Circles

4 Hours Later

"Hey Shaden?" looked over to Alex, and saw he had food shit "yeah?" I questioned slowly. "You want some pizza it’s really good." he tried to bribe I almost puked looking at the meat on the pizza. "No I am good Alex" "come on Shaden I haven't seen you eat anything yet I've only seen you have a beer and a water aren't you hungry?" he said. "Just eat some pizza its good." Jack said shoveling in his third piece "I am seriously good guys!" I protested "umm I got one here." Zack said bending down to the mini fridge rummaging in the back what is he looking for. "here it is!" he exclaimed throwing me a veggie, and dip cup finally someone figured it out. "Aren't you a vegetarian?" Rian questioned. "YES finally some one remembers I told Jack like 3 times I was." I started to laugh hoping to unintensifiy this situation. "BUNNY RABBITT!" Jack started yelling over, and over running around bouncing on shit wow he's hyper "Yea so what if I am your like a freaking Jack rabbit hopped up on coffee you remind me of that Squirrel that’s obsessed with coffee from over the hedge" "Hammy?" Alex said "YESS THAT'S IT!" I said "HEY I AM NOT" Jack yelled still running around. "Well then sit the fuck down then man because she is right you do right now." Rian said

I looked at my cell saw I had to leave, and go home for tomorrow, but its past midnight shit how am I going to get home it’s an hour away.
"JACK!!!!!!!!!!!!" I yelled “WHAT??" he yelled back "GOT A PROBLEM ITS MIDNIGHT THE TRAINS ARE DONE HOW AM I GOING TO GET HOME!!!!!" ”SHIT!!!!!!!!!" he continued to yell. I heard the door open to a very confused looking Alex standing there. “What’s going on??" He questioned cautiously "Umm no train to get home it’s just after midnight.” I stated simply with a frown "Fuck!" he blurted out about 10 seconds later Alex bursts out yelling. "HEY DOESN'T UMMMM A LOCAL BAND SUMO CYCO HAVE A VAN HERE THAT CAN BE DRIVEN." it just dawned on me that she was here shoot forgot to get my sister an autograph knew I was forgetting something "I forgot Skye was gonna be here lets go see cause I will be here by 9 am if so tomorrow." "Or you could stay in the back lounge if needed after you get your stuff for tomorrow. Jack said "sounds good, but we gotta see if Skye, and her band will let us use the van" "true say" Rian said. we walked over to their bus, and saw the van behind it. "One of you guys please knock" "sure" Alex said.

Alex knocked on the door, and Skye (or well by her stage name sever) opened the door.
"Ummm Hi there?" She said "Hi Umm I know this may sound weird, but we are an act here too, and I was wondering since we kept this one here *points to me* I interrupted him saying. "Alex I have a name you know?" he just chuckled, and continued “Shaden home since she has no way home we will bring it back?" "Yea sure just don't do anything illegal got it by the way nice to meet you Shaden so your local? She said " Yea I am actually from Pickering actually" "that’s not too far so yea guys get her home, or get the stuff, and she can stay on my bus since she is local, and a girl I don't think it would be good idea for her to stay on your bus cause she’s so young plus it be nice to meet some cool people around anyways here * throws keys to Alex* take these, and yea when you bring it back hopefully she comes back too." ”I will for sure thank you sooooo much lets go guys oh, and HEY I am not that young I am 19!"


