We Were Born To Lose

It had been a week and after a slow recovery, Jack was beginning to pull himself back together. I was taking care to be extra kind and loving, one small push in the wrong direction would have him crying and shaking in the corner.

“Jack, you’d better get ready.” I said, laying out my clothes for the evening. It was finally the night of the ball.
He nodded and turned to leave,
“Oh and Jack? Don’t forget to shave.” I winked making a smile appear. My grin lasted after he left. His smiles were rare now, and genuine smiles were even rarer so I was proud of myself for getting him to be a little happier.
“Okay Jack, you’re going to have to suck in.” Cass said pulling on the stings of my corset.

Jesus, how tight can these things get?

Once she finally deemed the corset rib shatteringly tight enough, she tucked two apples against my chest to serve as breasts, then she helped me into the dress. She’d measured me the day before the…Incident with him. And sent the measurements to the tailor who made a beautiful gown. It was green silk with intricate gold at the bodice. It was a full dress to distract people from how tall I was. Cass pulled out a wig that was already pre-styled. It almost exactly my hair color with curly hair and some sort of braid that formed like a headband, over that, she placed a gold ring as a crown. She put that on my head then applied white powder to my face to make me look more pale and feminine and finally she put bees wax on my lips to make them shine. Once she was done, she held a mirror in front of me. You would think the crown and braid headband thing would be too much but it actually was very beautiful and they complimented each other. My eyes widened and my mouth fell agape.

Holy shit.

Cass had done a great job. I honestly looked like a woman.
“It’s not lady-like to ogle and gape.” She said. I rolled my eyes playfully. “But I don’t blame you, I did a fantastic job.” She mused. She led me out of the room and snuck me out of the castle. The plan was to arrive by horse and carriage and Cass would drive. She went ahead of me and made sure no one was around before ushering me over franticly. We ran out of the castle and to the stable. She helped me inside and we sat and waited for the carriages of the guests to arrive.

Never in my life did I think I’d be doing this.

“I have to say this is probably the strangest position I’ve ever been in.” Cass laughed. I grinned in reply nodding my head.
“I mean honestly how many servants can say- Look!” She pointed out the window and two carriages were approaching the castle. She hurried out and the carriage rocked when she climbed on top. She urged the horses forward and fell behind the two carriages and a little too soon for my liking, a servant was opening my door for me. The same servant lead me to a door at the entrance to the great hall where I spotted Alex. His jaw dropped when he saw me. I smirked and winked making him to shut it and I could hear his teeth snap together.
“Alright shall we?” He asked, regaining his composure. I smiled and nodded. He lead me down and into the great hall and now it was my turn for my jaw to drop. The room gleamed. They had musicians with flutes, lutes, harps, and any other musical instrument you could imagine. They all played in perfect harmony, each instrument complimented the others. I involuntarily mouthed ‘wow’ and Alex chuckled. Torches were stationed on the walls and a gold chandelier with hundreds of candles hung from the ceiling, lighting the room. The Gaskarth colors, red and gold, were everywhere. A large amount of men, with their straight backs and firm jaws and women, with their light touches and delicate smiles danced. Along the walls of the room, there were tables filled with food and servants behind them ready to serve anyone who comes near. I knew that if I wasn’t in this dress with Alex, I’d probably be behind those tables and honestly that sounded like a better offer. After all what if we got caught? What would the King do if he found out that I was,

First: Pretending to be a girl.

Second: Not just any girl, the daughter of a noble man

Third: Alex’s servant and attending a ball with him

Fourth: Preventing him from going with Princess Amelia

and Fifth: Dancing with him.

Wait dancing?

