Kiss and Sell

Alex couldn't help but sigh -really exasperated with Jack as he shoved him off yet again. For the pass hour -during some movie about a kid being left home all alone (was it Alone at Home?) -Alex didn't really care what it was -he has been trying to just have some kind of contact with the younger in the bed beside him. He tried holding his hand -remembering Jack was okay with it the last time -but Jack completely ripped his hand away. He kept scooting away from Alex who just scooted closer. He kind of felt like a freaking rapist because Jack looked so scared every time he tried to even touch him, but he was going to force this to just happen anyways. He didn't care if Jack really was scared, he didn't care if he seemed like a rapist either, he was going to kiss the fucking guy whether he was "used" to it or not.

"Stop it." Jack hissed, "I'm falling off the bed -scoot over." Alex looked over to see Jack having barely even an inch of room left. If he moved anymore he'd roll right off. Alex pulled him a little closer -Jack tensing in his arms as he held him against his chest. Alex wasn't used to this kind of thing as much as Jack wasn't. He didn't know if he was cuddling correctly or if he was initiated sex (which he would not mind at the moment nor ever) as he wound his arms around Jack's small waist.

"Then stop moving away from me." Alex muttered -closing his eyes to listen to Jack's breathing as it seemed to be choppy now -slowly becoming calm as Jack took in deep breaths from below Alex. He felt Jack shift and smiled contently as he placed his hands on his chest, that is, until Jack pushed him away lightly and asked, "Are you even watching this?" Seeming greatly offended Alex hadn't been paying a bit of attention.

"No, I've been staring at you the whole time." Alex admitted nonchalantly -smirking as Jack began to blush and advert his eyes back to the screen of his television as he muttered, "Just watch it." Alex rolled his eyes -arms still firmly around Jack's skinny waist -as he began to nuzzle his nose in Jack's hair -rubbing the strands away like a puppy would dirt as he breathed in his scent softly. Jack pushed him again -this time hitting his rib making him whine loudly and said, "Stop sniffing me. Just watch. This is my favorite movie, dammit."

Alex could only sigh as he loosened his grip on Jack's waist to rub his ribs as he turned his head to rest his cheek on Jack's head and look over at the screen. Jack shuffled some more -bringing his knees closer to his chest but not quite to it to get more comfortable as he fully leaned on Alex's good side which was the right. Alex took his hand then -right hand staying happily and low on Jack's hip (so more near his butt) from behind his back -and played with his fingers softly -running his index finger over Jack's calloused fingertips. He, of course, got very distracted from the movie and looked down at the hand he had took in his -Jack's right -that he examined until he noticed the knuckles. He ran the pad of his thumb over the cuts making Jack look down at it as he murmured, "What happened here?"

Jack thought for a moment -taking much longer than Alex thought necessary because it wasn't like he couldn't have noticed his knuckles being busted before -and said, "I was angry and punched a wall."

Alex hummed -his thumb never ceasing its soft run over the cuts. Their hands rest in Jack's lap -Alex allowing them to lace together although he'd rather run his fingers over Jack's because it was nice to feel the rough skin there -and didn't seem to ever be moving. Alex thought it was peaceful -nice actually -and wanted to voice how much he liked it, but instead just asking, "Can I kiss you?"

Jack adverted his eyes from the film for a moment to look at Alex's pleading face -watching as Alex's tongue darted out to wet his perfectly plump bottom lip that glistened afterwards -and, yeah, Jack wanted to kiss Alex too. His eyes flitted back to Alex's golden-flecked irises -them sparkling with adoration -something Jack had never seen in them before. They were wide and bright. Instead of darkened with lust, they were shimmering with something Jack told himself was love, but Alex didn't love. Maybe he just told himself he saw love in Alex's eyes. He wanted to see love in his eyes.

In reality, Alex was feeling caring for the younger. He realized how much he really did care and admire the raven-haired boy and he just wanted to feel his touch, his lips against his, his presence at all times. Their hands were dropped in favor of Alex raising his hand to brush Jack's fringe from his face and push Jack's hair back from his face to reveal his forehead and eyebrows perfectly. Alex smiled a little -slicking the rest of the hair back softly as Jack just stared at him until finally Jack leant forward and let their noses brush. He tilted his head to the right -his nose pressing against Alex's cheek -and pressed their lips together softly.

Alex didn't know if he was nervous or just didn't know what to do (which he highly doubted Jack didn't know what do to) but he could feel how Jack just froze. He was waiting for Alex to take control and be dominant. Alex lips moved slightly -letting his mouth open enough to slot their lips together and slide against each other slowly. Jack's breathing was calmer than when they first kissed, his body not as tense but still really inactive compared to Alex's which was squeezing his hip and rubbing a gently circle into his leg since Jack had his knees so far up and Alex didn't know if he was allowed to even touch Jack's thighs.

It was weird to the elder, and surprising, how odd Jack was about kissing. It was like he had never been kissed, but that just wasn't possible because Jack was a bad boy and bad boys fucked around with whoever they wanted and broke hearts and did what they wanted. There was no way Jack had never kissed anyone.

So, he just pushed that thought away -figuring he had just had a bad relationship in the past or something like that -and poked at Jack's bottom lip gently. When Jack denied him access Alex was a little disappointed but more so when Jack pulled away breathlessly (did he not breath through his nose?) and stuttered, "C-can we ju-just... kiss?"

