With You Around
Twelve
Nyssa's POV:
I spaced out at the news, then I hear Alex yelling and look over and see Bonnie having a panic attack. I run over to her, "BONNIE!! BONNIE!!" She's been helping me all day, now its my turn to help her. Alex helps me get her to the couch and we sit her down. I kneel in front of her, holding her shaking hands. "Bonnie, Bonnie please listen to me. I only want you to listen to me. Please..."
I always got scared when Bonnie has a anxiey attack, now that I know she's almost out of her meds, I don't know what to do. "Bonnie please... please just listen to me..." I knew the guys were freaking out about whats going on in Boston, and whats happening right now with Bonnie. "Let me help Nyssa," I hear Alex. "No I got it Alex," I snap not looking up at him. I didn't mean to snap, but I'm under pressure right now.
"Bonnie, everything is going to be okay... We're safe, the people in Boston are being saved as of right now. Please hear me..." I continue to talk to her and hold her hands, gently rubbing them with my thumbs.
I soon got her calm enough to where Alex could carry her back to the bus and I went with him. I told Jack to stay behind. We get to the bus and Alex lays Bonnie down in her bunk. "I'll lay with her Nyssa, you go back to Jack. Okay?" I stare at Bonnie, I didn't want to leave her. "Everything is going to be okay, I promise." I nod and run off the bus and back into the venue.
People were crying and freaking out, calling and texting people. I run through the crowd and finally find the guys. Jack envelopes me into a hug and holds me tightly. I bary face into his chest and I finally cry, I wanted to be strong in front of Bonnie. "Its going to be okay Nyssa, I promise," he whispers in my ear. "Wh-why does it have to happen to the good people Jack," I cry out.
"Why did Rose have to die from cancer, leaving her husband and three boys behind. She was like a second mom to me. She did so much for me. Why does Sarah have to get a brain tumor, one of the most gorgous and sweetest people that you would ever meet. Why did there have to be a bombing at the Boston Marathon, hurting and killing all of those people. Why does Bonnie my best friend have to have anxiety and panic attacks. Why do I have to deal with the hell in my mind every single fucken day. Its not fair Jack, why do the good people get punished the most."
I grip his shirt and keep crying, Jack holds me and I feel us moving. He sits me down on his lap, I guess he was sitting on the couch. "I don't know Nyssa... I don't know.. But thats life, there is always good and there is always bad. We just have to live with it," he whispers in my ear.
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Jack's POV:
I whisper in her ear softly and keep rocking her slowly. She was scared for Bonnie. She was scared for the people in Boston. She has so much heart for everyone, and yet I see her scared and sad. Dealing with the hell in her mind, what it is I don't know. She put her problems away for Bonnie when she needed her the most.
"I'm scared Jack," I hear her whisper. "I know Nyssa.. So am I.." I ended up carrying her back to the bus and laid her in her bunk, standing there while I slowly rubbed her arm. I stare into her eyes, something about her pulls me in. I lean down and kiss her forhead.
"Everything is going to be okay Nyssa, I promise," I whisper in her ear. She nods and I pull her blanket over her. Alex and Bonnie were no where to be found, I'm guessing they were in one their bunks, and Alex was trying to calm her down more. I find her iPod and put her earbuds in her ears and press play. She closes her eyes and breathes slower. I look at the song and see it was our song Stay Awake.
She looked peaceful, listening to her music, going in her own world. I slowly take out her earbud, I could hear the song blasting. "I'll be fine, even though I'm not always right. I can count on the sun to shine. Dedication takes a lifetime," I sing softly in her ear. "But she dreams only last for a night," she whispers her eyes still closed.
I don't know what made me, but I moved more to where my lips hovered over hers. I could still hear the music blasting on her earbuds. I slowly moved down and softly pressed my lips to hers. I moved away as soon my lips pressed hers. I stepped back, I couldn't think straight.
I just kissed Nyssa. Why did I just kiss Nyssa.
