Nyssa's POV:
I didn't want Bonnie to worry about me, but because she knew I was freaking, she was worrying about me, which made me worry about her. Its a vicious cycle when it coems to situations like this.

I could already tell that the alcohol was working in her system, half of the time I was keeping an eye on her and the other half I was trying not to space out with Jack. Pretty soon I was being dragged with Bonnie and Alex to side stage for their set. Jack comes up behind me, "ready for a side stage performance?," he grins down at me. "Ye-yeah. Never been side stage before." "Well your in for a treat then!"

Soon enough it was time for their entrance and I was about to pull out my camera when Bonnie stopped me. "Don't. We don't know if we're allowed to film." I nod and take my hand out of my small bag I brought. I'm the type that always comes prepared.

"ZACK! NO SHIRT! NO PROBLEM! MERRICK!!!," Vinny says into the mic. At least I think it was Vinny. Zack walks out on stage and thrusts his arms in the air and takes off the robe. Then it was Rian. Then it was Jack, and I started laughing really hard when Barbie Girl played and he danced out goofy on stage. Then it was Alex.

They start playing Lost In Stereo and I was about to lose it. Lost In Stereo is my favorite song in general. "SHE'S DANGING ALONE!! I'M READY TO GO!! BUT SHE'S!-" and Bonnie covers my mouth. "Calm the fuck down Nyssa." I move her hand and look down, "sorry Bonnie... You know how I get when I get excited..." She sighs, "its fine. But try to stay calm at least here." "I'll try," I mumble. Its so hard to control myself when I get excited. I ended up looking weird and a fucken idiot when I do.

I couldn't stop smiling during their set and singing along, The happiest I ever feel is when I'm listening to music, and when I see Jack perform. Something about it helps my mind escape. I can't explain that feeling.

It was after the show now and Jack ran up to us smiling, sweat dripping off him and he stank. Stank was the right for him right now. I noticed he lost a shoe as well when he went in the pit. I couldn't but laugh. "What?" "You lost a shoe," I laugh and cover my mouth. He looks down and laughs, "well what do you know. I did."

I see Alex run up and he smiles down at Bonnie, "ready to go party?" "Yeah!" And they run off somewhere. "Ready Nyssa?" "....For what?" "To party of course! Now I can really drink! Come on!" He grabs my hand and I was soon running with him to a room for their monitor party. We run in and I already see Bonnie taking a shot with Alex and few other guys.

"Want a drink?" I shake my head, my mind was going crazy. He shrugs and runs over to where Bonnie was. They all take shots and I stand there awkwardly. I felt out of place. I look aorund, no food and no drinks without alcohol. Of course there wouldn't be. I stood at the corner, watching everyone. I wanted Bonnie to have a good time. Just because I don't drink doesn't mean I can't let Bonnie have a good time.

"Hey, whats your name," a guy slurs. He wasn't in any of the bands, I know that for a fact. He was leaning in and I wanted to gag at his breath. I push him away a bit, "your drunk, get away." "I'm not that drunk." He leans down and kisses me and I feel something cold and wet spill on me. I push him away and scream. He spilled his drink on me and he just kissed me.

I look up and realize that people were staring at me. My mind was going crazy. I wanted to cry. I wanted to leave. Yes. Leave. Get away from this. Jack wouldn't want to talk to me now. Why would he? No guy has ever wanted to talk to me before. I couldn't think straight, I was thinking of the worse things possible.

Before I knew what I was doing, I was running out of the room and down the hall, tears finally coming and streaming down my face.