Yesterday was amazing! I got to play with the ALL TIME LOW then we went out to eat after!Jack is so adorable, he kept hugging me, and his smile just had me breathless. Alex is really funny and super, super sweet. Rian was really stupid, but a good kind of stupid, and Zack was really quiet, but nice. I love this guys.


My emotions have been all over the place lately.. I’m just hardly holding on to my job and I can’t stop thinking about Tim..I just really want all of this pain to fade away. I’m so fucking sick of it.


About 2 months ago my brother Tim passed away in a car accident. He was one of my greatest heros, he always will be. He did so many great things in his life and he just kept himself happy, even through the worst times. He was the only one that really loved or cared about me in my family. No one else really understands me, or at least not like he did. Even a hug from him made my life a hundred times better. I miss him so terribly its unconceivable. All I want to do is bring him back, hug him one more time…


With that thought, I went into my bathroom, got in the tub, and took my razor. I engraved “TIM” in both arms, cry at every moment. With every drop of blood, every tear, I just hoped that I could have Tim back. I just need him back.

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“Hey KyKy ;)” Jack texted me.

“Hey!!”

“So I have to ask you a something, but first, will you please meet me at the coffee shop? Pweaty pwease c:”

“Lol, of course Jacky. ;)”


“Kylie!” Jack smiled, and pulled me into a hug as I came over tothe table.

“Hi!” I smiled, hugging him back tightly. “So what did you want to ask me?”

“Okay, ummm, so we’re going on tour in two weeks, and we’re in need of a drum tech/groupie (he laughs) So, we were wondering if you’d like to come with us?”

Oh my god. Holy shit. Did he seriously just ask me that? My life wouldn't be able to get any better if this is seriously reality. This would save me from everything! It's always been a dream for me to be in a band. I know I won't be in the band, but I'll be in the band.


“Holy shiet! Are you serious?! Yeah, of course! “

“Sweet. I was really- (He looks down at my arm that was slightly uncovered) Kylie… what’s that?”

“Oh, um nothing. I just fell down and got a scratch.”

*Jack takes my arm and pulls up the sleeve, a single tear falling from his eye.*

“I’m sorry” I run out, crying.


WHY DO I ALWAYS HAVE TO FUCKING DO THIS?! I MESS UP EVERY DAMN THING. EVERYTHING. God I’m so damn stupid. He just offered for me to go on tour with him and then I totally mess it up. God dammit. He’s never going to talk to me again. I hate myself so much.

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*JACKS POV*

I can’t believe what just happened. Kylie is so perfect, how could she do that to herself? Why?! And, who the fuck is “tim”? I just want her to be okay. She needs to be happy. I hate seeing her otherwise. I need to help her. I need her to be okay. I’m going to do everything in my power to make that happen.

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*KYLIE'S POV*

*knock on the door*


Who the hell could that be? I dried my eyes. Maybe they'll just go away.

*another knock on the door*


"KYLIE. IT'S JACK. PLEASE LET ME IN"


*I open the door*

"Kylie.. I... Can I please come in?"

"Um, yeah.." I say as I try to hold back the tears. I didn't think I'd ever get to see him again.

"May I ask why?..."

"Jack.. I.." I start balling.

"Shih. It's okay. Everything's okay. I'm here." Jack says, engulfing me into a hug. "Ky.. who's Tim?"

"My brother.. he passed away a couple months ago.."

"Oh kylie, I'm sorry."

"I never thought I'd see you again. I thought you'd think I was disgusting , just like everyone else does."

"No Kylie", he pushed me out of the hug and looked me straight in the eyes, "I'd never do that to you. Okay? I will be here, right by your side as long as you'll let me. I care about you, I don't want to see you hurt."


I spent the rest of the night crying in his arms, until I fell asleep right in his arms. I can't believe I have Jack in my life. I am the luckiest person alive for that"

Notes

Aweee. Poor Kylie! Jack is the best though. :)
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~Em