Alex POV

As I woke up for the third and final time in this quiet place. I actually kind of like it here. I don't have to worry about school and homework and all the stresses of school life. I've made a friend and I've cleared my mind. The breakfast bell sounded and I had a pep in my step that I haven't had in a while. Maybe it's just because I am going home today or maybe I am actually getting a little bit better. I found mike and we sat at a different table then we had before. The girl, cadence, was sitting there picking at her eggs.

"Hey cadence, this is Alex." Mike introduced me

"Hey what are you in for?" She asked with a smile

"Suicide attempt. It's my last day. You" I asked

"Anorexia. Parents put me in here" she took a tiny bite out of her toast

"Fun. When do you get out" I smiled

"Two weeks. It's bull shit." She looked at the eggs on her plate and put pepper on them

"I've been there" I half smiled

"Yeah. But you get out today" she sighed

"I'm not to thrilled about that to be honest" I picked at the eggs on my plate

"School?" She asked

"Oh yeah" I looked at my arms

"Ohh I get it. It's going to be okay" cadence smiled

"I hope so" she held me hand

"Here. When you get out. Call me. Leave a message. I'll call and check on you when I get out" she wrote her number on my hand

"Okay. Here's mine. So you could call me while you're here" we smiled at each other

Shortly after breakfast ended Mitch came up to me and told me that Tom would be here in an hour or so, and that the discharge papers might take a bit. I told him I was already ready and that I was really nervous to get back to school. He sat me down and gave me the same chat he had given me before. After he left I sat and thought for a while. I guess I was most nervous about what people say. Sure the weather is getting colder and I could get away with a sweater but what do I tell people. How do I tell them what I do to myself. How do I tell jack.

Before I knew it Mitch had come in for my last dressing change and also telling me that Tom would be here in 10 minutes to sign me out so I should go say goodbye to people if I wanted to. After he was done I went to mikes room he was sitting with cadence and they were talking. Mike waved for me to enter. I stood in the door way and told him that I would be leaving soon. He gave me a big hug. I gave him my number and told him to call me when he got out. Cadence gave me a hug. I pulled my sweater sleeves up without noticing and frankly didn't care anymore.

"Hey I think my brother is here. Walk with me?" I asked both of them

"Sure" they said in unison

Some how the two minute walk turned into 10. I wasn't really nervous until we got close to the
nurses station I got sight of Tom. My sleeves were still rolled up as I gave her and mike hugs.

They waited as Tom finished signing me out. As I gathered my things cadence smiled. I told her to call me tomorrow after three. As Tom and I walked to the car I started to feel sad. I know it had only been three days but I'm going to miss mike. I know it would only be two weeks before I would here from them but I desperately didn't want to go back school tomorrow.
Tom and I got into the car and that is when he broke the silence.

"I'm glad you are alive" he said very melancholy

"So am I" I looked at him, he was looking at my arms

"Did you have any revelations in there?" Tom smiled

"Yeah. And hear this. I made friends" i said and Tom playfully gasped

"Alexander Gaskarth. Having friends. No." I hit him on the chest

"Get driving. I want to go home." He pulled out of the parking lot and I noticed my phone in the cup holder

"I'm trusting you with your phone. Be safe but knock yourself out" he half smiled as I turned it on

"Thanks for putting up with my shit. What would I do without you" I patted his shoulder

"No problem. I just want you to stay safe. You don't have to go to school tomorrow if you really
really don't want to" Tom implied that I was probably not going to school tomorrow

"Thanks." I said as we pulled onto the highway

Apparently I had fallen asleep in the car on the ride home because Tom woke me up as we sat in the drive way. I noticed something was different. As I looked around more I realized that there was another car in the drive way. Not my busted grand am but a gorgeous silky black 67 Impala. My dream car.

