Sacrifice

Okay guys this chapter has suicide, self harm, eating disorders, over dosing and drug use at the end of it. And it might trigger you beautiful people and I don't want you to hurt yourself because of me. So you might want to skip this chapter :) stay safe lovelies

Jacks POV

I watched Alex as he slept on my lap. He so cute when he sleeps I was lost in my thoughts. I try and keep my emotions under control so I don't wake Alex up but it didn't work.
"Am I seriously going to be woken up by your emotions all the time?" Alex muttered and move onto his side his back to me.
"Pretty much." I said with a small chuckle.
I didn't get a response as Alex feel back asleep.
I knew I needed blood soon, not animal, but human. Being round Alex isnt helping the urges to the blood issue.

After another hour Alex woke up.
"So the sleeping beauty awakens." I chuckled.
" This sleeping beauty is no longer grumpy thanks to sleep. Count your blessings." He said with a voice full of sleep.
He moved of my lap I felt disappointed that he moved, Alex felt it and looked round at me.
"You don't have to feel disappointed because I moved." Alex said in a bit of a grump.
"Sorry." I said looking away from him.
Alex felt that there was something wrong.
"Jack what's the matter?" He asked and moves to come and sit next to me.
"Nothing." I said trying to hide what I was feeling.
"Don't lie to me Jack I'll find out since I can get inside your head." Alex said being serious.
" I need blood. Not animal but human." I said looking away waiting for Alex to flip. But he didn't. What he said next actually shocked me and Alex felt it as well.
"I let you have some of mine." He said looking at me.
"You don't have too." I said protesting.
" Yes I do." He said.
God he was stubborn I thought, forgetting Alex was properly in my head.
"Hey, I know I'm stubborn, which is why I'm sticking to my guns and letting you have some of my blood!" Alex said looking deadly serious about this.
" I don't want to do anything I'll regret." I said weakly.
" You won't, I trust you okay." Alex said putting his hand on top of mine looking at me in the eye.
I took a deep breath.
"Okay. Move your head to the side so your neck in on show." I said feeling really unsure about this, but Alex did what I said.
I showed my fangs, Alex looked.
"I thought you didn't have fangs?" He said confused.
"I do but i keep them hidden unless i smile wide then you'll see them." I explained.
After that Alex went quiet.

I put my mouth to Alex's neck.
The sent of him was intoxicating.
I put my fangs into Alex's neck, Alex flinched a little I stopped.
"Keep going, I meant what I said!" Alex said.
I started to drink some of Alex's blood.
I heard Alex moan from the pleasure and the fact it was like taking drugs for humans.
I stopped when I had enough.
I took my head away from Alex neck.
"Fucking hell." That was all Alex could say while he flopped back onto the sofa.
"I'll get you some water." I said as I got up and went to get him some water.
When I got back Alex was trying to stand.
"Woah there Alex sit back down." I said rushing over to him and help to sit down.
"I feel dizzy." Alex moaned.
"That's from the blood lost, don't worry I didn't take much." I smiled a little bit.
"Oh" Alex said looking like he was about to fall asleep.
"Don't sleep just yet, drink the water and then you'll be able to fall asleep." I said hoping he'll drink the water.
Which he did.
"Can I sleep now?" Alex said already asleep.
"Yes you can." I said.

I picked him up and went upstairs with him in my arms.
I didn't know which one was his room.
There was only 3 rooms so I have to look in all of them to find his room.
First door I got to was the bathroom. Bugger.
Second door I got to was what looked like a music room.
Alex plays music?
So the their door must be Alex's room which it was.
The bed was unmade, the room was covered in posters, there was clothes over the floor.
Alex all over then.
I put him onto the bed and pulled the covers over him.
"Night Alex." I whispered and kissed his head.
Alex snuggled deeper into the pillow and sighed.

Alex was out of it I didn't really want to leave him like this but I wanted to look at his music room.
I left Alex knowing he should be out of it until sometime in the morning. So I made my way to the music room.
As I walked into the room it hit me that this wasn't just a music room but its a room where Alex could feel close to his family back in the UK.
There was a picture of Alex and a girl.
I felt jealous.
Not even a little bit jealous I was feeling very jealous.
I also knew Alex felt this wave of jealousy.

