We Were Born To Lose

Jack, the love of my life, the centre of my universe, my entire world, died at 11:00 pm three days after the battle.

Losing him was the most devestating thing that I ever had to endure. The world didn’t have the same light it used to. It wasn’t as beautiful… Maybe it was because I knew that the most beautiful thing it had ever held, was dead.

Jack was the only light in my life, he was everything to me and losing him left me completely void of any joy or happiness. I wanted to die. I wanted to kill myself and I almost did more times than I can count but I stayed alive for him. I lived the life he couldn’t.

I kept my promise to Jack and made homosexuality legal. It was my first decree as King. I called it “The Law of Barakat”.

It took me a year before I could leave the castle, it took me two before I could go to our hill, and it took me three before I could go to our creek. Everywhere I looked, I saw the memories flash before my eyes. I remembered the way he’d smile at the ground as we’d walk through the tall grass, I remembered how his huge eyes reflected the light of the stars, I remembered how he practically glowed with happiness when I gave his ring, promising to replace it with a gold one… It killed me to know I never got to.

About five years after his death, I met a girl, Emily. She made the constant pain go away and we fell in love. Though I didn’t love her nearly as much or as deeply as I loved Jack, I still loved her. Alice and Cass became her maids and we got married, having two beautiful children. A boy and a girl. I named our son Bassum, Jack’s middle name, while our daughter was named Fina after Mom who’d passed a year before I met Emily.

The rest of my life was relatively happy, though not a day went by where I didn’t miss Jack, and I died at age seventy-eight, leaving everything to my wife.

The first person I saw after I closed my eyes for the last time, was my Jack. I remember laughing and running into his arms. We were both twenty again. We were joined by our friends and all that we’d lost; Rian, Zack, Lisa, Mom, everyone.

After fifty-six long years of being alone, I finally had my Jack again. He held my hand and looked into my eyes as he smiled,

“I’ve been waiting for you, my love.”

Notes

Title cred: I'll Follow You Into The Dark - Death Cab For Cutie

SEE IT GOT BETTER

i actually was going to make the ending a lot more painful but i felt bad because i made you guys fall in love with Jack and Alex for like 80 chapters and then killed him... You guy's emotions deserved a nice death.

Anyway, this story is my most popular and it's gotten so many votes, subscribers, comments, and views and it was on the popular page pretty much the entire time I was writing it and that's phenomenal of you guys. I just can't thank you all enough for being there and reading and commenting death threats whenever I do something problematic like seriously guys you're amazing.

So anyway, this story is leaving :( but I still have other ones for you to read.

We'll Let The Fires Just Bathe Us
http://www.alltimelowfanfiction.com/Story/62908/Well-Let-The-Fires-Just-Bathe-Us/

One-Shots
http://www.alltimelowfanfiction.com/Story/67229/One-shots/

I know I've said this like a million times but thank you all so much and I'll see you in the next one <3