Carry Me Home Tonight

I let Kenzie have her sleepover with Tay. I knew that I wouldn’t be the right person to talk to about girl stuff. I think was due to my underdeveloped emotions that was why she chose Tay.
But I need advice too so it was a good call on Kenzie’s part to want to wait a night. Maybe two, if she needs to.

“Jack you’re a well versed lover right,” I asked my best friend, thinking he could help, “How should I treat Kenzie when we finally fuck.”

“Well first I wouldn’t call it fucking,” Jack looked at me before smiling like the idiot he acted like,
“But more of love-making. Given you don’t feel love, but she does. You have to sensual and not sexual. You need to be gentle, but firm at the same time. It’s hard to describe it to you when you don’t have all your emotions back yet.”

“Ugh,” I groaned, “I want it to be special for her. I care about her, but it doesn’t seem like that’s enough. I know I need to feel more compassion, but I’m at an impasse. It’s frustrating.”

“Just be rough and sexy with her,” Tess barged into both the conversation and the room. She was wearing a white lace teddy with matching bra and panties that left little to the imagination. She looked like a slutty whore in a brothel.

“I don’t think she’d like that,” I told her as I looked away on instinct, “And why are you dressed like that?”

“Matt is in the mood for me to rough and gentle tonight,” she replied with a smirk in her voice, “Besides Alex, she might like it rough. The quiet types usually do.”

“No,” I nearly yelled at her, “I somehow know that Kenzie isn’t that type of girl.”

“I struck a nerve,” Tess shrugged at my outburst.

“Tess,” we all heard Matt yell, “I’m tied down here and using all of my willpower to not bust free to tie you down!”

“That’s my queue,” Tess smiled a little, “I’ll see you guys in the morning. Sorry in advance for any moans and screams you hear tonight.”
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“Alex, drink some alcohol,” Jack held out a beer, “It’ll help you stay calm.”

“I’m starving Jack,” I groaned, “It was a bad idea to bring me here.”

Jack had dragged me out to some club by the hotel to have a guys’ night. I wanted to be alone in my hotel room to figure out how I was going to have sex with Kenzie when she was ready.

“Hey sexy,” some girl in her early twenties slurred as she leaned onto my shoulder in a drunken stupor, “Come dance with me! It’s my birthday!”

“No thanks,” I shrugged her off, but she clung back onto me.

“Oh come on,” she was getting upset, “The birthday girl always gets what she wants.”

“I said back off,” I looked her in the eyes and started to compel her, “I am not here for the birthday girl. I am here to drink. My girlfriend is back at the hotel. I will not cheat on her. Go sleep with your best girlfriend. After all, you’re really into girls.”

The girl wandered off when I was done and started making out with her best friend. I smirked at the lust I had encouraged. Rian came over and was glaring at me.

“You compelled her into being a lesbian,” Rian sounded pissed, “Now you’ve probably fucked up her sex life.”

“It just came out,” I told him, shrugging, “I guess the indifference I had lived with the last five years isn’t staying away. Sorry.”

“It’s whatever,” Rian shrugged, “At least you didn’t feed on her. Kenzie would have killed you.”

“See,” I looked at Jack, “This was why I wanted to stay at the hotel.”

“Oh relax,” Jack brushed off my remark, “The night is young. Just loosen up a little.”

“I’ll loosen up alright,” I put down my beer and paid my tab, “I’m going into the woods to hunt.”

“Alex,” Zack had joined us, “There aren’t any woods nearby. But you could stalk the back alleys for rats.”

“That’ll have to do,” I sighed, “Maybe I’ll get lucky and find a stray animal or two.”
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I woke up the next morning to Kenzie leaning over me. Her hair was falling around my face and hers, diffusing the light from the window. I groaned and rubbed the sleep from my eyes.

“Hey,” I greeted her.

“Hi,” she smiled and kissed me. I never could kiss back, since I didn’t have the emotions to, but I never stopped her. She was in love and I was letting her go through the motions instead of hurting all the time because of me not caring enough.

“What time is it,” I asked as I sat up slowly.

“10:57,” she replied, “Rough night?”

“You have no idea,” I told her, “I had to compel someone last night.”

“Why,” she was concerned that it might had been one to forget something.

“Some chick was celebrating her birthday with too much alcohol,” I explained, “She tried to hit on me. I compelled her to leave me alone so I couldn’t hurt her. Because I knew that it would make you upset if I fed on a girl or slept with one.”

“Thank you,” she replied with a soft smile, “I’m glad you were honest with me. And for you not following your instincts to hunt last night.”

“I had a couple rats and a stray cat,” I told her, “Not a drop of drunken girl.”

“I’m proud of you,” Kenzie kissed me again, and I was getting used to it.

“I like it when you kiss me,” I told her, “It keeps my memories of how I felt five years ago alive so I can strive to get them all back.”

“I’m glad I can help you,” she smiled brightly as she messed with my hair.

I could get used to waking up to Kenzie. She was a very special girl to me.

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