With You Around
Three
I tried my hardest not to zone in on Alex or space out on him as we chilled on the front lounge couch. I was trying to keep an eye on Nyssa since I needed to make sure she’d be fine tonight. When she starts to freak out and worry, my anxiety comes out a little and I worry about her like a mother hen.
“So, Bonnie, what do you do,” Alex asked me, drawing me out of my thoughts of worrying about Nyssa.
“Oh I work at a local photo studio as a photographer. Turns out not a whole lot of music management jobs out there right now,” I told him, rubbing my forearm a little since it was my nervous tick with my anxiety when I’m on my meds; when I’m off I pick or bite on my fingertips, sometimes until they bleed.
“That pretty cool,” Alex nodded, “Maybe I’ll have you take my portrait sometime.”
“Yeah, but I’ll charge you a pretty penny,” I flirted with him. It was eerie how I was able to be so confident with him. And thinking about it, I started rubbing my arm again.
“Are you alright, Bonnie? Are you cold? I can give you a jacket,” Alex seemed worried. I guess I have to let the cat out of the bag.
“I’m fine. I’m just a little nervous,” I told him, blushing a little.
“Would you like something to drink? We have rockstars, beer, Jack, tequila, and more beer,” he listed off what he had.
“I’ll take a shot of Jack and a shot of tequila,” I replied with a smile. Nyssa hated me on tequila since I get really rowdy on it. I knew I needed to be rowdy tonight so I won’t have an anxiety.
“Bonnie I’m not letting you get hammered tonight. I am not driving us home,” Nyssa scolded me since I wanted to start drinking.
“Nyssa, the earlier I start, the sooner I stop,” I told her as Alex handed me my shot of Jack, which I slammed back in one swig. I took Jack down like a champ. Thanks to my British Isle genes I got from my dad.
“I can honestly say that I have never met a girl that can slam down Jack so quickly,” Alex smirked as he prepped us shots of tequila, salt and lime included.
“Well you need to get out more often, Gaskarth,” I smirked back at him as I joined him at the counter.
“On three we take our shots. 1…2…,” Alex started the countdown.
“Three,” I shouted and we licked our hands, salted them, licked the salt, slammed back the tequila, and then sucked on our lime slices. Alex’s face scrunched up so tightly from the sour of the lime mixing with the bitter bite of the tequila. I was sure my expression matched.
“You and I are going to have fun tonight,” Alex smiled at me as he took my spent lime and threw it away.
“WHO’S UP FOR A GAME OF KINGS,” Vinny shouted as he got back on the bus again.
“The guys don’t have time for Kings. Save it for the after party tonight,” Matt interjected before Alex and I could agree for a game of Kings.
“Buzz kill,” Jack shouted at Matt.
“Oh man,” Nyssa shook her head and put her face in her hands.
“Oh relax, Nyssa. I’ll take you home before we’d play if you’d like,” I told her.
“Not a chance. How will you get your wasted behind back to the apartment,” she had a good point.
“She could hitch a lift from our golf cart,” Alex offered.
“We’ll figure it out later,” I told her.
Before long, my private hang time with Alex and the gang was cut short when Nyssa and I had to go into the venue with the other kids that got M&G so we’d blend in and not stick out for being out on their bus. Once the guys finally came in I finally went into my awesome Batman bag and pulled out my phone and copy of Nothing Personal. NP was my first physical album I got, and I kept it on constant rotation.
“Well hi what’s your name,” Alex asked flirtatiously, trying to hide the fact we’ve already met and shared a couple drinks.
“Bonnie,” I replied, going along with it. Nyssa face-palmed at my constant flirting and blushing with Alex while she waited her turn to meet the guys again.
After he signed my CD, Alex and I posed for a picture for my phone. Just before my phone’s camera flashed, he kissed my cheek making me turn beat red. God, he was such a shameless flirt and I was falling for him more and more than I already was. After Nyssa gave me back my phone, Alex swiped it from me while some of the other fans weren’t watching. When he handed it back, I found my contacts open to a new entry, AWG. Alex just gave me his number. My heart just skipped a beat.
“I already sent a text to myself. Now I have your number. Be prepared for a lot of spamming tonight,” he winked at me before he went back to working the crowd.
When the M&G ended. Nyssa and I went into the main floor area before a member of security came to get us. Which came along with a text from a certain someone.
I just set a guy from security to fetch you and Nyssa. Can’t wait to see your hazel eyes again. ;) –AWGxo
“Nyssa, let’s go,” I grabbed her hand and dragged her behind me as we went outside again and back onto the bus.
“There’s our two favorite Florida girls,” Jack shouted as we walked back on. Well, it was only me walking on and Nyssa tripping a little. I caught her before Jack could notice her little slip up.