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We pulled up to my Moms house since my Dad lived in toronto well Step Dads
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" well here it is" I said "wow this is a nice place I want to see your room!." Jack said. "yup no stay here you two I'll be back my mom should be up, and worried" "But I wanna see it come on pleaseeeeeee" Jack whined giving the puppy dog pout "ugh fine be quiet tho and don't for fuck sakes speak till we are in my room" "Yeay!" Jack cheered "you coming Alex?" Sure why not" he said " Alright lets go then." Alex shut off the van as Jack, and I climbed out heading to the door
I walked up the steps, and unlocked then opened the door slowly, and the alarm went off as Alex jumped I quickly turned it off before motioning to head upstairs I went to my room door told them to stay I went down the hall to my mom’s room peering in she’s out cold I walked back, and opened my door ushering the guys in their faces were quite priceless when they saw all this tumblr_mhcwq3c1tw1rjcit9o1_5001 With a few ATL, TPR, BTF, PTV, SWS, Paramore, BOTDF, posters and Paintings I did on the walls with bec1cdee6975f8a8f9f3609732be086c written on the roof (without the mirror) circling between these lights tumblr_lpf4l2M2ik1qgkc5so1_500
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I looked at the guys deciding to if I should see if they like it might as well go for it "Whacha think?" in a sing songy tune " This is so cool for a girls room I never expected this from you." Alex said "Really don't I seem like the artsy type do I" I laughed at Alex's mouth hanging open staring at my Recording desk along the last wall "Go check it out Alex I can see you practically drooling" I continued laughing at him silently. "Yea it’s just way different than I expected from you I thought it would be different." he said walking over to the desk. "This is amazing did you do all of this yourself like the paintings and lights?" Jack said "Yea I did cool huh?" I asked "yea wow" he said breathlessly as he flopped on my bed I just rolled my eyes, and walked over to my dresser getting some pjs, and all I needed for tomorrow. "Hey guys mind if I grab my Babies?" "You have kids?" Jack asked wide eyed "NO NO NO I mean my microphone and guitar." I said laughing. "Oh." "Yea and these them?" Alex asked holding up my amazing microphone, and Pointing to my purple, and black electric acoustic with my Music Lesson Place Guitar case that I detailed myself beside it
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"yup those are them my babies I miss the old guy that got these for me I hope I am making him proud because what is happening tomorrow is my dream, and he almost had me there, but he passed Rest In Peace James. Anyways guys we need to get going as much as I love being in here, and you guys seeing the real me we need to go before I we wake my mom up can one of you grab my guitar put it in the case, and carry it for me since I have to do the alarm while I write my mom a note. " I said "I'll grab them" Alex said "Thanks" I said while writing the note.

Left my mom the note on my bed saying.

~Mom sorry if I scared you, but I came home got my stuff went back to Toronto with the band, and am staying on Sumo Cycos bus so Skye Sweetnams, and I will see you later love you so much will record the performance for you to see and take lots of pictures, and I will see you tomorrow night if not the next morning for sure.
Tell melhanie I will get her an autograph from Skye cause of how much she loves her night. I love you both see you soon and I have my charger so you can text me.

~Love Shaden<3

I grabbed my bag and headed back down stairs with the guys in tow. I turned the alarm back on, and headed back with the guys Jack decided to sit in the back with me, and I was getting so tired I literally dozed off for what seemed like a second, but when I looked up I saw Jack carrying me into what looked like their bus he looked down, and smiled I returned it sleepily.
"Hey Sleeping Beauty." he said. "Not even I am like the new kick ass rapunzel from tangled" Jack, and I just chuckled. He turned around, and laid me down in a bunk I'm assuming was his. "Where am I??"I asked him. "umm my bus, but I am going to sleep in the back lounge you can sleep here." so it is his I thought wait no "No I will sleep back there you should sleep in your own bunk." I got up. "How about we share." he suggested. "Jack that’s so sweet, but I really don't know." I protested I know me this will make leaving tomorrow harder I can't allow myself to get this way over him I leave he'll just forget me like everyone else does. "Well go get changed, and think about it." he said plainly. " fine"

I trudged to the bathroom, and changed into my pjs, but shorts a pull over, and sports bra isn't to great I thought I was gonna be on a bus with at least one girl you know. I honestly don't know why Jack even asked me that who would even want me around in the first place. I sighed looking down at my wrist, and decided to just get dressed before I depress myself.
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Jack's P.O.V.

I was really hoping she would say yes so I could talk to her, or he say let’s go to the back lounge cause I like her, but we will pretty much never see each other after tomorrow well it’s now, or never to talk to her.

I hear the bathroom door open she looks cute actually she even removed most of her makeup, and wait yes I knew she was amazing, but just became perfect The Nightmare Before Christmas she really is something else.


Shaden's P.O.V.

I came out of the bathroom, and Jack was looking at me again, and I looked at him, and realized he wasn't wearing a shirt, and was wearing a loose fit pair of flannel pajama pants he looked good damn he’s cute stop that he's too old for you maybe one night being around someone wouldn't kill. No don't think about it because that will cause too much just don't. We continued just to stare at each other I looked down wishing I would have stayed home because this is so hard I want to, but I know my luck something will get complicated. "So what do you say?" he said "Jack" I whispered cause the others had gone to sleep. ”Yea Shaden?" he said. Before I knew what I was even saying the words flew out of my mouth “I think I will take you up on your offer tonight it couldn't kill you know to be next to someone for a night for a change" I mentally cursed myself thinking what an idiot I am. “Sweet!" He whisper yelled then looked at me, and said "here, or the back lounge?" "Back lounge much larger plus we can put on my favorite movie watch that? If you want?" I said “Depending on the movie so what movie is that? He asked "umm kind of obvious The Nightmare Before Christmas." Gesturing to my pullover. "What we waiting for?" he said going behind me and pushing me to the back lounge.


Jacks P.O.V.

