Chapter 19




"Jack?" I hear Alex ask, his voice in a hushed whisper. I'm lying on my back, so I turn my head so I can look at him. He's curled up into a ball, knees against his chest, staring at me with darting panicked eyes.

"Alex what's wrong?" I ask, leaning up on my elbows so I can see him better.

"I.. Uhhhh.... Um how long do, um, you keep you keep your slaves?" He asks. The end comes out rushed, and it's obvious he's been stressed about this.

"How come? Do you want to leave?"

"No... uh... I was just curious. Sorry for bothering you."

"Alex, your not bothering me. It's a reasonable question." I say, turning on my side so I can see him.

"Well for starters, I don't kill my pets for fun. If I did, you'd be first on my list, troublemaker." I laugh, but stop when I realize Alex probably won't find it funny with how panicked he is.

"Aw sorry, Alex. It was just a joke." I laugh. He doesn't correct me.

"Not going to tell me to call you Alexander?" I question, turning on the lamp. He shakes his head.

"You don't listen. And it's not a big deal anymore." He shrugs. I raise an eyebrow at him.

"What was that you said about you'd rather die then hear me say your name?" I laugh. He looks away.

"You didn't answer my question."

"On occasion I'll sell slaves, but not usually. I don't know, I've only been in power for four years."

"Four years? What?"

"You sound surprised." I laugh. "How old did you think I was?"

"I don't know! Seven hundred? Eight hundred?" He says. I can't help but laugh.

"Gross! Seriously!?"

"How was I supposed to know!?"

"True. Well, I'm a very hot 800 year old then." I laugh.

"Yea, keep telling yourself that." I hear him mumble.

"What!? No I totally am."

"Mhmm. Sure." He says. I can tell he's trying not to laugh from the way he's holding the covers up to his face.

"What? You don't think I am?"

"Nope"

"Not at all?"

"I'm not gay" he shrugs.

"You don't have to be gay to appreciate how attractive I am. There's a difference between gay and blind." I tease. He just rolls his eyes.

"Seriously, how old are you?" He asks, more serious this time. I lean forward until I'm right against his ear. I feel him shiver and take a deep breath when my lips press against his ear.

"I lost the game." I whisper. He pushes me away from him.

"I thought you were going to bite me! You scared the shit out of me." He gasps, his breathing heavy. He pushes his hair back and takes a deep breath before laughing.

"Nope! Sorry to scare you. Have you not heard of the game? We play it around here a lot."

"No. Am I not allowed to know your age?" He asks.

"I'm twenty-one." I say, lying on my back again.

"What!? Really!? Your only three years older than me then."

"Are you really that old?" I ask. He seems offended by my comment.

"Sorry, you just look young. Can I turn out the light, Alex?" I ask.

"Yea" He says, lying back down. Unsure of what to do, I rub his head affectionately but he shrugs away.

"Good night" I say, reaching over and turning out the light. When I lie back down I hear him mumble a response. Slow progress, but at least he's talking to me now.

Notes

Third update in 24 hours.


So I tweeted something like, "So happy icon for hire is going to play at warped this summer! Going to buy tickets now." and they favorited it. So I took a screen shot of the notification and tweeted it, and they liked that photo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LIKE, BIG DEAL RIGHT!?!?!?!


NEW YEARS DAY IS TOURING WITH MOTIONLESS IN WHITE AND THEYRE NOT COMING WITHIN A 5 HOUR RADIUS SO I CAN'T GO AND I SERIOUSLY MAY CRY.




I'm listening to Dark Passenger right now and I don't want to end this author note because that means I'll have to get off my computer. I have to pack up since I'm leaving my cousins house tomorrow. FINALLY!!!!! It's so fucking cold in Boston I can't handle it.


So Just curious, in school which grade was easiest for you guys and which year was the hardest. I'm going to a new high school next year and I'm trying not to stress about it. I mean, I stay in the same class all day, play wii in class, have lambs, and cook whenever we want. That doesn't sound like a normal school, does it? I don't even know how to do a locker combination or anything.

OMFG I LOVE MOTIONLESS IN WHITE IM GOING TO CRY THEYRE SO PERFECT!!!!!!


Oh, I've pre-written a bunch of chapters, but from now on I'm going to try to write longer chapters so maybe shit will actually happen idk.