Kiss and Sell

Alex woke up with Danny's bare back against his own -their warm, sticky skin sticking to one another as he shifted and turned around to look at the sleeping figure beside him -sheets riding low on both of their bodies. He smiled at his friend -looking over his peaceful features -Danny having his own small smile on his face. Alex could say he felt happy with his friend laying in bed with him, happy they could be close in different ways and new ways, and happy that after so long of being labeled as "just friends" they had finally changed, but he'd be lying. If Alex was honest he'd say he used his friend last night. He wanted to see if he himself was okay with anything sexual because let's face it, that's practically his life. If he didn't have sex he'd be a pretty grumpy person. He hadn't cared about Danny's feelings -wanting to make him feel better after a break up -and he really did feel bad for that, but not enough to stop.

He ran his hands over the small of Danny's back and up to his shoulder blades -hands digging into tense and stressed muscles making Danny groan in pleasure and warn, "You better stop or I'll never leave." Playfully. Alex chuckled -not stopping his hands but instead pressing harder and rubbing the sore muscles sooth as he kissed his shoulder and mumbled, "I don't want you to leave anyways."

Danny rolled over on his back -his face emotionless as he looked up at Alex's ceiling. Alex waited for a response but when he got none he just dipped his head to kiss more of Danny's exposed skin -humming after each little peck to his hairless chest. He may have somewhat used Danny last night, but he most certainly didn't want the boy mad at or uncomfortable with him. He figured the only way to keep their friendship whole was to please him some more.

He kissed down Danny's stomach cautiously -glancing up through his eyelashes at the boy who hadn't stopped staring at the ceiling since he woke up. Alex assumed if he wasn't going to do anything he could just continued so he moved until he was in between his legs that Danny moved for him to lay between and kiss down his stomach to his naked crotch. Alex's moved the blankets away from the two of them -the room growing hot as he licked an invisible strip up the underside of Danny's cock -eyes still watching his face for a reaction.

When Danny was still just looking up at the ceiling -seemingly caught in a trance by the nothingness up there -Alex took his dick in his hands and pumped it slowly -feeling and watching it grow hard in his hand. He glanced back up -Danny now looking down to meet his eyes and attempted to smile at the dark-haired boy. Danny's lips twitched -unable to keep a smile without it being forced -as he just let his head fall back to the pillow and look up back up. Alex assumed he was fine. He assumed he wasn't stopping him because he wanted to show they were still friends as much as Alex did so he continued -eyes returning to the member in his hands as he licked his lips.

Alex let his tongue be pressed to his slit -dipping and lapping until Danny's finger's were being knotted in his hair. He looked up -pausing as he waited for something from Danny to show he wanted him to stop -but there was nothing. So, Alex continued -his head bobbing down and up as his hand wrapped around what he couldn't reach. He kept glancing up to see Danny's reaction, except this time it wasn't Danny. It seemed like Alex had been seeing Jack everywhere recently. First he says his name during sex and now he's actually wanting to give him a blowjob?

He pulled off with a pop -silver strands of saliva snapping as he wiped his mouth. Jack sat up and grabbed his shoulder to pull him into his lap suddenly -Alex not protesting in anyway.

"Alex," Danny said making Alex blink as he looked into his blue eyes. Danny looked down and then back up, "Condoms?"

"Oh, yeah, uhm... Bottom drawer." He said quickly as he shook his thoughts of Jack away -watching as Danny pulled out his package of condoms and place the roll on his chest before grabbing his half-empty bottle of lube from the same drawer. Alex had already ripped open one of his multiple condoms and thrown the rest into his side of the bed -a lot falling to the ground -and was turning to put it on Danny himself when Danny said, "Do you think this is going to make us weird?"

"No." Alex said quickly as he rolled the condom on and grabbed the lube, "I don't want it to."

"I don't either." Danny said quickly before sighing almost relieved and saying, "I want to stay friends for a long, long time, Alex. You mean a lot to me, ya' know? I don't want this to ruin us." He waited for Alex to turn around before he was continuing seriously with, "I like, I love you, man."

