Circles

When we got off the bus I was kinda hoping to, and not to see Jake, and Andy again just cause how dumb I looked maybe I would see Shane Told of Silverstein, and say thank for the follow since we are in his hometown, and well a few cities away from mine.

As we continued to walk around I kept seeing more and more people I was kind of hoping we'd get stopped, but the guys just kept moving till we were at a stage, and the schedule was on it. It showed BVB had practice right after us, and same with performed I walked over to Alex, and asked him

"umm so Alex so are we gonna work on it now a bit, or full when it’s scheduled?? “I asked. ”Both" he said. "Huh???What do you mean" “You, and I will be going back to the bus, and working on the song a bit together, and then we will come back on sound check, and tomorrow well you will find out about that surprise I told you about " Alex told me "Oh yea I totally forgot about that I really wonder what you guys got in store?" I asked excitedly. Remembering what he had said one time while I was skyping with Jack. "You'll see let's head back, and let the guys fool around" he said "Sure Alex" I said.
Alex, and I walked back to the bus to go work on the song man could this get any better.



Jack's P.O.V.

Once Alex, and Shay were out of sight I decided maybe I should ask the guys well more or less Rian about this weird feeling I get from her. "Hey Guys is it weird I am attracted to her like she is isn't like the usual girls I go for its kinda weirding me out.” "Not really men like maybe you finally see it’s not all about how she looks." Zack said smiling. "Jack I don't know what to say, but if you like her go for it you know maybe invite her to finish warped with us, or something she’s kind of young tho she's legal right? Rian asked joining in. "Yeah of course she is we wouldn't have picked her unless she was, and well I don't know guys I wanna talk to her, and see if she has any feelings about me." I said "well you two have been talking for a month now, and she seems like she is happy about that." Zack continued. "Well there is something about her I just can't put a finger on it she's different." I said. Just as I was about to speak again the guys from Black Veil Brides walked up.
"Hey guys what you up to?" Jake asked us. "Nothing just checking set times, and sound checks what you guys up to?" Zack replied. "Just walking around seeing if anything has changed since we were last here." Jake said "Nice nice so umm maybe I should go back to the bus in a few see how they are making out with working on the song." I said cutting in. "By the way who was that girl you were with earlier Jack? And that Alex just passed us with she's hot." Ash said. "Oh uh that's the girl that won the contest and stay away from her Ashley she's only 19." I said in a demanding tone which I didn’t even notice till I saw his face change and Zack put his hand on my shoulder. "Shit I thought she was like 22 at least." He said sounding a little shocked. "Anyways what's her name?" CC said "Shaden" Zack replied flatly. "Well that's a bit of a different name for a girl, but pretty cool it suits her." Andy said cutting in "hum" Jinxx said making us all turn to him "she looked a little off in space, or upset earlier when she passed the buses with Alex is she all right?" he continued. "Far as I know she is fine" I said starting to walk away. "Mind if I come back towards the buses with you Jack? I need to call Ella" Jake asked me."Sure man lets go" I said heading off with a wave to the others

Jake, and I walked away from the others, and he was kinda quiet well he’s usually a little more quiet than Andy, CC, and Ash, but not normally this quiet hum might as well let it fly its probably nothing maybe some issues with the fiancee since he has to call her nothing that concerns me too much hope everythings okay tho .
Shaden's P.O.V.

When Alex, and I got back on the bus we started to go over it not hard cause I am doing Juliet's part which is quite short, but I got to do a few bits to back up Alex he’s kinda trying to switch it a bit I think I wonder why.

I kind of wonder why Jack is being a little silent normally me, and him just act like big dorks, but I guess it’s easier over the net than in person he'll come around I hope cause I have always had a huge crush on Jack for who he was, and all, but I guess it’s all in my head cause he would never like me in a million years I am nothing special plus after tomorrow they will move on and just forget me anyways.

Just then Alex turned to and said "Hey you're really out of it Shaden you okay?" "I am fine can we take a break I really need a smoke bad!" I said trying to leave why I am feeling off a bit vague. "You sure? you were really out of it I was talking to you for like 5 minutes, and called your name at least 10 times, and yea no problem, but you know that’s a horrible habit, and smells nasty" he stated.
"I am sure just a lot going on in my head this is all very overwhelming, and I know I've been trying to get away from it but its way better than all my other habits, but I'll be back.” I need to hurry up and get out of this conversation. "I hear you first time I performed I was so nervous, and had a panic attack, but umm that can be put aside for now what other habits are you talking about?" he said. Fuck okay last resort. "I have them too, but I have sung, and performed enough times, but I'll be back in just like 5-7" I said trying to slowly shift away from him. "Shaden seriously come here what's going on I have known you for almost a month, and whenever I see you on cam you are always so carefree, and just really goofy like Jack, but now you're all out of it, and cautious what's up seriously??" He said.