"Wha. Where. Huhhh. Where'd that come from" I stuttered as my vision cleared

"The old man down the street got sick so he had to sell it to get some money for treatment. It
was cheap and I know it's your dream car so I got it for you. It's all yours.... If you can stay clean for two months. If not you get the grand am. And I get the impala." Tom dangled the keys in front of my face

"You're the best brother ever" I hugged him like a kid in a candy store

"I know. Now let's go in. I have to call someone and then I'll make food" tom smiled as he opened the door

"So what's new with you since I haven't seen you in a while" I asked

"Nothing really. School sucks. I have been going out on a few dates with this one girl" tom
smiled as he started getting stuff out for grilled cheeses

"Oh tommy likes someone" I teased

"Well if we are going to talk about liking people. Who is little lexy in love with" He asked as I
took a bite out of a cheese slice

"No one in particular" I lied

"Really eh" he questioned

"Yeah. Well kind of but I'm not going to tell you" I smiled

"Okay" Tom smiled and handed me a plate of grilled cheese as he started on his

"Whatever. So what have you been doing" I asked

"Not much really. I caught up with an old friend too" he smiled

"Anyone I know?" I inquired

"Maybe" he teased

"Oh god. Did Cass call you" I worried

"No, not Cass" tom smiled

"Then who. Just tell me god damn" I took a bite out of my grilled cheese

"Jack" he said


"WHAT THE FUCK" I spit out my mouthful of sandwich

"He called me a few days ago" tom shied away

"Did you tell him I was in the hospital. SO HELP YOU GOD IF YOU DID YOU ARE DEAD" I yelled

"I didn't tell him anything. I promise" he softly said

"That's it I'm going to school tomorrow" I insisted

"Whatever you want" tom smiled

"Can I take the impala?" I asked

"Only if you eat everything I give you for dinner, and change your dressings tomorrow morning" tom insisted

"Fine. I will. What is for dinner anyway" I asked

"Pasta" tom said as he sat next to me and ate his grilled cheese

"Cool. Hey is it okay if I go to my room and call someone" I asked

"Yeah. I put the stuff for dressing changes on your dresser." He said as I put my plate in the sink

"Okay, cool, thanks" I said bounding up the stairs

As I made it to the hall with my room on it I walked passed the bathroom I did it in. I could see small dots of brown still in the grout. I shuttered as I recalled the events of Monday night. I walked into my room and looked around. There were a few boxes of different medical supplies on the dresser and a pile of neatly folded clothes on my made bed. I put my phone on the dock and opened my laptop. As it logged on, messages started popping up on a few different social media accounts. Twitter, tumbler, Facebook, so on and so forth. Some asked about where I was, some asked about if I was okay, some just wanted something from me. There was one that struck me.

Have you finally killed yourself

From some anon on tumblr. I decided to shut down that account. Loosing the three thousands or so followers I had. I had other accounts. Ones that were less about depression and sadness and more about recovery. Those accounts had more meaning to them. The people that followed those wanted help. Some needed an outlet to talk about their feelings some just needed inspiration to get help.

I closed my screen and skyped Cass.

"Hey lexy long Time no see" her chipper tone came through the screen

"Hey Cass" said shyly

"What's going on I miss you." She smiled

"Nothing really."I smiled and took my sweater off

"Getting into any mischief" she asked

"Maybe a little bit" I adjusted my computer

"Lexy, what happened" she sounded disappointed

"Nothing. I'm fine" I smiled

"No something happened. I know you to well" she was right

"I'm actually really really happy for once" I smiled

"You might be happy now but something happened in the past week I can tell" she was good at telling when something was off

"Everything is fine" I threw my sweater back on and covered my hands

"Show me them" Cass said boldly

"No" I said

"So you are still self harming" she figured out

"Yeah" I was ashamed

"Let me see" Cass frowned

"They are covered" I explained

"Show me" she demanded lightly

"Okay" I pulled my sleeves up

"Lexy you can't keep doing this" she shook her head

"I know I know. I have already gotten that chat from tommy" I showed her the dressings

"How bad are they" she asked

"Total of 29 stitches" I sighed

"Really lexy. You think that's okay" she shed a few tears

"No it's not good I know. But I'm getting better" I smiled

"Are you going back on meds" she asked

"Yeah. New ones that should work better." I smiled

"That's good. I want you to be happy" she smiled

"I am actually happy. I have an eye on someone" I smiled

"Guy or girl" she asked

"Not telling" I blushed

"It's a guy right" she smiled

"Again. Not telling" I teased

"Oh whatever" she smiled

"So how's school there" I asked

"It's cool. There are so many fun classes you should come visit some time. How is school there" she smiled wide

"School is nice. I have all blow off classes and my English teacher is kinda cute. He is probably super straight though" I smiled

"You never know until you ask. Plus you're legal" Cass brushed some hair out of her face

