Circles

I walked into the house it was really quiet I know I am seeing my step father tonight “Hey Mom, Dad, Mehl I’m here, and I got some amazing news.” I called out knowing I was late already which mean I’ll have to tell everyone all together I looked down at my outfit www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=11103... as I heard my mom. “We are in the dining room Shay. What’s the news?” She asked all excited. She knew things were starting to take off and she has been nothing, but supportive of me finally getting my dream in my grasps. I know she will let me go, but I will have to figure out how to tell my dad that I will be leaving work to tour for 3 months over in another country this will be something so interesting. “I’ll tell you after we eat.” I said looking my mom in the eye giving her the look of I need to figure out how I word this because if I don’t I won’t be going. We all continued to eat in silence.
Eventually we all left the table except my mom and I. “Do you need any help cleaning up getting desert ready?” I asked getting up collecting the plates left behind my half sister and step dad. “No I think I can handle it, but I am curious of what you have to tell up because I think we should do that before desert.” I grabbed my mom’s dirty plate taking it to the sink with the others. “You go in I’ll be there in a few.” I said putting it in the sink rinsing off each of the dishes and soaking them so less work for my mom since she’s not too well. I can’t put this off any longer now because after desert (Dad) has to leave. I walked over to the living room standing in front of the T.V. as we always did when someone had a big announcement looking at my Mom, my Step Dad, and my 15 year old sister. “I guess I should come out with this because I only have about 2 an a half weeks left. I have decided because Skye asked me to along with my friends of Courage My Love to go on tour with them as their Merch girl and help out the tour manager to keep everyone on schedule plus if a backup singer is out I fill in so this is a big opportunity, and I love you all, but no matter what is said I am going I already have all my tickets planned I leave on the on the 28th and will be gone till. To top it all off for Four nights of the tour I’ll be performing because we cross paths with BVB, and ATL, but here is the part I know will be hard especially on you Mom, but I did manage to get 2 free flights plus whatever extra you have you can come, and see me because it’s a European tour so I will be mostly in the UK, France, Ireland, Scotland, and Germany.
I will be gone for 3 months so leaving on the 28th and back March 30th.” Finished like a ball of nerves letting out a huge sigh. “This amazing baby girl your finally going to make it this is it isn’t it you’re getting to old, and you don’t live at home anymore its what you want, but I will support you on the one-hundred percent of the way if its your dream I’m so proud of you you really are turning out to be an amazing young woman.” My mom told me while hugging me sniffling. I guess I really am all grown up now I’m making my own decisions doing what I wanted since I was 5 years old. My moms moment was broken up by my step dad. “I won’t have it your going to business school you will not be a rock star if you do leave I will disown you no daughter of mine even if it is a step child will shame my families name.” he said looking furious. “Jameel I know you don’t like this, but can’t you see she has made it. Not many people make it out there, and she is. She isn’t like your family she’s not exactly like mine, but she got her voice, she found her place out there have you ever seen her perform. No you never have you were always late, or taking business calls. She is going because she is 20 it’s her decision to go, or not I support her dream this here is all she has ever wanted in life.” She said looking at him then to me knowingly that I wasn’t going to get to go without defying him and getting disowned. “Dad listen I am going this is my last shot at it all working hopeless even said yes to me going they want me out there, and all my other expenses like food is on the tour budget I have my meds already to go all I have to do is tell them, and pay for them get my new clothes, and I am good I know mom’s side will always support me, but there is only one way I am going right is the fact that I will no longer be your oldest, and step daughter then fine have the perfect Islamic daughter you have always wanted let Melhanie be that kid, but I’m not I am going in two weeks so you can either see me the day I leave, or with Mom, and Melh, or not come at all aunt Nina will come with them. So what is it am I still your daughter, or not because either way I am fine with it. I said looking at him with a scowl. “then if this is how you feel you aren’t my daughter anymore Shaden now get out of this house you aren’t exactly welcome anymore.” He said full of hate “Fine such a father you were all these years remember anyone can be a father but it takes someone special to be a dad. Mehl I love you I will see you in almost 3 weeks take care of mom while I am gone, and Mom thank you for all you have done for me I love you so much I’ll see you in a few week or for lunch later this week.” I kissed my mom on the cheek and hugged my sister before grabbing my coat and purse heading back to my apartment in tears.

