Some Days Feel Like Razorblades

Jack POV

The longer I sat around this morning the more I really didn't care about anything today. I know I still have bad days. And I know I still have really bad days, but as I sat with her picture in one hand and the corsage she wore to prom with me in the other the more I missed her. I knew I had to go to work and all, I just couldn't get myself to get dressed and go. I called the school and told them that I had gotten a mild case of poisoning and that I wouldn't be coming in today. I went back in my room and grabbed the stuffed animal she got me for our six month anniversary along with The Nightmare Before Christmas, our movie. We used to watch it once a week at least. I fell back asleep singing the oogie boogie song.
I woke to the sound of my phone ringing. Picking it up I could see the caller ID say Tom. I sat up, rubbed my eyes and answered.
"Hey tom" I sleepily said

"Hey jack" he responded

"What's up" i asked stretching

"I'm on my way to pick Alex up and I'm more nervous than I should be" he replied

"Oh that's today. Don't worry, he is coming home, hopefully a lot better than before" I responded

"But what if he just, you know, hates me, for putting him here" toms voice was hesitant

"You did this for the better. If he hates you, you did the right thing." I reassured

"Thanks. Hey I'll call you later okay"

"No problem. Talk to you later" I smiled to myself

"Bye" Tom said

"Bye" I hung up


I sat back in my covers and smiled. I'm glad Alex is coming home today. He seems like a really good kid under his "popular prick" exterior. The half hour after school Monday that him and I spent together I think he was himself. Sure there was still some of the popular guy showing but there was a small glimmer of someone else in there. A softer more mature person who I believe to be his true self. I'll probably have him stay after again tomorrow, if he comes to school, so I can talk to him. Pick his brain in a way. As I sank back into the covers the more my eyelids became heavy and the more I drifted off to sleep. You know the thing I love about sleep is that it's like a temporary death. Like for those 7-9 hours you are alive but not alive. If you know what I mean.

As I woke up again I noticed my phone blowing up. I rubbed my eyes and unplugged my phone and unlocked it as I got out of bed. Most of them were from various old friends wanting me to go partying with them this weekend. Some of them were from Tom. Mostly saying that Alex was home safe and that he didn't hate Tom. I breathed a sigh of relief as I read one specific text that said that Alex was happy. That he had made a change and that he has decided to be his true self. I don't know why I was so happy while I read that message, I guess it's just knowing that this setback made him rethink his actions and behavior and that he has changed for the better. I told Tom that I would call him later and that I was happy for him and Alex. I set my phone on the dock in my bathroom and played music as I hopped in the shower. I was happy for Alex. I really was. Everyone deserves to be happy and I don't think everyone understands that.

Notes

im going to be posting another chapter of this tonight so you can look forward to that. Sorry I have been inactive but school started and I have band practice every other day pretty much, stay with me, I am going to try to post as much as I can.