"I know." I took my jacket off again. It was getting warm in my room

"Well I have to go back to work. I'll call you later, okay babe" Cass half frowned

"Okay as long as you don't abandon me. You are still my best friend. Zack and rian have
nothing on you" I smiled looking past the screen at an old picture of the 4 of us

"I know. School here is just really hectic right now with mid terms and such. I'll try and call as often as I can" she smiled

"Okay, well I'll let you go. I think tom needs me" I smiled pushing hair out of my face

"Okay babe. Stay strong. You can do it, I promise" she said monotonously

"I know babe. I can do it" I smiled back at her

"Okay. I'll call you soon. But I have to go now" she half smiled

"Okay, love you" I half smiled as well

"Love you too" her smile grew

"See you later" I said

"Okay beaver" she smiled from ear to ear

"Okay badger" I smiled remembering our fourth grade nicknames

The awkward silence inside until I finally said bye and turned the chat off.

I yelled down to tom that I was going to take a shower and then walked down the hall with towel in hand. I mostly needed to wash my hair as it was getting quite greasy and gross. I turned the water to hot and undressed. The scars on my legs and stomach were white with small pink and purple ones here and there. I stepped under the water and smiled at the warmth. Not to boiling but not cold enough to burn calories. Just right when steam swirls in the the air and the mirror fogs in a few minutes. I was in and out is 20 minutes, when I turned the water off I rung my hair out and wrapped the towel across my waist. Tom caught me as I was walking back to my room.

"How was your shower" he asked

"Good. I'm so glad I'm home" I smiled

"That's good. Get dressed and come down stairs soon. I want to talk to you" he said

"Oh-okay is everything okay" I stuttered my anxiety going haywire

"Everything is great. I just want to talk to you. Set some house rules and such." Tom walked past me and into our moms room and shut the door

I got into my room and threw on some basketball shorts and a purple v neck shirt. I didn't bother covering my stitches. I walked down stairs and tom was sitting on the couch watching tv.

"Okay so what are we talking about" I plopped down across from him putting my feet on the coffee table

"One, you, Two, rules. He said bluntly

"Okay shoot" I sat back

"I talked to your therapist today before I checked you out. She wants to see you once every
other week" he rung his hands

"Okay. I can do that." I shrugged

"You are on meds. You are to stay on them unless otherwise stated to me by your therapist" tom said

"I wasn't planning on going off my meds" I picked up the remote and put it to Pandora

"Okay. Two. I will be staying home for a few days so I can make sure you're stable. You can
still go to school tomorrow but if you go out with friends or stay after I need to know." His voice stern but soft

"I'm probably going to stay after. To get my work and such" I said

"Okay just text me when you think you will be home" ton smiled

"Can do. Anything else" I asked

"No not really. You can go if you want to." He picked up his phone

"Thanks for everything tommy" I grinned wide

"No problem. I only do it because I love you and I don't want to see you waste away." He half smiled

"Is that all because I am really tired. I think I'm going to take a nap" I asked as I yawned

"Yeah, that's it. I'll get you for dinner if you are still sleeping." Tom got up as I did

"Okay. Thanks, again." We hugged

"I worry about you" tom half smiled

"I know. What can I say, manage me I'm a mess" I said as I left the living room

"Okay go take your nap. You get a little weird when you're hungry" Tim smiled

"Bitch what do you think this is, a snickers commercial" I laughed

"Good night Alexander" he shooed me away

"Whatever Thomas" I smiled as I walked up the stairs

I got to my room and heard my phone ring from my pocket. It was a random number so I answered hesitantly.

"Alex" I heard a male voice from the other end

"This is he. Who is this?" I asked

"It's mike. From the hospital" I smiled to myself

"Oh hey. What's up" I said cheerily

"Nothing. Bored out of my brains" he laughed

"I'm sorry. Maybe I'll come by tomorrow" I suggested

"If you do, bring your guitar" I could hear a giggle in the background

"Is cadence there next to you" I asked

"Yeah. She wanted to talk to you too" he laughed

"Hey cadence" I said louder so she could hear

"Hey Alex" I heard from the background

"God I love and hate being home" I said

"Why, you don't have to be here" he sounded sad

"I don't know. It just doesn't feel like home tonight." I sighed

"I'm sorry bro" mike smiled

"Don't bro me. Bro" I laughed

"Okay. Well Mitch is telling us we need to get off the phone so, see you tomorrow maybe" he said

"I'll see if I can" I smiled

We exchanged good byes and hung up.

