With You Around
Two
Nyssa's POV:
My mind was whirling, trying to understand what was going on. Yes I'm the one who remembers, doesn't mean I remember and understand straight away. Curse my Dyspraxic mind. Sometimes I feel like Bonnie doesn't understand what I have to deal with everyday, but we both have to deal with the hell in our minds every day.
We literally just ran into Alex Gaskarth at our favorite coffee shop. And her literally asked us if we want to hang out with them and get backstage. I've heard about groupies and all that stuff, but I love All Time Low. They saved my life in 2007. They wouldn't use us, would they?
When Alex said that I looked old enough to drink, I wanted to go hide. I don't drink. I have never even taken a sip. Its something I decided years ago, when I was 16. A girl once questioned me why I'm a fan of All Time Low when I don't drink. Really? Last I checked, you don't have to drink to be a fan for shits sake.
"Nyssa? Nyssa," I hear Bonnie. I shake my head and look at her, "wha?" "You spaced out again," she whispers. I clench my hand into a fist, trying to hide how I felt in front of Alex. I always space out. Dyspraxic mind taking over again. I hate it.
"Well, what do you say Nyssa?," Alex smiles down at me. My mind and heart was racing, "ye-yeah. I like to." Come on, talk right. "Great! Well lets get going to the venue then, don't have that much time." "Should we follow you?," Bonnie asks. "Yeah, then I'll meet you by the buses." "I know where that is," I speak up. Fuck. why did I say that.
He laughs, "okay. See you there." We race to our car and I wanted to bang my head against the car. "Bonnie I'm freaking out." "So am I." "You don't understand, I can't think straight, I don't understand whats going on. I-I can't deal wif vis." ARE YOU KIDDING ME! I just messed up on my speech. Why. Why does this have to happen.
"We're gonna be fine Nyssa, just trust me." "Your the party girl, I'm the one who stands at the corner on my thone...Why do I keep messing up!!," I felt like I was about to cry. I didn't want to mess up in front of All Time Low. No. I would run away if they noticed. Especially Jack. I don't want Jack to notice.
"Calm down Nyssa... I'll drive okay?" I nod and we get in the car, I turn on Somewhere In Neverland and let the song take me away. Music is the only time where my Dyspraxic mind doesn't get in the way. Where its just me and my music, my mind blank and can only focus on what saved me and keeps me sane.
Before I know it, we reach the venue and follow Alex to where the tour buses are. She parks the car and we get out, walking up to Alex. He smiles at us, "just follow me onto the bus then. We're hanging out in here till its time to go in for the meet and greet." We nod and walk in with him, I was going shy again. I didn't want to be quiet, but I can't help it.
We go on the bus and we hear a loud crash and guys cussing. "JACK YOU DROPPED AND BROKE MY VODKA!!," I hear a guy yell. We get on and see the crew, Rian, and Jack laughing his ass off. "CHILL VINNY!!! YOU HAVE ANOTHER BOTTLE!!" "JACK FUCKEN CLEAN IT UP!!," Matt snaps.
Jack laughs more and gets up to grab paper towels. He starts cleaning up and looks up at us, he smiles at us, "well hello ladies. Alex who are they?" "This is Bonnie and Nyssa, I'm getting them backstage so they can hangout with us tonight." Jack stands up and grins at us, "nice. Can't wait to have fun tonight and party." He meant drinking. No no no...
"JACK HURRY THE FUCK UP AND CLEAN IT UP!!," Matt snaps more. "CHIL OUT MATT!! We have guests." He finishes cleaning up and I see that Bonnie and Alex area already talking on the couch. Leaving me standing there awkwardly.
Jack notices and walks up to me, "so your name is Nyssa. I like it, its cute and unique, and so are you," he grins. Is he hitting on me? "Ye-yeah. I'm Nyssa." Stay calm... Don't rush... "Well I assume you know I'm Jack." "Course I do!" "Well then this isn't awkward! Want a drink?" I take a breath, "no thank you." "Your right, not time to party. But I'm still taking a shot." "NOT FROM MY VODKA!!," Vinny yells.
He laughs and pours himself a shot of Jack Daniels. Its like time slowed down while I watch Jack pour the shot and gulp it down in one swift movement. "Now that I have a slight buzz, wanna chill?" "Sure."
Is this really happening? Hanging out with All Time Low? On their bus?
Please don't let my Dyspraxic mind get in the way. But knowing my mind, there's no stopping it.