Before long Alex came into the room.
" What?" Alex said really grumpy about the fact I've just woke him up. Again.
"What you doing with that picture?" Alex said looking sad all of a sudden.
" I was just looking." I said trying to explain.
"Don't!" Alex said loudly.
"Don't touch anything in this room!" He said as walked over to me and took the picture from me and looked at it for a second and put it back in its place.
"There are things which are special to me in here." He said sadly looking at round the room.

"You want to know who the girl is don't you?" Alex said looking at me.
"No." I lied but Alex knew I was lying.
"I know your lying remember that big wave of jealousy? It woke me up so don't lie Jack." Alex said sounding a bit pissed.
"Sorry." I said looking down at my feet.

"Do you want to know who she is Jack?" Alex said softly looking at me.
I just nodded.
"Its Lily. She's my sister." Alex said with sadness filling his features.
"Where is she?" I asked, I was being really nosey and I wanted to know more about Alex.
"She's dead Jack." Alex whispered he looked to the ground avoiding my eye contact.
" How? You don't have to tell me." I said generally meaning it, I knew Alex knew I meant it as he looked up at me and gave me a small smile.
"She commited suicide." Alex said with a blank look on his face looking at the picture of him and Lily.
"She had depression, eating disorder. She self harmed, over dosed and took drugs, it wasn't her fault. It was the demons inside her head. I was her rock. My mum and dad disowned her because of the drugs. I was all she had left."

Alex went over and picked the picture up and sat on the floor and just stared at the picture. I never been round humans like this their always happy things, but I wasn't bonded to them like I was to Alex.

"I told her I wanted to move to America and that she could join me. She said that it was my dream and I should follow it. We used to spend all night talking about shit. She was the first person I told that I was gay. I told her everything. She did too. Up too a point. She told me about how she felt and that she wasnt eating, she was hurting herself and doing drugs but nothing else.I was at college when I got a call from Lil, she said she was going to kill herself and that by the time time I got home she would be dead."
At this point Alex started to cry.

I didn't know what to do, I've never seen a human act like this. I tried to think what a creature would do, but a creature would turn round and tell them to shut up. (yes we where good and protect humans but we don't understand their feelings). I knew this wasnt a good idea. So I walked over and joined Alex on the floor, put my arm round his shoulder and pulled him into my side. He rest his head on my shoulder and carried on.

"I ran out of college and went home. I found her in her room. A rope round her neck. Her body was cut deep, the blood was dripping from her. She looked so skinny her bones looked like they would break if you touched them. I called mum and dad they sorted everything but I got her note she wrote to me before they could read it. After her funeral I couldn't stay in the UK so I moved here. Using every penny I had to build a life and shit. Annnd that's when we get to here." Alex said but he rambled the whole thing. He sounded like me when the Spirit pushed my too far.

I just held him and he fell asleep on my shoulder not long after he finished.
I tried to take the picture from him to put it back but he held onto it tight not letting it go.
I smiled a sad smile at this.
I sat Alex up so I could get up.
I got up and bent down and picked Alex up, being careful not to break the picture, and walked to his room and led him down on the bed and covered him with the duvet. The picture fell off the bed. I picked it up and I went to go and put it back in the other room.
Alex must of been inside my head when I decided to go to the other room as he said,
"Don't leave, stay with me, I don't want to be on my own."
He sounded so vulnerable, lost scared and a load of other emotions.
"You can sit on the bed if you want." He said opening his eyes slightly and smiled.
"Only of you want." I said.
"Course I do." Alex smiled a little.
With that I went over to the bed and sat on it resting my back against the head board. Alex was cuddled up in my side before I could get comfy. I smiled at this. I leaned down a kissed Alex on the forehead, he cuddled further into my side.
"Night Alex." I whispered
With that I spent my night watching a tear stained Alex sleep.

Notes

Well my mood been all over the fucking place!!
Which is why the chapter ended up like this.

Yeeeah bad thoughts are happening right now so I don't know if I can update or not...

Im at my dads until Sunday soi won't be able to update...

I don't known if I can update Monday as it my Birthday sooo I don't known when I'll be able to update

When your own writing triggers you... smooth Chloe smooth...

but I am now coursework free for two weeks so expect lots of updates