I chose a playlist off my phone and plugged it into my dock. It was my sad songs for sad days playlist. Full of emotional soft pop punk songs that kind of made me want to cry but didn't. I turned the lights out in my room and laid in bed. As I drifted off to sleep I thought about Jack. I don't really know what I'm going to say to him tomorrow. I just know I would probably end up staying after school for a while with him.


*the next morning*


I woke up in a rush as my alarm went off. I was in my bathroom rushing to get ready when tom waltzed in.

"Dude. Why are you rushing? It's fucking 5 am" He yawned

"What?" I asked

"Yeah" he stuck his hands in his pockets

"Are you fucking kidding me" I wanted to yell "I thought it was 8"

"Nope" tom nudged me out of the way so he could get to the sink

"Now I'm wide awake and don't have to be at school for another two and a half hours" I wanted to rip my hair out

"Sorry bro" he said as I left the bathroom

I changed back into my pajama bottoms and went downstairs. It was still pretty dark out and
the sun was only just rising. I made a cup of coffee and sat in the living room. I grabbed my acoustic off the stand beside the fire place and started to play. I had been writing a few songs lately and wanted to try them out. Tom sat with me for about an hour until I had to finish getting ready.

I wiggled into my skinny jeans and pulled on a black v neck t shirt. On my way out of my room I grabbed my grey vans and grey cardigan. Tom greeted me downstairs with my coffee and anti depressants.

"Did you clean and change your arms" he asked

"Yes mom" I mocked

"Good. There are toaster waffles on the counter next to your backpack. The keys to the impala are on the key ring by the door." Tom said

"Thanks tommy. You're the best" I grabbed my coffee from him and went to leave

"I know. Now don't crash the car" tom said as I walked out the door

"Bye" I yelled

I threw my bag in the back and ate my waffles. I plugged my phone into the radio and put on my green day station. As I pulled out of the drive way I could see tom looking out of the front room window. The ride to school was short and quiet. No jamming out like I usually do. I pulled into the school parking lot and got out. I still wasn't wearing my sweater as I stepped out of my car when Lisa, my best friend of god knows how long, comes up and hugs me around the waist.

"Hey babe" I said as I turned around

"I missed you. What happened to you Hun" she looked at my arm

"Relapse. Really bad" I pulled on my cardigan

"Babe. You can't do that" she sighed

"I know I know. Tom gave me that speech already" I wrapped my arm around her

"Well you look good. Little pale but not really noticeable" she put her arm around my waist again

"Thanks we should probably be getting to class" I put my backpack on

"Yeah we probably should. Want me to carry that" she pointed to my guitar in the back

"I got it" I said reaching in the back

"Okay" she leaned on the hood as I grabbed my guitar out of the back

"Let's go kiddo" I sad as I walked past her

We walked into school as we always did when we were together. Her arm around my waist and mine around her shoulders. My sleeves were rolled up a little and some people started to see the bottoms of the bandages. As we stopped at my locker some people started to ask me questions. Mostly asking if I was okay and I just told them I had been in the hospital for a few days and to not worry.

I took a sip of my coffee as I walked into jacks room.

"Hey baraslut" I teased

"Gaskarth. You're back" his voice perked up

"What're you so happy about " I asked putting my stuff down at a front desk

"Tom told me you were sick. I'm glad you're feeling better." Jack half smiled

"Yeah I heard" I pushed up my sleeves

"Alex what happened to you dude. Looks like you really were in the hospital" some kid in the back asked

"I'll talk about it as long as it is not impacting the very riveting lesson jay here is going to teach" I looked at Jack and put my hand in my back pocket

"No be my guess Alex" Jack smiled like he knew

"How many people have had some really bad days. Where they want to escape but don't know how? Well for me I used to hurt myself and Monday I went to far loosing quite a lot of blood landing me in the hospital for a few days but no biggie. I'm back and stronger then ever" I smiled relieved to get that off my back

"Wow. I didn't expect you to come out and say that so openly" Jack said texting someone

"Well pain changes people and so does recovery." I sat in the skinny chair next to his desk

"I'm proud of you. Well now you got the class riled up. Guys lets quiet down. I'll give you half
hour of free time as long as we can get through the lesson" Jack announced

Jack did as he said. He taught for half the class and then let us do whatever for the rest of the time

"Alex can you sing" someone from the back asked

"Sure what kind of song. Happy or sad" I ruffled my hair

"Sad" came the reply

I started to play my favorite sad song, stay strong by AVP. I was a little teary eyed towards the end and wiped my eyes as I stopped singing.

