Saviour

It was the next morning and both boys were downstairs, Alex sitting on a stool while Jack finished preparing breakfast. Alex pulled the sleeves of his jacket further down, making sure it was covering the bandages that adorned his wrists. Luckily, Jack hadn't seen them yet and if he had, he hadn't said anything to Alex about them yet.

"You want bacon or sausage?" Jack asked, opening the freezer.

"Um, bacon is fine."

"I'm glad you said that. I would've fixed bacon anyway."

"Then why did you ask me?" Alex rolled his eyes.

"Common courtesy?" Jack said, opening the package of bacon and putting it in the skillet.

Alex scoffed. "Since when do you have 'common courtesy?'" Alex air quoted the two words, making Jack smile.

"Since, I don't know, about five seconds ago?"

"You're such a dick."

"But you love me."

Alex hummed in response, making the younger smirk.
~~~
After breakfast was eaten, the boys went back upstairs into Jacks bedroom. Alex grabbing his guitar and Jack grabbing his.

"So have you decided which song we're performing?" Jack asked, tuning his guitar.

"I told you. Either Walls or Therapy."

"We can't perform two songs, Lex."

"I know. I just can't decide which one I like more." Alex shrugged.

"Well, how about this. Which one means more to you?"

"They both mean a lot to me. Walls is about... someone and Therapy is about Tom." Alex said, remembering exactly why wrote both of those songs.

Walls was about Jack, there was denying that, but he couldn't let the younger know that in fear that he would be made fun of or Jack would dis him. Therapy was about Alex's older brother and the way Alex reacted to it after his brothers death. How he's still reacting to it. After Tom's death, his parents put him through therapy hoping their only living son would get better, but no. He got worse. It was absolute hell for him.

"Oh really? Who is this someone?" Jack teased, wiggling his eyebrows.

"Of course you'd only pay attention to that you big doofus." Alex rolled his eyes at his friends stupidity.

Jack laughed, sending warmth throughout Alex's entire body. He hated those fuzzy feelings he got when he talked to his best friend. They made him feel girly. And Alexander William Gaskarth was so not girly. No matter how gay he was.

"Just... play your damn guitar." Alex ordered.

"Sir yes sir." Jack said with a smirk and a wink.

Jack began strumming the chords to Walls and Alex couldn't help but sing along.

Hey there, it's good to see you again
It never felt right calling this 'just friends'
I'm happy, if you're happy, with yourself

Take off your shirt, your shoes,
those skinny jeans I bought for you.
We're diving in, there's nothing left to lose.

I'm gonna break down these walls, I built around myself.
I wanna fall so in love, with you, and no one else,
Could ever mean half as much, to me as you do now.
Together we'll move on, just don't turn around,
Let the walls break down.

I used to wear you like a ball and chain,
I'd run and hide at the call of my name.
It was obvious you were too much for me.
Oblivious, I was young and horny.

In retrospect, I wouldn't do it again.
Stop talking shit to every one of your friends
I'm not the same boy you knew back then...

'Cause I can break down these walls, I built around myself.
I wanna fall so in love, with you, and no one else,
Could ever mean half as much, to me as you do now.
Together we'll move on, just don't turn around,
Let the walls break

I can't breathe, my body's shaking.
You've got a way with the way you take me,
'Cause you break me down,
You know you break me down...

I'm gonna break down these walls, I built around myself.
I wanna fall so in love, with you, and no one else,
Could ever mean half as much, to me as you do now.
Together we'll move on, just don't turn around,
Let the walls break down.

Break down these walls, I built around myself.
Let the walls break down.
'Cause you break me down,
Let the walls break down.

As the song finished, Alex looked up to see Jack smiling.

"What are you smiling at?" Alex asked.

"I know who this song is about now." Jack said, moving his guitar out of the way.

Alex gulped, panic racing through his body. "W-who?"

"'Take off your shoes, your shirt, those skinny jeans I bought for you.' Seriously Lex?" Jack chuckled, scooting closer to Alex. "It doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure out that this song was written about Vic!"

Alex let out a breath of air. "My ex Vic?"

"Duh! How many other Vic's do you know and have dated, fucked and then had to break up with because he moved to California?"

"Do me a favor and never mention the fact that I lost my virginity to him ever again?"

Jack totally missed the head on the nail with that one. Not only was his friend/crush cute, he was also a complete moron and oblivious to anything around him.

"Did he really suck that bad in bed?" Jack cocked an eyebrow.

"No, just... I don't like being reminded of my past, Jay. You know this. And FYI, this song was not written for Vic."

"Then who?"

"Doesn't matter." Alex fiddled with the sleeve of his jacket, rubbing his bandages and irritating the skin.

"Yes it doe- holy shit you're bleeding!" Jack pointed to Alex's wrist, which was now slowly seeping blood.

"Shit." Alex muttered, getting up from the bed and entering the bathroom.

He quickly removed his jacket and bandages, turning on the bathroom sink and running his wrists under the cool water.

"Lex, you oka-," Jacks voice cut off as he opened the door and saw Alex standing there, cuts scattering his wrists, blooding oozing from them.

"Jay..." Alex couldn't find his voice, a sob ripping through him instead and he sunk to the bathroom floor, pulling his legs up to his chest. His body shaking and his anxiety rising.

"Shh, hey, Lex. Baby, I need you to look at me and calm down. Take deep breaths and relax." Jack said, pulling Alex into his arms and rocking him back and forth.

Jack rarely called Alex baby. Only when he was having a panic attack, it calmed him down quickly and made him feel safe.

"I'm sorry Jay. S-so sorry." Alex sobbed.

"It's okay. I forgive you." Jack replied, kissing Alex's forehead.
~~~
Later that night, after Alex had calmed down and Jack helped him clean up, they laid in Jacks bed, Peter Pan was playing on TV and Alex was cuddled into Jacks side.

"Jay?" Alex's voice was hoarse from him crying so much, but the younger heard him, rubbing his hand up and down Alex's back.

"Yeah Lex?"

"Walls isn't about Vic." Alex closed his eyes.

"I know Lexxy. I'm not-"

"It's about you."

Notes

Chapter title credit: Bones Exposed- Of Mice & Men
aye c: I got bored and felt like updating ^-^ but hopefully y'all enjoy it!
there's some drama and fluff in there so yeah... I think it's good... c:
anyways, love you all and thanks for the comments so far I love them <33
tell me what y'all think about the ending??? I thought it was sweet but idk?
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