Soon as I was inside I crumbled to the floor pulling out my cell calling Alex since they were all still in town. I dialed his number waiting for him to pick up.
“Shay it’s 11:30 why are you calling me?” he said sounding tired. I just sniffed back my tears. “Shay what’s wrong are you alright?” he asked frightened.
“I’m physically fine, but emotionally not so much I just got disowned by half of my family can you and the guys come over or I’ll come get you guys I just don’t want to be alone tonight. I honestly fear what I might do.” I said trying to pull myself together tho I was crying harder than I was before.
“Shay give me your address? I’m coming to stay tonight.” He said urgently
“its 1280 Glenanna road south. Pickering” I said
“we’ll be there in like 30 I promise you’ll be okay alright Zack is going to take the phone while I drive.” Alex said.
“Shay are you alright? What is going on? Alex sounded panicked told us to get up that we are going somewhere.” Zack said worried man do I love these boy’s.
“I’ll explain everything when you, and Alex get here alright, but long story I told my family.” I said calming down a little.
“Wow so not the reaction you were hoping for I’m going to take a guess on that?” he said.
“Bingo.” We stayed quiet for a while I still hadn’t moved from beside the door.
“Shay what’s your apartment and buzz number?” Zack asked
“Umm its 223 are you guys here?”
“Yea we are let us in we’ll be up in a second.” He said as my buzzer went off while hanging up still slightly crying trying to keep myself feeling sane.
I heard a knock on my door a few minutes later. I opened the door while still on the floor with my head in my hands and my knees still pressed up to my chest crying a bit. When I felt large arms wrap around me, but to many foot steps to be just the two of them at this point I have no care I just lost half of my family in one sweep because I finally have my dream in my grasp I just gripped tightly onto whoever was holding me though I am fairly sure it was Zack or Rian from the arm built. Not before long I was being lifted still gripping the person who was holding me tight moving down the hall while two other sets of footsteps followed and one trailing far behind Ifelt whoever was carrying me stop for a second while I heard a door open so they found my room I was set on my bed with who was carrying me I finally looked up to see Zack looking at me worried I felt the bed sink a fair bit a few different times looking to the side to see 4 people staring at me one I honestly didn’t think would come. “Shay now what exactly happened?” Matt asked placing a hand on my shoulder. “Well it started with being late because of working with Skye then I told them I had good news, but I wanted to wait till after dinner so we did my mom was fully supportive when I told her about the tour Mellie didn’t care at all she just sat there giving me a so look. Then my dad well Jameel started to yell forbid it I was going to go to school become a business woman if I didn’t I was disowned my mom stood up for me I told him he could have me still as his daughter and well he disowned me after making my stand and told me I am never allowed near that house kicking me out the door I told my mom and sis I loved them again mellie didn’t care said nothing didn’t hug me my mom I left her in tears told him there is only two chances coming when I leave in a few weeks or when my mom visits to have me back but he won’t come I know that so now all I got is my mom, my aunt Nina, cousin James, and my grandparents and well everyone else I’m not close with anymore so yea I just got disowned by the only man I had in my life and I have no clue how the rest of my family will feel.” I finished crying Alex pulled me out of Zack’s lap moving me to the center of my king sized bed to hug me along with Matt, Rian, and Zack.

I never expected to feel a fifth set of arms wrap around me I know he’s here I guess he didn’t know they were coming till they were half way here, but still he’s comforting me, and that’s all I could want slowly Matt, and Rian let go getting up leaving the room soon Zack followed leaving Alex, myself, and Jack. “Jack I know you hate me, but thank you for coming, and comforting me it means a lot.” I said sniffling hugging him tighter I heard Alex get up. “I think I’ll leave you guys alone for a little I think you need to talk I mean it I really think you do after all that has happened in the last like 5 months. I’ll be in the living room if you need me.” He said shutting the door behind him.

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