"God that song always makes me cry. No matter what" I laughed

"Adams song" Jack said from his desk

"No. Too many sad songs." I giggled

"The middle jimmy eat world" he suggested

"That's better" I started to play again

I played a few more songs before the bell rings. As I start packing my guitar away Jack clears his throat

"Hey. Can you see me at the end of the day" he smiled

"Was already planning on it" I winked as I walked through the door way

"Tease" I heard him say under his breath

"You know it barakitty" I laughed

My other classes were super boring. That was until fifth hour when an old friend came and sat with me at lunch.

"Hey Vic. Long time no see amigo. What's up" I was surprised as he sat across from me

"Hey lex. Nothing really. I'm glad you're okay" he half smiled

"Thanks dude. I'm so glad I'm okay. It could have turned out so much worse" I played with the bandages sticking out from under my sweater

"Yeah I know. I've been there too" he tapped his wrist

"Really. You out of all people" I was shocked

"No. You out of all people" he half smiled

"Shit happened in my personal life. Pain is pain no matter how bad" I said

"Yeah I guess so. Anyway. We should hang out some time. We really need to catch up" Vic sounded kind of sad

"Yeah, totally, I have to meet barakat for something after school so meet me at my house at 'round 4." I smiled

"Okay dude. Sounds good. Still live in the old house" he laughed

"Yeah. The old oak is still in the yard" I chuckled

"Okay see you later. I have to go see a teacher" he got up and left

Vic was a good kid. Him and I used to be really good friends as kids but as I became really depressed I pushed everyone away. I know he will forgive me. He understands what it feels like I guess.

The end of the day could not come fast enough. I waltzed by jacks room. He was sitting in his chair playing Adams song. I leaned against the door frame waiting for him to finish.

"Hey jay" I scared him a little

"Hey Alex. How long have you been there" he asked

"First chorus. You are pretty good" I said walking into the room

"Thanks. Nothing compared to you" he flattered me

"Oh shush. I'm not that good" I blushed

"You are amazing shut up" he pointed to the chair next to him

"So what's up teach" I crossed my legs

"How are you" he looked at my arms

"I'm doing really well actually. Still worried but hopefully I can do this" I peeled my cardigan off

"Worried? 'Bout what?" He asked

"Relapse, life, love, tom, music, health, safety" I listed off

"I understand life and relapse, but what about the others." Jack put his guitar back in the stand

"Tom because he worries about me so much he doesn't look after himself, music because it is my future career hopefully, health because I worry that I have become a monster and can't stop, and safety because same thing as the ladder" I toyed with the wrapping on my left arm

"Tom is an adult and can care for himself, any record label would be honored to sign you, and you can do this. You can recover. I have so much faith in you that you can recover and hopefully never go back to this" he scooted closer to me

"Alex, you are so amazingly talented that you could go anywhere. Even if you didn't go to music you could always get into pretty much any college you wanted. I have seen your grades. Straight A's and a 35 on your ACT. You have so much potential" I was crying at this point

"Why are you being so nice to me" I wiped a stray tear

"Cause I see myself in you. My first day of senior year my theory teacher sat me down and gave me this talk and he got me through so much. I've been in your situation. I know what it's like to sink metal into your skin. I had your grades and ambition to become anything I wanted and I'm stuck here teaching. Don't get me wrong I love it but it is so not my ideal job. I would love to be on tour and playing shows for people but if I did would I ever get to give you this talk. Maybe not. So do whatever your heart desires." He held my hands in his

All my emotions released at once and I didn't know what to do so I just kissed him. I kissed


Jack and he kissed back. Oh deAR FUCKING GOD. I KISSED JACK FUCKING BARAKAT. MY MUSIC THEORY TEACHER AND I KISSED. AND HE KISSED ME BACK.


