Chapter 12 – Alex

Jack hugged me from behind as we were lying in my bed. When he slowly slid it inside me, I saw stars, I swear. It was nothing like before, I had a brand new feeling with him. He was shivering, so I tried to make him less nervous, put my palm on his butt, creating a rhythm. I could feel him getting a little more comfortable with the situation, so he started going faster. His face was buried in my hair, I felt his warm breath on my neck. He was moaning into my ear and I felt like I was floating on cloud nine. After a couple of minutes of hot steamy breathing and moaning, I could feel things getting tighter, more intense.
''You want me to pull out?'' he asked. ''Quickly.''
''No, it's okay.'' I said, grabbed his butt and pulled him closer, so he would come hard, deep.
''Holy fuuuck, ohhh!'' he moaned, when he climaxed.
''No!'' he said when I wanted to get up and pulled me back into a hug. ''Don't go, wait a second.''
''But I have to clean up.'' I said and giggled.
''Just wait, we can take a shower later, together.'' He kissed my lips and squeezed me even tighter.
''That was just, well fuck. I'm gonna say it. It was by far the best sex I have ever had.''
I was glad he felt that way.
''I agree, it felt like nothing I've felt before, it was all so new. I felt... I can't even put it in words.''

After a few minutes of after sex cuddles, we took a shower together, which was I must say, my first shower with someone. Later on, we just ate some grilled cheese sandwiches and fell asleep while watching a movie. I finally reached this stage of inner peace, I was right where I wanted to be and I was very thankful. This is going to be the best Christmas ever.

After Winter break, we started school again but me and Jack still weren't official as a couple. We hung out all the time, with both Zack and Rian. They got along really well and we were all having a great time, playing music together, some football and we even went camping one weekend. I thought it would stay like this forever, but summer was almost here and so was college. Me and Jack both applied to the NYU, we were accepted, but couldn't get into the same dorm. Well at least he'll be there with me, because Zack is moving to Florida to study and he'll be living with his aunt and Rian is headed to Ohio. This was all so fucked up, I wanted to throw up. I actually did the first time, when I was getting stuff done, I was so nervous I almost puked on the bed. But then I thought about it, I mean we can't be high school kids forever, eventually we will grow up. So I pulled myself together and got stuff done. So I guess we have to make this summer worth our while, finish strong.

My parents decided to visit my aunt and uncle in Chicago, so I had the house to myself for a few days. This would be a great opportunity to invite the guys over, order some take-out, play some videogames, have some fun. So I sent them texts and got everything ready.

A few hours later we were already eating pizza, drinking some beer and talking. Well, me and Jack were. Zack and Rian were bromancing with GTA V. I tried to be relaxed and all, but when I looked at Jack, my world started crumbling in my head. I was so scared of the future. What if he dumps me, finds a girl or a boy that he likes better? There were a lof of what ifs. I doubt he noticed any of this, I didn't really want to tell him, scaring him away with my paranoia was even worse than the chance of being dumped sometime in the future. So I was just smiling, laughing, playing it cool, but inside I felt far from cool. I felt the burning in my stomach.

Notes

Okay, so I've decided to expand my story and that includes college (yay!) and here is my new chapter. Thanks for reading :)

[credit for the title goes to: All Time Low]