“Took you two long enough to get back,” Alex smiled as he patted the open spot next to him for me to sit. I glad accepted his invitation and sat down. I then proceeded to steal a sip of his beer.
“You guys need better beer,” I teased.
“This was free thank you. And this is MY beer, Miss Bonnie. Get your own,” Alex stuck his tongue out at me, “Rian, be a good bitch and give this lovely lady a PBR!”
“Hey be nice to him. He has to help you keep a beat,” I slapped him on the shoulder as Rian grabbed me a beer, “Thanks Rian.”
“Anytime,” he replied simply before going back to his phone. That’s when I spaced again, thinking about Nyssa and worrying about her again.
“Earth to Bonnie,” Alex waved his hand in front of my face, making me snap out of my thoughts again.
“I’m sorry. Once I get some booze in me, my meds where off,” I blushed and sipped my beer.
“Meds,” Alex was puzzled.
♪Alex♪
“Meds,” I asked Bonnie. I was curious by her answer.
“I have ADHD and anxiety. I take medication for it. I’ve been on Ritalin since I was like nine and I was put on my anxiety meds when I started middle school,” she explained.
“To be honest, I have anxiety too. I sometimes have panic attacks. I’ve gotten better with time and talking about it with the guys. Maybe I could help you focus,” I offered. Everything about Bonnie echoed something of me. Plus she was so unique compared to other girls I’ve met. She just draws me in. I’m pretty glad I ran into her a few hours ago. If I hadn’t, I might have lost a chance at a real girl I could connect with.
“What was your trigger, if you don’t mind sharing,” she asked, blushing a little.
“I don’t really remember my trigger, to be honest. It was so long ago and I don’t usually talk about it,” I told her.
“My trigger was my ADHD. I was teased and bullied by the other girls in middle school because I didn’t stop moving and I was always so smart and quick in class. It was pretty brutal and I actually had an anxiety attack that landed me in the nurses office since I almost stopped breathing,” she told me.
“That’s some rough shit. And it was the past, which you grew from into this amazing girl I’m having the honor of talking to,” I smiled, which made her smile. I decided to be a little ballsy and kissed her forehead.
“Guys, You have ten minutes to get into your on stage clothes, put in you in ear monitors, and dressed into your boxing robes,” Matt said as he popped into the bus for a moment.
“That’s my cue. Time to gear up,” I got up and changed into a different Glamour Kills shirt and got my monitor on. I grabbed my robe and gloves and planted another kiss on Bonnie’s cheek before I dragged her with me to side stage to have the greatest view ever.
“So, Bonnie, what do you do,” Alex asked me, drawing me out of my thoughts of worrying about Nyssa.
“Oh I work at a local photo studio as a photographer. Turns out not a whole lot of music management jobs out there right now,” I told him, rubbing my forearm a little since it was my nervous tick with my anxiety when I’m on my meds; when I’m off I pick or bite on my fingertips, sometimes until they bleed.
“That pretty cool,” Alex nodded, “Maybe I’ll have you take my portrait sometime.”
“Yeah, but I’ll charge you a pretty penny,” I flirted with him. It was eerie how I was able to be so confident with him. And thinking about it, I started rubbing my arm again.
“Are you alright, Bonnie? Are you cold? I can give you a jacket,” Alex seemed worried. I guess I have to let the cat out of the bag.
“I’m fine. I’m just a little nervous,” I told him, blushing a little.
“Would you like something to drink? We have rockstars, beer, Jack, tequila, and more beer,” he listed off what he had.
“I’ll take a shot of Jack and a shot of tequila,” I replied with a smile. Nyssa hated me on tequila since I get really rowdy on it. I knew I needed to be rowdy tonight so I won’t have an anxiety.
“Bonnie I’m not letting you get hammered tonight. I am not driving us home,” Nyssa scolded me since I wanted to start drinking.
“Nyssa, the earlier I start, the sooner I stop,” I told her as Alex handed me my shot of Jack, which I slammed back in one swig. I took Jack down like a champ. Thanks to my British Isle genes I got from my dad.
“I can honestly say that I have never met a girl that can slam down Jack so quickly,” Alex smirked as he prepped us shots of tequila, salt and lime included.
“Well you need to get out more often, Gaskarth,” I smirked back at him as I joined him at the counter.
“On three we take our shots. 1…2…,” Alex started the countdown.
“Three,” I shouted and we licked our hands, salted them, licked the salt, slammed back the tequila, and then sucked on our lime slices. Alex’s face scrunched up so tightly from the sour of the lime mixing with the bitter bite of the tequila. I was sure my expression matched.
“You and I are going to have fun tonight,” Alex smiled at me as he took my spent lime and threw it away.
“WHO’S UP FOR A GAME OF KINGS,” Vinny shouted as he got back on the bus again.