"Oh." Alex said -already having been sunk down on Danny. It was kind of awkward to have this kind of serious talk while being full of your best friend's dick after all. His eyebrows were drawn together in slight discomfort because he was still not so used to Danny's huge dick and couldn't really think because of it so all he could say was, "Okay...?"

"I mean, I love you as a friend, Alex." Danny said -trying to ease the sudden blanket of awkward they had going, "I don't know what we're doing or where this will lead to, but I want to stay you're friend for as long as possible."

"So, this is a one time thing, pretty much?" Alex asked. He wasn't hurt. He wanted the same thing. He wanted Danny as a friend. He had no idea why they were even having sex (but not right now because Alex had still not moved and was just sitting on his cock).

Danny nodded slowly, "You don't mind do you? I just want to forget after this... I mean, not because it's not good or I'm not attracted to you, but I really don't look at you like this." He gestured towards their bodies and then looked back up to Alex who was nodding with a small smile on his face as he said, "I just want to stay friends too."

"Besides," Danny said as he shifted and placed his hands on Alex's waist to help him move up and slide back down, "You like Jack anyways."

Alex blushed at the mention of the bad boy. He did like him. He just didn't know how much. He shrugged as he opened his mouth to reply about the Barakat when his door was being swung open -the sound of air whooshing and wood slamming against wood making him freeze.

"Alexander-"

"Son of a-"

"-William Gaskarth!" His mother cried. He could hear her footsteps walking over to the two teenagers -frozen in their place of obvious sex position. Danny looked up with a blush on his face as Alex just sat there -waiting for Isobel to reach them before he looked up at her sheepishly. "Get off of him right now!" She cried -her body standing in akimbo as she waited for Alex to move, but the teenager simply didn't, instead shouting embarrassingly, "Mom! Get out!" as his face turned almost completely red. His mother literally had no boundaries. "I closed the door for a reason!" He exclaimed.

Isobel wasn't having anything the young Gaskarth was saying and instead moved her hand from her hip to Alex's arm in attempt to jerk him right off the other boy who hadn't moved nor talked since she got there, "You don't know what kind of diseases this boy has! Get off of him before I call the cops!"

Alex was desperately trying to cover himself up -pushing himself up and off of Danny who grabbed Alex comforter and pulled it on himself as well. Alex sat on the bed by Danny's feet and glanced around for his discarded clothes as he said. "Why are you calling the cops? He didn't do anything wrong!"

"He was raping you!" Isobel cried.

Alex furrowed his brow in confusion, "I was on top of him, Mom! If anything I was raping him, but I wasn't because we're friends." He defended quickly. How could his mother think he was raping him anyways? It was obviously consensual.

"Were those two boys who raped you your "friends" too?" She snapped making Alex gasp as he glanced back at Danny who looked at him with a puzzled expression on his face. Alex felt tears pricking his eyes. He most certainly didn't want anyone to know about that, especially not Danny. He went to stand when Isobel continued with, "I can not believe you're just running around and having sex after what you just went through! Like... Like a whore. What would your father say?"

"I don't know!" Alex barked, "Why don't you fucking ask him? You talk to him every night behind my back anyways!" He stood up abruptly -his sheets falling to the floor making Isobel cover her eyes as he snapped, "Why do you even care? You never did before!"

"Don't talk to me like that, Alexander. I am your mother." She warned -eyes still being covered but mouth setting into a frown as Alex walked around the room to gather his clothes -Danny doing the same quickly.

"Since when?" Alex scoffed, "You've never acted like one. Not until you got 'sober'."

Isobel turned around when she heard the two stop moving -looking honestly offended. She crossed her arms over her chest and blinked rapidly as if Alex had hurt her feelings and she was about to cry. If anything he should be the one crying. He was the one she betrayed for yet another time by blurting out all his secrets in front of his friends. Alex grabbed Danny's hand as he scowled at his mother who reached up to wipe away stray tears. As if they were even real. He pulled the slighter boy out while slamming the door harshly -his own batch of tears beginning to fall as they reached outside in the cool, October air.

"Fuck." He muttered as he wiped the tears from his face, "I can't believe she said that." He shook his head as they continued to walk at a steady pace down the road -not necessarily going anywhere. Just walking.

"You were raped?" Danny asked quietly -unsure of how to approach the subject.