My mind was whirling, trying to understand what was going on. Yes I'm the one who remembers, doesn't mean I remember and understand straight away. Curse my Dyspraxic mind. Sometimes I feel like Bonnie doesn't understand what I have to deal with everyday, but we both have to deal with the hell in our minds every day.
We literally just ran into Alex Gaskarth at our favorite coffee shop. And her literally asked us if we want to hang out with them and get backstage. I've heard about groupies and all that stuff, but I love All Time Low. They saved my life in 2007. They wouldn't use us, would they?
When Alex said that I looked old enough to drink, I wanted to go hide. I don't drink. I have never even taken a sip. Its something I decided years ago, when I was 16. A girl once questioned me why I'm a fan of All Time Low when I don't drink. Really? Last I checked, you don't have to drink to be a fan for shits sake.
"Nyssa? Nyssa," I hear Bonnie. I shake my head and look at her, "wha?" "You spaced out again," she whispers. I clench my hand into a fist, trying to hide how I felt in front of Alex. I always space out. Dyspraxic mind taking over again. I hate it.
"Well, what do you say Nyssa?," Alex smiles down at me. My mind and heart was racing, "ye-yeah. I like to." Come on, talk right. "Great! Well lets get going to the venue then, don't have that much time." "Should we follow you?," Bonnie asks. "Yeah, then I'll meet you by the buses." "I know where that is," I speak up. Fuck. why did I say that.
He laughs, "okay. See you there." We race to our car and I wanted to bang my head against the car. "Bonnie I'm freaking out." "So am I." "You don't understand, I can't think straight, I don't understand whats going on. I-I can't deal wif vis." ARE YOU KIDDING ME! I just messed up on my speech. Why. Why does this have to happen.
"We're gonna be fine Nyssa, just trust me." "Your the party girl, I'm the one who stands at the corner on my thone...Why do I keep messing up!!," I felt like I was about to cry. I didn't want to mess up in front of All Time Low. No. I would run away if they noticed. Especially Jack. I don't want Jack to notice.
"Calm down Nyssa... I'll drive okay?" I nod and we get in the car, I turn on Somewhere In Neverland and let the song take me away. Music is the only time where my Dyspraxic mind doesn't get in the way. Where its just me and my music, my mind blank and can only focus on what saved me and keeps me sane.
Before I know it, we reach the venue and follow Alex to where the tour buses are. She parks the car and we get out, walking up to Alex. He smiles at us, "just follow me onto the bus then. We're hanging out in here till its time to go in for the meet and greet." We nod and walk in with him, I was going shy again. I didn't want to be quiet, but I can't help it.
We go on the bus and we hear a loud crash and guys cussing. "JACK YOU DROPPED AND BROKE MY VODKA!!," I hear a guy yell. We get on and see the crew, Rian, and Jack laughing his ass off. "CHILL VINNY!!! YOU HAVE ANOTHER BOTTLE!!" "JACK FUCKEN CLEAN IT UP!!," Matt snaps.
Jack laughs more and gets up to grab paper towels. He starts cleaning up and looks up at us, he smiles at us, "well hello ladies. Alex who are they?" "This is Bonnie and Nyssa, I'm getting them backstage so they can hangout with us tonight." Jack stands up and grins at us, "nice. Can't wait to have fun tonight and party." He meant drinking. No no no...
"JACK HURRY THE FUCK UP AND CLEAN IT UP!!," Matt snaps more. "CHIL OUT MATT!! We have guests." He finishes cleaning up and I see that Bonnie and Alex area already talking on the couch. Leaving me standing there awkwardly.
Jack notices and walks up to me, "so your name is Nyssa. I like it, its cute and unique, and so are you," he grins. Is he hitting on me? "Ye-yeah. I'm Nyssa." Stay calm... Don't rush... "Well I assume you know I'm Jack." "Course I do!" "Well then this isn't awkward! Want a drink?" I take a breath, "no thank you." "Your right, not time to party. But I'm still taking a shot." "NOT FROM MY VODKA!!," Vinny yells.
He laughs and pours himself a shot of Jack Daniels. Its like time slowed down while I watch Jack pour the shot and gulp it down in one swift movement. "Now that I have a slight buzz, wanna chill?" "Sure."
Is this really happening? Hanging out with All Time Low? On their bus?
Please don't let my Dyspraxic mind get in the way. But knowing my mind, there's no stopping it.
5/20/13