"You mean no tongue?" Alex asked -thoughts of just kissing coming cross as a little boring -and frowned a little as Jack nodded slightly, "Really?" Again Jack nodded as he looked down at his lap and played silently with a loose string on his pajama pants as he mumbled, "I'm just not used to kissing you or anything and I thought maybe that we could just kiss for now, y'know?" Alex shrugged a little. It wasn't that he didn't want to just kiss Jack, it was just that it was kind of boring and slow and he thought maybe they'd be going a little further since Jack seemed to finally be paying attention to him in sense of what he liked which was sex, but his hopes of getting laid were softly being pushed aside as he nodded and said, "Sure, we can just kiss. No Frenching."

Jack smiled thankfully and scooted closer to Alex -fitting into his side again. Alex kissed his temple before ducking his head and kissing his lips -at first just a few little pecks that gradually grew into small open-mouth kisses. Their wet, swollen lips moved in sync against each other -so innocent it made Alex sick. He loved it, yes, but, god, it just wasn't his style. He got bored of it so easily which meant he just watched Jack kiss him pretty much at the end.

Jack had his eyes closed -his head titled -and for once he had started taking over just barely -Alex applying pressure so he wouldn't think he didn't like it or anything. He liked how Jack's eyebrows knitted together when he wanted to try something new like applying more pressure or moving his hands to rest somewhere other than Alex's chest like his cheek or the back of his neck.

Alex ran his fingers through Jack's hair -liking how it fell back across his face the wrong way and looked very messy -not that he cared he had made it that way. Jack pulled back -taking long gulps of air as Alex stayed completely fine. Jack took a breath through his nose and asked, "Did... Did you like it?"

"Huh?" Alex asked before widening his eyes and saying, "oh, yeah! Yeah, totally, it was... It was sweet."

Sweet? Jack thought. What does that mean?

"Like, I did okay but not good enough?" Jack asked and Alex shook his head quickly.

He moved his eyes down Jack's chest to his band shirt and then back up, "Like, it was a really nice gesture that I liked. It was just... Different.. I guess."

Jack furrowed his brow as he frowned -forehead creasing as he ran his fingers through his hair to fix it from when Alex had messed it all up, "Oh, so not good pretty much?"

"No, ugh, Jack, it was nice. Why do you care so much anyways? It was just a kiss." Alex rolled his eyes before shrugging and wrapping his arm around Jack's shoulder. They fell into a comfortable silence -cuddling up against each other and actually feeling good in each other's presence. Jack was use to arguing but they hadn't argued in about an hour which was actually pretty nice and Jack liked them like this -laid back and relaxed. Alex aeemed to like it too because he kept burying his nose in Jack's hair and sniffing him and every once in a while he'd actually give him a kiss on the temple or the head or sometimes his nose.

"Who was your first kiss?" Jack asked quietly. This had been the most he had ever ignored his favorite movie -he was a little disappointed he was missing so much but he could live -having seen it so many times he already knew every word and scene by heart.

"Hm, I would have to say it'd be the guy who took my virginity. Unless you want to get technical and say it was a girl in kindergarten but I don't really think that counts because it was just a peck and she laughed at me right after I did it, so..." He shrugged and Jack cocked an eyebrow.

"Who took your virginity?"

Alex blushed suddenly, "Uh... To be honest it was... Uh... Well, it was my cousin."

"What?" Jack said -laughing a little because... Wait, what? "Wait, your cousin? Wait, wait, wait."

"Ugh," Alex groaned, "I know, I know, like who even does that? But... Ugh you can't blame me I didn't exactly realize cousins didn't do that kind of stuff it wasn't like I was really attracted to him, I mean, I thought that's what people did when they loved each other, I didn't know any better."

Jack fell silent -moving his eyes back to the movie again. He thought about what Alex said before turning to look at him again, "How about the guy after that? Who did you have sex with after that?"

"A lot of people after that." He shrugged, "I really don't remember anymore."

"Oh." Jack said.

Alex sighed a little as he pulled Jack closer and kissed his temple, "you don't think I'm gross now, do you?"

"No. I've already kissed you and everything so what does it matter?" He shrugged and Alex chuckled as he grabbed Jack's chin and tilted his head up to kiss him softly. Jack smiled into the kiss and hummed as they pulled apart and said, "Can I ask you another thing?" And Alex nodded a little, "If I asked you out, what would you say?"

Notes

So, sorry for not updating all day like I usually do but my computers a complete bitch and I tried to fix it (and kind of did) but the my internet fucked up and I lost my thing I use to write on my computer and then sync to my phone (because I can't get on the internet on my computer because of viruses ugh) and now have to redownload it but my internets a piece of shit, and I'm so sorry if this sucks because I didn't know what to write and it's a pain to write and edit on my phone and all day I've been driving my mom around because she wanted to go all the freaking way to Texas (I live in Oklahoma) and see my grandma and I just had a busy day.

So again sorry if this really sucks buuuuuut it's not very edited or thought out like usual so yeah xD.

Also what do you think Alex is gonna say because I dunno I wanna know

i also went went to a doctors office (my little brother needed to get some shots) and I wrote this oneshot (I guess?) about Alex being a canabal. It's Jalex of course because that's all I write if it's a fanfiction anyways. I thought I'd just say that because I was at the doctor for the first time in years and all I did was write smut about canabals who even does that.

Me.

I do.

Anyways byyyyyye. I'll see you when my fucking computer stops being a bitch I think I'm just gonna get a new one who wants to send me money because seriously I just want a new one ugh.