I spaced out at the news, then I hear Alex yelling and look over and see Bonnie having a panic attack. I run over to her, "BONNIE!! BONNIE!!" She's been helping me all day, now its my turn to help her. Alex helps me get her to the couch and we sit her down. I kneel in front of her, holding her shaking hands. "Bonnie, Bonnie please listen to me. I only want you to listen to me. Please..."
I always got scared when Bonnie has a anxiey attack, now that I know she's almost out of her meds, I don't know what to do. "Bonnie please... please just listen to me..." I knew the guys were freaking out about whats going on in Boston, and whats happening right now with Bonnie. "Let me help Nyssa," I hear Alex. "No I got it Alex," I snap not looking up at him. I didn't mean to snap, but I'm under pressure right now.
"Bonnie, everything is going to be okay... We're safe, the people in Boston are being saved as of right now. Please hear me..." I continue to talk to her and hold her hands, gently rubbing them with my thumbs.
I soon got her calm enough to where Alex could carry her back to the bus and I went with him. I told Jack to stay behind. We get to the bus and Alex lays Bonnie down in her bunk. "I'll lay with her Nyssa, you go back to Jack. Okay?" I stare at Bonnie, I didn't want to leave her. "Everything is going to be okay, I promise." I nod and run off the bus and back into the venue.
People were crying and freaking out, calling and texting people. I run through the crowd and finally find the guys. Jack envelopes me into a hug and holds me tightly. I bary face into his chest and I finally cry, I wanted to be strong in front of Bonnie. "Its going to be okay Nyssa, I promise," he whispers in my ear. "Wh-why does it have to happen to the good people Jack," I cry out.
"Why did Rose have to die from cancer, leaving her husband and three boys behind. She was like a second mom to me. She did so much for me. Why does Sarah have to get a brain tumor, one of the most gorgous and sweetest people that you would ever meet. Why did there have to be a bombing at the Boston Marathon, hurting and killing all of those people. Why does Bonnie my best friend have to have anxiety and panic attacks. Why do I have to deal with the hell in my mind every single fucken day. Its not fair Jack, why do the good people get punished the most."
I grip his shirt and keep crying, Jack holds me and I feel us moving. He sits me down on his lap, I guess he was sitting on the couch. "I don't know Nyssa... I don't know.. But thats life, there is always good and there is always bad. We just have to live with it," he whispers in my ear.
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Jack's POV:
I whisper in her ear softly and keep rocking her slowly. She was scared for Bonnie. She was scared for the people in Boston. She has so much heart for everyone, and yet I see her scared and sad. Dealing with the hell in her mind, what it is I don't know. She put her problems away for Bonnie when she needed her the most.
"I'm scared Jack," I hear her whisper. "I know Nyssa.. So am I.." I ended up carrying her back to the bus and laid her in her bunk, standing there while I slowly rubbed her arm. I stare into her eyes, something about her pulls me in. I lean down and kiss her forhead.
"Everything is going to be okay Nyssa, I promise," I whisper in her ear. She nods and I pull her blanket over her. Alex and Bonnie were no where to be found, I'm guessing they were in one their bunks, and Alex was trying to calm her down more. I find her iPod and put her earbuds in her ears and press play. She closes her eyes and breathes slower. I look at the song and see it was our song Stay Awake.
She looked peaceful, listening to her music, going in her own world. I slowly take out her earbud, I could hear the song blasting. "I'll be fine, even though I'm not always right. I can count on the sun to shine. Dedication takes a lifetime," I sing softly in her ear. "But she dreams only last for a night," she whispers her eyes still closed.
I don't know what made me, but I moved more to where my lips hovered over hers. I could still hear the music blasting on her earbuds. I slowly moved down and softly pressed my lips to hers. I moved away as soon my lips pressed hers. I stepped back, I couldn't think straight.
I just kissed Nyssa. Why did I just kiss Nyssa.
5/20/13