I blinked and realized that Alex’s hand was on my waist and mine on his shoulder as he led.
“Relax, being a Prince I actually know exactly what I’m doing. We just need to do this for a little bit so that people don’t ask why we haven’t danced. Just follow me.” He said just loud enough for me to hear. I did as he said and though I was fucking terrified, it wasn’t half bad. I had Alex holding me, the atmosphere was light, and for once, people weren’t staring as me as if I were dirt in their shoes. I actually felt respected. I let a small smile slip and concentrated on the sparks in my lower back and hands from Alex’s touch. Luckily the long dress covered my clumsy feet and I just needed to be coordinated from the waist up. The music finally stopped but the attention on me didn’t.
“Let’s try to slip out bef-“
“Alexander!” King Peter exclaimed.
“Fuck” He whispered. He plastered a smile on his face and turned around.
“Good evening, father.” He said through a fake smile.
“And this is the Lady Jacqueline.” He grinned, something told me his smile was fake as well. I smiled softly and curtsied, remembering to keep my actions soft and small and feeling completely foolish as I did so.“Are you having a good time my Lady?” He asked. I smiled and nodded. “Not much of a talker are you?” He chuckled. I felt a blush creep onto my face as I looked down. Alex gave my hand a reassuring squeeze.
“She doesn’t waste words,” He said, looking down at me, “When she does talk, her words leave you breathless because you wonder how someone could be so intelligent.” He said almost directly to me with nearly no regard to his father. My breath escaped me as I was lost in his eyes but it was the King’s voice that pulled me back down.
“Well then I’ll let you two get on, I’ll dance with Princess Amelia so she can’t speak badly of this ball.” He laughed before walking off.
“Let’s get out of there.” He whispered. I nodded and we hurried of the hall, nodding at anyone important. Once in the safely of Alex’s room, I tore the wig off my head. It’d been bothering me all night how the hair kept falling in my face. Alex laughed when I pouted at my appearance in the mirror.
“Jack, know know you don’t look half bad.” He reasoned, grinning. My lips twisted up and I reached for the fastens in the back. Alex got to laugh again when I couldn’t reach them and started flailing around. I sighed at him and he bit his lip to hold in the giggles. God how I wished I could’ve been doing that. He walked behind me and popped the first two buttons. “You did a good job tonight.” He said, popping the next. “Everyone was looking at you as if you were the most beautiful thing they’d ever seen.”

Pop.

“Including me.”

Pop.

Pop.

I felt his breath fan out against my neck and the scratchy feeling of his stubble against my skin as he kissed my neck gently.

Pop.

Pop.

Pop.

The dress fell from my body leaving me in my pants and corset. I suddenly relaxed the muscles which had been tensed as Alex left my neck. He walked around to my front and gave me a cheeky smirk as he pulled one of the apples from my chest and bit into it with a wink. I rolled my eyes as I pulled the other one out and threw it a crossing the room before attaching my lips to his. He was sweet from the apple and I heard the soft ‘thud’ of the apple hitting the ground as his arms immediately moved to my lower back and he undid the tie that held the strings of the corset together. Once untied, he loosened the laces and I could finally breath. I took a deep breath and threw the evil thing across the room before attaching my lips to Alex’s again. His hands moved down to my ass and squeezed through the fabric. I gasped and pulled back. I couldn’t do this. I couldn’t go all the way. Not so soon after…
I shuddered at the thought and my stomach threatened to empty it’s contents. I swallowed hard and looked up at Alex, pleading him to understand.
“Relax Jay, we won’t go too far. Tonight is all about you.” My heart fluttered at the use of the nickname. He hadn’t called me that in a long time. I smiled and kissed him softly, he returned it before leaving my hungry lips to go down. My lip caught beneath my teeth when he undid my belt, staring me in the eyes with a devilish grin. He let my pants drop and took me in his hand. My breathing grew ragged as he stroked slowly. He licked the head and I bucked my hips forward so fast my upper back hit his wardrobe. He chuckled before swirling his tongue around it. I went ahead and leaned against the wood since I wasn’t sure if I’d be able to stand by myself. Then he licked a stripe up before attaching his mouth to the tip again. He still hand’t taken me into his mouth completely and it was killing me. I let out an exasperated sigh and tilted my eyebrows up, trying to plead him with my expression. He smirked,
“Okay, okay.” His breath hit my throbbing dick causing a sharp intake of breath. He wrapped his lips and sunk down very slowly making me press my hands to the dresser and curl my fingers, scratching the wood. He hollowed out his cheeks and damn.

That felt good.

He brought his lips all the way to the base and stayed like that for a moment before pulling back and bobbing his head. Every once in a while when he was at the head, he’d swirl his tongue around it or lick the slit just to keep me in edge.
I was close now. My hands moved to his hair and squeezed when he sucked hard, effectively making me come. There I was, sweaty, out of breath, and wide eyed when I watched him swallow every bit, place a gentle kiss to the tip, then stand up to look down on me. Love filled my body and I swear I was floating as I looked upon the gold flecks in his eyes. I felt my lips curl up into a small smile. His eyes sparked at the sign of my happiness and his mouth tilted also. I knew truly that if this was the last thing my eyes would ever see, it was more than enough for me.

Notes

Title Cred: Touch by Troye Sivan


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