We broke after a few seconds and just looked at eachother

"Woahhh" Jack breathed

"Yeah I know" I exhaled

"That was nice. I'm not going to lie I liked that" he smiled

"So did I but I know I shouldn't have done that" I leaned in my chair

"Well fuck" he ruffled his hair

"Yeah. No one can know about this." I went to get my back pack

"Agreed. But it was good" he smiled

"Ohhhh yeah. Is it bad that I want it to happen again" I asked

"I'm not entirely sure to be honest" he got up and paced the room

"I'm sorry. That was totally uncalled for" I got up and went to leave

"No. I liked it." He stepped in front of me

"I have to go. I'll see you tomorrow jay" I didn't know how to feel

"I'll walk you out" he suggested

"That's okay. I just need to get home. Now" I opened the door and wanted to sink in the floor
Why did I kiss Jack. My hands made their way to my pockets.

"Hey lex. Wait up" I hear Jack from down the hall
He caught up to me but I didn't speak. I still couldn't comprehend what exactly happened.

"Alex. It's okay. I'm not going to tell anyone this happened" he grabbed my arm

"I just don't know why I did it." I pulled my arm back

"I understand. I'm super hot I know" he giggled and I couldn't help but smiling

"That might be a part of it. And I do really want it to happen again" I smiled

"Just ask and your wish is my command" he faced me

"Maybe one more. But not in school" I caved

"I can deal with that" Jack smiled

"So what else in my slightly pedophelic theory teacher into besides fucked up 18 year olds" I asked

"Stuff you probably don't know about. Adult stuff" he winked

"How bad can it be" I gandered

"It's pretty bad" he smiled

"Like what. Anal" I laughed

"Maybe" he winked

"You're gross" I smacked his chest

"I never said I did anal" he rubbed his chest

"Still gross" I smirked

As we reached my car Jack was leaning against the drivers side blocking my way to get into the car.

"I actually have to get home. Tom is going to be pissed" I tried to grab the door

"Can I have one more kiss" he asked
I grabbed the collar of his shirt and pulled his body to mine. He put his hand under my chin and brought my lips to his. The kid was soft and sweet and shorter then I wanted it to be but it was okay.

"Hey can I get your number?" He asked as I pulled away

"And now you ask me?" I smirked

"Yeah. I was going to ask for it earlier but I couldn't figured out how to ask" he stammered a bit

"Shy boy" I winked and took his phone out of his hand

"I get very nervous" he rubbed his neck as I put my number in his phone

"You? Really" I gave him his phone back

"Yeah. Anxiety is my enemy" jack said as his hands went to his hair

"I understand, I actually have to get home. Tom is going to get mad at me" I started putting my stuff in the car

I was about to get in when I pulled him close again and gave him one more kiss a little more forceful then the last and that's how I wanted it to end. We parted our ways and I drove home with a huge smile on my face. As I walked into the house tom yelled at me

"Didn't I tell you to text me" he angered

"I was with Jack okay. Now shut up. Vic is coming over in ten minutes or so. I'm going to tidy my room" I said as I went upstairs

"Text me next time. And you didn't eat dinner last night so you are getting extra tonight" he huffed

"What's for dinner anyways" I yelled from my room

"Steak with a red wine reduction sauce and mashed potatoes" he yelled back

"I'm okay with that" I picked up the three pieces of clothing off my floor

Was I a bit of a clean freak, yes, everything had to be perfect all the time when it came to my room. Everything had its place and every place had a thing. I was dusting off my guitar when there was a knock at the door frame

"Hey Vic" I half smiled

"Hey. Tom let me in" he smiled back walking into my room

"Kinda figured" I plopped into my bed

"God. Your room hasn't changed since we were kids" he laid down next to me looking at the ceiling

"Yeah. Just a few new posters and CD cases" I laughed

"So what's new" Vic turned onto his stomach

"So much. Everything really" I pulled off my sweater and placed it next to me

"Anything today" he smiled

"Oh yeah" thinking of the kiss

As I thought my butt buzzed

Hey lexy it's Jack, just making sure you didn't give me a fake number

Nope. It's me

Okay just checking. I'm still thinking of the kiss

Same. I can't get it out of my head

Same. I know it is so wrong but it feels so right kissing you

That's how I feel. I almost wish we had school just so I could see you.

We could always get coffee

I would love that but I have to go visit someone in the hospital

Okay

Notes

guys i know im terrible for not updating for the past few months but i have been working on this chapter forever and i couldnt find the right time to end it without drawing everything out, sorry for the huge wait, but heres the new chapter.