We Were Born To Lose

My voice was rough and scratchy from not using it in weeks, but what I said was as true as it was horse.
“I love you.”
“Jack.” He whispered, a broken expression. He looked like I’d just told him the worst news of his life. Like his whole life, everything he knew, was a lie. Doubts flooded my mind for a moment but I silenced them because I knew he loved me back.
“I love you.” I said again, wondering how I could ever possibly say anything else.
“Jack, no you can’t.” His voice very quiet.
“I do.” I said. “That’s why I couldn’t kill you, because I love you.” I rasped.
“Jack I- I don’t-“ He stammered, he was trying to lie straight through his teeth and I could see it.
“Alex don’t you lie to me. Don’t you dare.” I gritted my teeth. His expression went from frightened to cold.
“You don’t love me. You just think you do.” He concluded, he sounded like he was trying to convince himself more than trying to convince me.
“Oh come off it. What else could have possibly kept my mouth shut while I was tortured? What else could’ve kept me from killing you? What else could have kept my unfailing loyalty to you alive?” I asked, stepping closer to him. This time he was speechless. I was so close we were inches apart. “I dare you to lie to me and say you don’t love me back.” I snarled, narrowing my eyes up at him. My trapped voice seemed to have made a lot of pent up anger because now my skin burned with my temper. Alex’s eyes narrowed and he grabbed my face and crashed his lips on mine.
“Let me show you.” He whispered before attacking them again with a kiss made of too much teeth but I didn’t care. I just wanted him. All of him. He shoved me onto the bed and ripped off his tunic but when he got on me, he was a lot slower and gentle. His fingertips caressed my arm as he kissed me slowly, but full of passion. He untied the string on my tunic and broke our slow kiss to pull it off. His fingertips trailed down my chest and stomach, causing goosebumps to appear. The magic his fingers possessed and their power to make me completely melt at his touch made me always want to subject myself to him. He kissed down my chest carefully, removing my pants before removing his. “How far?” He asked, hovering over my lips.
“I want all of you.” I replied, taking his hand and sucking on three fingers individually making him pull his bottom lip between his teeth. Once they were wet, he kissed me as he slowly pushed one in. This didn’t effect me at all so he pushed the second in. This caused some discomfort but I was fine so I kissed him harder to show him it was okay to add another. He slowly pushed the third in making me freeze, struggling not to resist him.
“It’s okay baby, you’re okay.” He whispered, moving his lips down to my neck and kissing softly. His lips made my body relax. I felt like softened butter, how it can so easily collapse under just a tiny bit of pressure…His pressure.
“Okay.” I whispered. He moved between my legs and lined up.
“Are you sure?” He asked.
“Yes, baby please.” I whimpered. He nodded and slowly pushed in. We groaned in unison, our breaths heavy and uneven. It hurt but he seemed to remember where to go because about a second later my back was arched and I was fisting the sheets. “Fuck.” I whispered.
“You okay?” He asked and I nodded.
“Faster.” I whispered urgently. He happily complied, speeding up to a perfect pace. I didn’t know what to do. I simultaneously wanted to hold my breath and pant. The result ended up being a strangled moan followed by several short breaths. “Oh god.” I breathed, my eyes scrunching up.
“Jack you’re so beautiful you know that?” He asked, I however couldn’t voice anything but a groan. “So, so beautiful.” His thrusts remained consistent and his hand moved to my dick and he pumped it in time with his hips. “I don’t know how you do it. It’s like you touch me and the world just stops, nothing else matters just so long as you keep touching me. And you know what else?” He asked. All I could do was whimper. “I love you. I love you so, so much.” My heart pounded and it felt like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders. Suddenly without warning, release hit me. With the joy of finally hearing him say those three destructive, yet beautiful words, I don’t think I’ve ever felt more amazing. I opened my eyes to see Alex still on top of me, looking at me with soft eyes. “I love you so much.” He whispered, “I regret not saying that every day from the moment I met you.” He whispered, moving down to kiss me softly. He felt like rose petals. He was soft and sweet and just the sight of him made you feel better because a world that could produce something so beautiful surely couldn’t be all bad. He lay next to me with his fingers stroking my cheek, my body relaxing under his addictive touch.
“I love you too.” I whispered.

Notes

Title Cred: Give Me Love by Ed Sheeran (I tweaked it a bit)


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