I looked at Alex fuck he's on to it I have to hurry up and get out the door like now. I stood up and went to walk away when Alex grabbed my wrist I winced from the pain from the healing cuts under my bracelets Alex looked from my face to my wrist and back up with worried eyes when he pulled me to him I reluctantly sat back down.
"Shaden what was that?" he asked me cautiously. "Oh that nothing I fell earlier today and it’s a little sore." I stated as calmly as I could. "I don't believe that move your bracelets." he demanded, but in a soft tone I looked at him, and just sighed there is no way out of this so I might as well just tell him great I have to tell one of my hero's I cut this is not going to go well. I looked at Alex again, and said. "Please don't be mad or yell at me like anyone else who had ever found out has." as I removed my bracelets my eyes not leaving Alex's face his eyes widened and he looked up at me with hurt I saw him try to say something, but he just sighed, and went to talk again, but closed his mouth then suddenly he spoke soon as I looked down.

"Why? Why do you do this to yourself? How could you? What is so bad in your life to make you hurt yourself like that?" he said he looked ready to cry seeing the disaster that is my severely scared wrist. "Alex I don't know why, but I will be one hundred percent honest with this because I honestly don't want to lie to someone who has made this." pointing to my wrist. "Happen a lot less than it would have if I hadn't found your band. I've been through hell, and back more than once I've had to move Schools 7 times because I've been bullied so much I have had 4 suicide attempts, starting just before I found your music, and I was abused by one of my ex's, and now my ex fiancée haunts my every waking moment I am the joke, and most hated girl in my city because of him plus many more things I can't even begin to talk about ." I started to try to hold my tears back remembering some of my worst moments, but I guess it wasn't going to work because one slipped down, and Alex wiped it up he looked down really shocked before he spoke "I kind of understand now, but wow you've been through a lot you know it all gets better and that there can't happen anymore I don't want to see that anymore not one bit got it?" I just nodded and stood up he looked at me weird then looked at him. "I'm going for my smokes remember." I reminded him "Oh Oh yeah! Sorry go ahead, but you need a hug first!" he exclaimed as I finished putting my bracelets back in place. I looked back at him with my smoke in my mouth and my lighter in hand, and walked over to him, and hugged him tightly "Thank you Alex so much you're honestly such a great person." I mumbled into his chest "What are friends for now go have your smoke." he laughed pulling a disgusted face.
"Alright fine I'm goooing." I said jokingly


I quickly hopped outside when I was outside smoking Danny, and Ben from Asking Alexandria came up to me. "Hey aren't you the girl that won All Time Low's contest." Ben said eyeing me. "Yup that's me Shaden By the way it’s amazing to meet some of my favorite Vocalists." I said excited to meet them I love Asking. "Very nice darling how old are yea?" Danny asked giving his classic smirk. "19" I said simply. "I thought you were like at least 21- 22 wow was I wrong" He said "I Thought you were younger, or something? But I was closer Danny so I win" Ben said in a taunting tone to Danny. "Ah shut up yea fuckin' wanker." I just laughed at them. "Nope I'm not older, or younger everyone always assumes 16 so if you had a bet what age did you think I was Ben?" I asked him "Well that's actually how old I thought you were love." He replied
Just then I saw Jack walking up with Jake, and looking at both of them my heart stopped K=Jack is well Jack the way his Skunk hair sticks up, that sweet smirk on his face, his dark chocolate brown eyes, long slinky body he’s beyond perfect, and well Jake he’s the best guitarist I’ve seen in a while his jet black hair he’s not a stick, but he’s not fat he’s semi tall, and his hazel eyes plus is intercut tats he is something else, but he has Ella tho, and he is a bit old for me, then with Jack he doesn't really date oh well none of them will ever see me again after tomorrow besides maybe they guys so why bother plus I don't believe in love anymore not after what Scott did to me every time it will all be the same.

"Someone's got a bit of a crush yea?" Cam asked walking up with Sam, and James behind me from their bus next to ATL's "Yea it used to be fan girl, but now it’s a full blown one yea know? Part of my accent that I hide came out "Was that a bit of an accent I heard come from yea?" James asked "Yea a bit it comes out when I am around other people with the accent because of my background root's." I stated "What are your roots Shaden?" Ben asked "I am Dutch, Welsh, Celtic, or well Wiccan, and a bit Scottish as well I pretty much am full blown European.

"Hey guys" Jack said I decided to go back in with Alex and finish practicing while they catch up.

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