Alex insisted that Nyssa and I get away from everyone for the day to just hang out and have a girl’s day. He got Matt to agree and he gave us some cash to spend on ourselves. We decided on some retail therapy to help me feel better after my mental breakdown last night and with Nyssa being scared out of her wits.
“I want to get me and Alex some matching clothes. I want to have a day when he and I match for the fun of it. That and I need to get myself some beanies. His are too big for my little head,” I told her as we checked on our phones where to go shopping.
“I want to look for a shop that sells anime so I can get some new ones,” Nyssa added.
“Alright let’s go,” I link arms with her and we set off into the city to shop to our hearts content.
♪Alex♪
After the last attack Bonnie had last night due to the chain reaction of Jack getting wasted off his ass, I nearly lost it myself. I fought through last night as much as I could to not have an attack myself. I haven’t had an attack in five years and I want to keep that record clean. Bonnie had three days between her attacks. And to make it worse, this last one was ten times worse. What concerned me was her fear of monsters in her mind. I wanted to know what was plaguing her. Maybe clearing those out will make her attacks fewer in number.
“You alright, Alex,” Josh asked. Jack was on the bus sulking and I was in one of the dressing rooms, hanging out with a bunch of the guys while my thoughts wandered.
“I’m worried for the safety of my girlfriend’s sanity,” I told him.
“Alex, you aren’t the only that’s worried about her. Nyssa told us that the attack was pretty bad this time,” Mike commented.
“You have no clue on how bad it was, Mike. She scared me so much; I almost had a panic attack. I couldn’t let myself slip. I’m her rock and I was weak for a moment. I don’t want Bonnie to be like that. I definitely didn’t want her to see me have an attack either,” I told him before I went to my phone to text Bonnie to check up on her.
♪Bonnie♪
Nyssa and I had finished shopping at three stores. I got a red, a black, and a grey beanie that matched the ones Alex had. I also got us a couple different flannel shirts and t-shirts that match. I also found some skinny jeans that matched a couple pairs that Alex had. I also snagged myself a pair of black TOMs since I’ve been dying to buy a pair. We were on our way back to the venue when I got a text from a certain someone.
Hey babe how are you holding up? I miss you. :( -AWGxox
I smiled a little at my text from Alex. I figured I’d text him back right away so he can know how I was doing.
I’m still shaken up from last night. I miss you too. Nyssa and I are on our way back right now. Do you want anything for Starbucks? Say nothing to Rian since Nyssa only have enough money left to pay for the two of us and you. –Bonnie <3
Nyssa and I waked into to Starbucks to look at the menu when I got a reply.
I’ll take a white chocolate mocha with a double shot of espresso. Thanks for offering. I’m going to take you out for dinner during the show before I go on. It’s casual tonight. I’ll see you when you get back. ;) –AWGxox
I smiled and Nyssa and I ordered our drinks. She got a hot chocolate. I got myself a vanilla bean crème frap since I wasn’t in the mood for coffee. I made sure to order Alex’s drink as well.

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Nyssa and I got back to the venue and we were greeted by Vic, Jaime, Bryan, and Alex. I handed Alex his coffee before kissing him briefly. He wrapped his arms around me, holding me to his chest. I let out a heavy sigh. My mind was fried from last night and I felt really down in the dumps due to it. I felt terribly guilty for making everything so hard for him. He loved me so much and I loved him just as much, but I was such a wreck since I ran out of my meds.
“How did the trip go,” Alex asked, pulling me out of my thoughts.
“Pretty good, I got myself some new clothes and I bought you some too, mainly a couple flannels and t-shirts. They match some of what I got too. I also got myself some of my own beanies since yours are too big,” I told him.
“How about we try on what you bought and then get ready for dinner tonight. I found a little diner just up the street we can eat at,” Alex replied.
He guided me into the bus and we ended up changing into our new matching black t-shirts, red and black flannel shirts, my black skinny jeans and his star spangled jeans, and then my new TOMs and his black high top sneakers.
♪Alex♪
I wanted to keep Bonnie’s mind off last night, but I could tell it was weighing heavily on her. I guess being with Nyssa only helped so much. I’m still pissed at Jack for the stunt he pulled last night. He scared the living daylights out of Nyssa. Nyssa couldn’t stand the idea of staying on the bus and didn’t leave a note or anything to let Bonnie know she was fine, causing Bonnie to freak out and have an anxiety attack. Then I almost slipped up as my girlfriend lost her sanity for two hours. I was glad Vic punched him. I love him like a brother, but he’s a total idiot at times and needs to get his ass kicked a couple times.
Bonnie and I get a table and we order a milkshake to share for tonight. We waited for the waitress to come back to take our orders.
“What can I you two tonight,” she asked as she pulled out her note pad.
“I’ll get the cheeseburger with fries,” I told her.
“I’ll just take an order of fries,” Bonnie ordered sheepishly.
“I’ll be back with your food,” the waitress left and I reached across the table and took Bonnie’s hand, giving it a gentle squeeze.
“Are you alright, Bonnie,” I asked her quietly.
“No, I’m still messed up from last night,” she replied honestly.
“I’ll share my fries so you can have plenty to eat. I don’t want to see you letting your worries eat away at you, okay,” I gave a reassuring smile and squeeze of her hand.
So help me, if Jack fucks up again and cause a chain reaction to scare the crap out of Bonnie and Nyssa, I will personally kick his ass and send him to the hospital. I think he nearly fractured Bonnie’s mind and I think even Nyssa’s too.