More tears ran down Alex's face as he chuckled weakly and asked, "You caught that, huh?"

"Alex," Danny said softly -almost scolding him for joking at a time like this. The two stopped at the end of Alex's block next to a slanted stop sign. He watched his friend wipe the tears away with the back of his hand hastily -sniffling and biting his lip as he laughed bitterly and blinked away more tears threatening to fall, "What happened?"

Alex shrugged -running his fingers through his messy hair stressfully as he sighed and said, "What always happens, Danny? I was forced... I..." He adverted his eyes to the ground, "It's happened before. I just... I block it out. I don't want to think about it, okay?" He shook his head and squeezed his eyes shut, "Can we please just not talk about it?"

Danny nodded before saying, "If you tell me who did it so I can kick his fucking ass."

Alex shook his head, "I just want to forget it, please?"

"Alex." Danny said sternly, "You need someone to talk to about this kind of thing. To keep it all in like that isn't healthy."

Alex bit his lip before sighing, "Okay, it... it was Josh and O-Oli... Please don't tell anyone, please." He quickly pleaded -tears streaking his face once again. He grabbed Danny's arm and pulled him closer so he could wrap his arms around his neck and Danny could his waist which the boy did quickly, "I'll talk to you about anything as long as you don't tell anyone. I just want to forget and move on."

"Alex, those guys need to be put in prison. You need to report this!" He said firmly -hoping to get his point across to Alex by saying, "Do you want them to do what they did to you to some innocent person?"

Alex shook his head -unable to talk because he could literally feel the lump of a sob in his throat. He bawled anyways -weeping into Danny's shoulder as he suddenly wailed, "I c-can't! I'm so... I'm so ashamed, Danny. I... I even got a boner while they were doing it like, like I liked it or so-something." He whimpered as he buried his face further into the crook of his friends neck -hiding his face in his arms and Danny's skin, "I c-can't even l-look at myself! I'm s-so disgusting." He spat.

"Alex, that was your body responding naturally. It wasn't your fault. You couldn't control something like that, no one can." Danny mumbled -stroking his hair softly as the blond's sobs began raking through his skinny frame causing him to shake.

"Y-you don't understand! I-I'm... I'm so much o-of a fu-ucking whore that I like being r-raped." He cried -tears seeming to endlessly flow from his eyes even with them squeezed shut, "I'm so embarrassed and... Disgusted."

Danny sighed quietly, "You're not disgusting." That only made Alex nod his head in disagreement and mutter, "Yes I am." while Danny took a moment to think before asking, "Does Jack know?"

"Jack hasn't talked to me in six days. I'll never fucking tell him. H-he'll just think I'm d-disgusting too. H-he can't know." He whimpered, "He'll never like me if he k-knew." Danny pulled back to give him a sympathetic yet stern look -scolding the boy silently for thinking such things because obviously the bad boy liked him more than a little, "A-and my mom made me take morning-after pills... in case... in case you know..." He adverted his eyes -feeling even more ashamed than he already did, "I feel... I feel so gross in my skin... Like even if I take a shower it'll never wash off." He scratched his wrist and shook his head.

"Maybe you should tell Jack." Danny suggested, "He could help you, Alex. He could make you feel better."

"No. He'll just hate me." Alex said quickly -dismissing the suggestion with a shake of his head while saying, "I'll never tell him."

Danny sighed, "Okay. Do you want to stay at my house for a while?" he asked but only got a disappointing shake of the head from Alex who said, "No, I want to go to m-my friend's house..."

"Who's?" Danny asked -wrapping his arms around Alex's shoulder to begin to lead him wherever he wanted.

"Brendon's."

Notes

Fucking shit guuuuys. What am I doing to you ugh. I even feel bad for doing this.

but it's all planned, blah, blah, my usual excuses.

IM UPSET THAT ALEX STILL DOESNT KNOW ABOUT JACK WTF WHO IS GONNA TELL HIM C'MON SHAY.

I can be upset with my own writings okay. ;-; I torture myself too ya know. I feel you guys. I just want to touch you all with my writing.


And my hands.

But it mostly my writing.

;) and my writing arm if you know what I mean but probably not because I don't even know.