♪Alex♪
“I’ll lay with her Nyssa, you go back to Jack. Okay,” I told Nyssa. I wanted to be alone with Bonnie and try to bring her out of this hurricane of panic in one piece, “Everything is going to be okay, I promise.”
Nyssa simply nodded and ran off the bus to Jack. I climbed into Bonnie’s bunk. Bonnie laid completely still, her hands were shaking still and her breathing was labored and uneven. I pulled her to my side and stoked her arms softly. Seeing Bonnie like this was so surreal. She was perfectly fine and smiling, but when Jeff turned on the news he brought her crashing down. I can’t blame him since it’s his hometown that got attacked and Bonnie would have heard about it eventually. But the timing was terrible. I wanted the day to be perfect for Bonnie. Now I was laying in her bunk, trying to pulling her out of this.
“Boston is far away, Bonnie. Everything’s going to be fine. I’ll keep you safe. I’m here for you. Nothing can touch you,” I whispered in her ear, hoping she was able to listen to me. I had an attack where I wasn’t able to comprehend what people were saying to me.
I got no response from her, but I heard movement on the other side of the curtain. I wanted so desperately to see her eyes again. I wanted Bonnie to be okay again. I can’t handle seeing her crippled like this.
“Come on Bonnie, you can open your eyes. It’s just you and me in your bunk. Everything’s okay. Everything is going to fine in Boston. Just you see,” I told her as I kissed her left temple softly.
“Alex how is she,” it was Jack.
“She’s still not responsive,” I told him.
“Do you think music could help her,” he asked.
“Maybe. I’ll try it,” I told him and I sat up a little so I could rest Bonnie’s head on me while I sang to her.
‘I had a dream we running for the city burning down. Made a break a new escape and let the world crash down. Now there’s a piece of me telling me I shouldn’t leave every time I see your face. Because every time you come around, love you take my breath away.’
I got a response out of Bonnie. She moved closer to me and her hands stopped shaking. My voice is bringing her out.
‘And I just wanna breath until, I take you in I never want you to leave until I take you in, but the truth is. She has no idea. That I'm even here. She has no idea. That I'm even here.’
Bonnie finally opened her eyes and sighed. She looked like she was in a total daze. I tighten my hold on her to let her know I was there and she was okay.
♪Bonnie♪
I heard soft singing. I knew the voice and I had to open my eyes to be sure. When I did I found a rose tattoo resting on me. I was with Alex still, but not in the dressing room with the others. We were alone in my bunk. My attack was over.
“Alex,” I managed to say, but my voice was raspy and my throat was sore and completely dry.
“Sh, I’m right here Bonnie. Everything’s going to be fine,” he whispered and kissed my hair as he tightened his embrace.
“You sang my favorite song from Dirty Work,” I told him.
“Seriously. That was a total lucky guess,” he replied, a smile in his voice.
“How long was I gone,” I needed to know.
“About an half hour. Nyssa got you to start calming down before I took over. She did rather well,” he told me.
“Where is she,” I asked.
“I think she fell asleep in her bunk,” he told me.
“Can you help me out,” I asked him.
“I think you should stay,” he suggested.
“I want to see her, Alex. I want to make sure she’s okay. I tend to be a handful when I have an attack,” I told him.
“Alright, just relax. Here let out first and I’ll get you out,” Alex climbed out first and he took hold of me and pulled me out.
“Nyssa,” I called to her and she rolled over to look at me.
“Bonnie,” she shrieked at seeing me as my normal self again, “You scared everyone.”
“I know I did. I scared myself too,” I replied as she hugged me tightly.
“You can’t do that again. I won’t be prepared for another one,” Nyssa whined.
“Well Alex will need to be in charge of my calming party. His singing helped pull me out. Along with the help you provided,” I told her.
“I’m just happy you’re alright. I couldn’t handle it all in the moment. Maybe I’ll get better at helping you,” Nyssa smiled weakly.
“Nyssa, you did a great job with helping me get her to calm down. You are going to be my wingman the next time she slips,” Alex commented to help Nyssa feel better.
“I hope I don’t have to jump in anytime soon,” Nyssa sighed.
“The last thing I need is another attack right now,” I added.

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When it came time for the show to start, Alex went out to get some Taco Bell for me. My usual order was a chicken quesadilla, the cheesy potatoes, and an order of cinnamon twists. It was my comfort meal when I felt out of sync, especially after an anxiety attack.
“Bonnie has to stay on the bus tonight during the show. I don’t want her to have an attack while trying to work. You get the night off,” Matt said.
“Works with me,” I replied between bites of my food.
“I’ll stay with her tonight and we can watch a movie while you guys play,” Nyssa offered.
“That’ll work out perfect,” Matt commented on Nyssa’s plan.
“Now what are we going to watch,” I asked Nyssa.
“STD of course. We need to have our All Time Low fix somehow,” Nyssa smiled.
“You are amazing Nyssa,” I smiled and hugged her tightly.
“Great now I we share a bus with two girls that can use our antics against us,” Alex joked.
“How else can I keep up with you crazy fuckers,” I stuck out my tongue at his and got rewarded with his being stuck out at me.
Hopefully this normalcy will last a while. I don’t want to scare everyone again. That’s the last thing I need.