We went to the back lounge, and popped the movie in I have to talk to her.

“Hey Shaden" I said "Jack you can call me Shay if you want, and what is it?" she asked in an innocent, but curious tone. "Well I don't know how to say this besides I kinda of like you I was wondering how you feel about me??" She looked shocked I shouldn't have said anything she probably doesn't even like me she probably likes Alex, or Zack she kinda hangs off them.


Shaden's P.O.V.

Whoa Jack Barakat said he kinda likes me oh wow I can't believe this I like him too, but I can't he will never be around Why can't things be simple?

"Jack I...I ...I like you too, but I can't you'll never be around, and you leave tomorrow night, and I will never see you besides on Skype I can't do that I need someone who is here." I said sadly as much as I would want something I know it won't end well nothing ever does with me. ”I understand Shay I just thought I would give it a shot." He said sounding hurt, but trying to look as if it didn't bug him. "I know I am, so, so sorry you are so awesome of a guy. it’s not that I don't want to it's just I don't think I can get hurt again Jack hell you saying that is a dream come true on its own but I just can't get hurt again it only been like almost 5 months since what happened to me I just can't sorry."
Shay you can't keep living afraid to get hurt again what did even happen to you like could it be that bad?" he said. Sounding even more hurt it’s honestly hurting me so much to see that sad look on his face in the hurt look in his eyes I didn't want that. "Jack I will tell you in time all that has happened I don't think I can tell you just yet, but yes this last past 4 years has been my worst and what's going on now just is horrible.”I see well I have one this to ask you, and do one thing?" he said looking at me straight in the eye "Sure what is it?" I asked wondering what he is thinking "this!"

He walked over to me put an arm around my waist oh my goodness he is going to kiss me what am I going to do Jack slowly leaned in, and gently laid a kiss on my cheek then look in my eyes leaned in fully, and pressed his lips to mine, and it was like something I never felt before not even with Scott his felt like fire burning me, but Jacks make me feel warm like bombs going off fireworks it was so explosive like no one else is around I start to kiss back, and he deepens the kiss as he grips my waist a little tighter, and pulls me closer he lightly bites on my lip asking for entrance I tease him by keeping my mouth closed, and mumbling "nuhun" he moves one hand on to the back of my neck, and the other down to my ass, and squeezed it lightly while biting my lip again making me gasp as he exploded my mouth it felt like I couldn't get enough, but this had to end I can't let this get any farther.

I pulled away from Jack looked at him he looked hurt.

"Jack I am so sorry I don't know why I did that." I said "I do you feel the same way, but you're afraid to get hurt? He eyed me cautiously looking in my eyes searching for answers "Yea I am? I said looking anywhere, eyes "when you said you'd tell us that long story and how you ex hurt you I figured well many have because you kept saying again?" "You’re smarter than you look mister Barakat" I said in a joking tone to lighten the mood in hope of a change in subject "we better get some sleep do you still want to fall asleep together? If not I can go to my bunk? He said. ”No stay I would really love your company" I grinned at him. "I was hoping for that" he said with a huge smile upon his face.

he leaned in and pecked my forehead I looked up staring into his eyes wow they are such a rich dark brown color he started to lean down so I hugged him quickly not knowing what to do I don't want this to keep happening so it’s not hard to leave tomorrow.
we laid all the couch cushions all over the floor I laid down, and he came close, and pulled me to him, and kissed me lightly again I couldn't help, but kiss back damnit this needs to stop happening, but it feels right it got heated fast Jack moved over top of me, and tried to gain entrance again I denied him with a small smirk on my lips jack moved his lips towards my neck, and looked at me.
“You better not dare Jack I will seriously get you ba…hack…” Jack started to kiss down my neck lightly I bit my lip trying not to let a small moan escape my lips, but soon as he hit my sweet spot I couldn’t help, but moan a little he took the chance, and slid his tongue in my mouth I decided to have a little fun with it and try to wrestle for dominance he won, and explored my mouth just as I was about to do the same to him he all the sudden pulled away said to me" please think about it Shaden?"

" I will goodnight Jack, and I will so get you back for that"
I turned to Jack cuddled into his chest put my head in the crook of his neck, and bit lightly on it, and started to kiss it a bit he looked at me, and smirked a little moving his hand to the small of my back, and rubbing circles in it I looked up, and Jack looked down he said.
Night Shay. As I drifted to sleep finally it came to sally’s song I couldn’t help, but mumble softly along to my favorite spot at the end of the song. “Try as I may it doesn’t last, and will we ever end up together? No I think not, it’s never to become for I am not the one” trailing off on the the last 5 words into a dreamless sleep for the first time in months.

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