I started making out for the crowd and we didn’t care if people were hollering or judging us. We were in love and nothing was making us not act on it. I feel like he and I are on our way to recover from everything,” I told her.
“What did you guys do last night after the show,” she hinted at the new hickeys on my neck.
“We actually got to make love again last night. I didn’t freak out and neither did he. We were in blissful heaven all night. Sorry that you and Jack had to hear us. We kept ourselves lip locked so no one heard us moaning too loudly,” I didn’t want to tell her that this time Alex and I didn’t use a condom. The last thing I would need is Nyssa worrying that Alex might have gotten me pregnant on the off chance that body was ready to get pregnant this month. I know my mind would freak out if I got knocked up before I even knew where Alex and I were going to be at the end of the tour. I wasn’t sure if I was going to go home with Nyssa to Orlando, or if I was going to move north to live with Alex in Baltimore.
“Wow,” Nyssa was happy for me, “So let me start by saying that you made mine and Jack’s day by getting us to go to the game. You lifted Alex’s spirits which in turn lifted his. He was worried about Alex too. But I ran into girls giving me problems about Holly talking to Jack again. Well, when I went back to Jack after my first water run, Holly blocked me and Jack stood up to her for me. I swear I think she’s going to try to make Jack leave me. I actually hate her if she’s planning that.”
“Nyssa, I know how it feels to deal with your man’s ex. I had a run in with Lisa in Baltimore and she dressed in a sleazy get up when we went to get Baz and Peyton for the day to go see Alex’s parents. I know she’s going to try to break us up to get Alex. She made me nearly have an attack on the walk to Alex’s parents’ house. But you know what, we’re going to show those jealous bitches that we love our boyfriends and no one is going to get between us,” I held up my pinky for a pinky promise, “Nyssa I want you to promise me you’ll never doubt yourself or Jack’s love for you.”
“Okay, and I want you to promise to never doubt yourself and Alex’s love for you. I want to always be the strong Bonnie I know you are and show Lisa a thing or two about making Alex truly happy,” Nyssa linked her pinky with mine, sealing the deal.
“It feels so good to be almost back,” I told her as I pulled her in for a hug.
“Bonnie, you never left. You were hidden from us by your anxiety. You were never gone,” Nyssa corrected me.
“I know that a couple days ago you had issues with the voice again. You know you can come to me about it,” I looked her dead in the eyes.
“Well, the voice has been coming and going now. But that’s because Jack has been helping me since things happened with you and Alex nearly losing your minds for a moment,” she told me, ‘We also finally said that we love each other.”
“I thought you guys had already. I guess my attacks made me not pay attention to detail,” I told her.
“You had every right to loss focus. You were going through a lot of stuff, and it’s made you and Alex both stronger. I’m proud of both of you. Now more than ever,” Nyssa hugged me again. Her hugs always made forget the bad shit that ruins everything and focus on the good things, like the fact that I’m smiling more and Alex has the light in his eyes again when he smiles at me. Plus we also have been laughing more too.
"Now there's something else I need to talk to you about," Nyssa got a little sheepish.
"What's is it Nyssa," I asked her.
"I want to know what it's like...to have sex," she blushed at her innocent question. She picked the right person to come to for this. It'd be awkward to talk to her Mexican brothers in Pierce about it.
"What do you want to know," I asked her so I can figure out what she wants me to share. I have quite the track record of having sex with guys. But only when I was serious with them. I refused to be a quick one-night stand.
"I guess to start D-does it hurt," she asked quietly.
"It hurts at first, but after a while it gets better and it stops hurting," I answered truthfully.
"D-does it get really complex in the sense of what you can do," she asked.
"Only if you want it too. There are different positions and such. I doubt Jack will do anything weird with you since it will be your first time if he wants to do it with you. He'll want to do with you when you are ready," I told her.
"But I am ready, I think my mind just likes to freak out and not want to try," she started off enthusiastic but it died down as she went on.
"When does your mind freak out and stop you," I asked her.
"When he goes to grab my boobs," she answered quickly.
"Jack is a boobs guy. I suggest that you should maybe have him just go right for them, you still fully clothed, in your bunk later and just have him hold them for a moment to see if you can let him touch you without the idea of it being foreplay," I suggested.
"Do you think it'll work," she asked, hope in her eyes.
"I don't know. Your Dyspraxia makes you think along different line than I do. If it doesn't work, we'll try something else. I will help you free yourself from your mind's limitations okay. Just be patient with me since I'm still recovering from everything that's happened lately," I smiled and hug her tightly. She was like my sister and I was going to help her. She helped me and almost broke from the stress. I hope she's wnating to do this for herself and not to make Jack happy. I don't want her to get hurt. Ever.