“The guys don’t have time for Kings. Save it for the after party tonight,” Matt interjected before Alex and I could agree for a game of Kings.
“Buzz kill,” Jack shouted at Matt.
“Oh man,” Nyssa shook her head and put her face in her hands.
“Oh relax, Nyssa. I’ll take you home before we’d play if you’d like,” I told her.
“Not a chance. How will you get your wasted behind back to the apartment,” she had a good point.
“She could hitch a lift from our golf cart,” Alex offered.
“We’ll figure it out later,” I told her.
Before long, my private hang time with Alex and the gang was cut short when Nyssa and I had to go into the venue with the other kids that got M&G so we’d blend in and not stick out for being out on their bus. Once the guys finally came in I finally went into my awesome Batman bag and pulled out my phone and copy of Nothing Personal. NP was my first physical album I got, and I kept it on constant rotation.
“Well hi what’s your name,” Alex asked flirtatiously, trying to hide the fact we’ve already met and shared a couple drinks.
“Bonnie,” I replied, going along with it. Nyssa face-palmed at my constant flirting and blushing with Alex while she waited her turn to meet the guys again.
After he signed my CD, Alex and I posed for a picture for my phone. Just before my phone’s camera flashed, he kissed my cheek making me turn beat red. God, he was such a shameless flirt and I was falling for him more and more than I already was. After Nyssa gave me back my phone, Alex swiped it from me while some of the other fans weren’t watching. When he handed it back, I found my contacts open to a new entry, AWG. Alex just gave me his number. My heart just skipped a beat.
“I already sent a text to myself. Now I have your number. Be prepared for a lot of spamming tonight,” he winked at me before he went back to working the crowd.
When the M&G ended. Nyssa and I went into the main floor area before a member of security came to get us. Which came along with a text from a certain someone.
I just set a guy from security to fetch you and Nyssa. Can’t wait to see your hazel eyes again. ;) –AWGxo
“Nyssa, let’s go,” I grabbed her hand and dragged her behind me as we went outside again and back onto the bus.
“There’s our two favorite Florida girls,” Jack shouted as we walked back on. Well, it was only me walking on and Nyssa tripping a little. I caught her before Jack could notice her little slip up.
“Took you two long enough to get back,” Alex smiled as he patted the open spot next to him for me to sit. I glad accepted his invitation and sat down. I then proceeded to steal a sip of his beer.
“You guys need better beer,” I teased.
“This was free thank you. And this is MY beer, Miss Bonnie. Get your own,” Alex stuck his tongue out at me, “Rian, be a good bitch and give this lovely lady a PBR!”
“Hey be nice to him. He has to help you keep a beat,” I slapped him on the shoulder as Rian grabbed me a beer, “Thanks Rian.”
“Anytime,” he replied simply before going back to his phone. That’s when I spaced again, thinking about Nyssa and worrying about her again.
“Earth to Bonnie,” Alex waved his hand in front of my face, making me snap out of my thoughts again.
“I’m sorry. Once I get some booze in me, my meds where off,” I blushed and sipped my beer.
“Meds,” Alex was puzzled.
♪Alex♪
“Meds,” I asked Bonnie. I was curious by her answer.
“I have ADHD and anxiety. I take medication for it. I’ve been on Ritalin since I was like nine and I was put on my anxiety meds when I started middle school,” she explained.
“To be honest, I have anxiety too. I sometimes have panic attacks. I’ve gotten better with time and talking about it with the guys. Maybe I could help you focus,” I offered. Everything about Bonnie echoed something of me. Plus she was so unique compared to other girls I’ve met. She just draws me in. I’m pretty glad I ran into her a few hours ago. If I hadn’t, I might have lost a chance at a real girl I could connect with.
“What was your trigger, if you don’t mind sharing,” she asked, blushing a little.
“I don’t really remember my trigger, to be honest. It was so long ago and I don’t usually talk about it,” I told her.
“My trigger was my ADHD. I was teased and bullied by the other girls in middle school because I didn’t stop moving and I was always so smart and quick in class. It was pretty brutal and I actually had an anxiety attack that landed me in the nurses office since I almost stopped breathing,” she told me.
“That’s some rough shit. And it was the past, which you grew from into this amazing girl I’m having the honor of talking to,” I smiled, which made her smile. I decided to be a little ballsy and kissed her forehead.
“Guys, You have ten minutes to get into your on stage clothes, put in you in ear monitors, and dressed into your boxing robes,” Matt said as he popped into the bus for a moment.
“That’s my cue. Time to gear up,” I got up and changed into a different Glamour Kills shirt and got my monitor on. I grabbed my robe and gloves and planted another kiss on Bonnie’s cheek before I dragged her with me to side stage to have the greatest view ever.
Notes
More to come darlings. Enjoy. :)♥ToxicxDancefloor♥
5/20/13