Circles

Shaden's P.O.V.

Soon as I got home I went home changed into my Pj's from the other night I had spent with Jack they still kinda smelled like him, and I pulled out my phone, and camera watching the moments from the last 3 days over, and over again thinking how I'll miss them especially Jack I watched right from the performance, and to the song I did with Courage My Love I didn't know Alex was filming that, then the acoustic set I did with the guys apparently Rian filmed that because he got Jacks reaction I caught him saying "This is how she feels about me I kinda feel like a dick now." it made me smile a little to hear his voice oh great truth or dare here we go. I thought while shaking my head. I couldn't help but cry when it got to video of us dancing, soon as we disappeared I put my camera of to the side and listened to what Alex sent me

It was silent for a little then I heard Jack start to talk
"you don't know how bad I want to believe you, but I just can't not after Holly I like you, and I want you right now so bad." he slurred it became silent again before I heard myself speak up and say "Jack we can't be like this its not good you'll just forget all this in the morning and hate me again I don't want it to be that way, but it will, but I hope you will remember in the morning, but there is one thing I am going to do to make sure you do know what happened right here, and now." "What is that?" He questioned in a hushed tone it was quiet for a short bit of time before I heard him moan lowly after a little I heard myself gasp then I moaned while later it was silent again for a few minutes "Shay you honestly don't know how beautiful you are I saw when we were up stairs on the roof you don't have to be ashamed you have scars everyone does. You are still beautiful its a painful, and devastatingly beautiful the kind you don't want. Many of us think you are fuckin beyond gorgeous, but you being so insecure and the fact you cut, starve, and whatever else you may do to yourself its not worth it trust me you need to put it behind you. You are killing me its been only like a month an a week that I've known you, but you've got me so freaking messed up over this I don't know what to believe, but I want to believe it its just who is right I'm not sure, and I like you a lot Shay you don't even understand yea I was jealous about you having to kiss everyone else, and then dancing with Austin like that who wouldn't get jealous seeing you move like that." he said I interrupted him. "Umm does this have a point." I said a little impatient he's stalling. "Yes there is I was meaning that you are beautiful in the worst way I wish you could see it, and that I want you with me, but you are so damn scared, and that you are trouble in the best way." he said after a few seconds of silence "Now what were you saying Shay" he said smoothly

"This give me your left arm after I do this." I said I guess this is when I wrote on him
then it ended about a minute later when I heard the door open

then it all came flooding back how he kissed me had his arms around me these hickey's how they came about the way he traced my scars telling me how I was beautiful the notes on him then leaving the closet

I pulled my camera back over to me looking at the last video was all of us at the airport when saying goodbye I can't believe this now all the pictures came up the ones of the guys dangling the beer over my face while the three of them sat on me how did Jinxx even take this I never saw him take it theres one's of us walking to the stage with me on cc's back then one with Jack spinning me around I can't even look at them anymore I put my phone and camera down I guess I will look later


Alex's P.O.V.

"Hey Alan, Jack can you guys go get Starbucks for all of us or at least some of us?" I asked. "Yea sure why not?" Alan said not giving Jack a chance to answer by dragging him off. I waited till they were fully out of sight. "Alright so umm what are we going to do?" I asked. "I am going to say this seriously we should leave it alone." Flyzik said when no one spoke up for a few minutes. "I agree I'm not messing with this yea they like each other, but is it really our place to mess with?" Vic said to me. "I'm in because well if they don't get together I can see this coming shits gonna hit the fan." Ashley said laughing. "Yeah I hear you, but they will keep it to them selves hopefully and we won't get dragged into it which I highly doubt because Shay seems like the kind of girl who will want this kept on the downlow and he and Jack I will say it now aren' going to work she isn't ready alright I talked to her last night on the way up in the elevator just let them be normally I am all in for getting people together, but in the case its something that should be left alone I am not getting involed, and I hate to say it Alex, but I don't think that many of us will get involved because its not our place." Jayy said. "I have to agree with Jayy no offence Alex like I would hate to be set up if anything can be told from the last few days is we should let this go especially you because your messing with something that isn't in your control man." Kellin said putting a hand on my shoulder. "Alright if you don't agree just go sit over there." I said pointing across the small cafe. I watched over half of the group walk over there including CC, Flyzik, Zack, Vic, Andy, and Juliet . "Alright so that leaves not to many of us." I said a bit disappointed. seeing only Danny, and Sam from asking, everyone from Silverstein, only Matt, and Jared from BTF, Ashley from BVB, Jamie from PTV, Jordan and Matt N from BMTH, Phil from OM&M already knowing Alan is in, and Rian and myself. I am actually surprised Dahvie, Jayy, and Jeff don't want any part in this. "Alright so umm looks like this is gonna be harder than I thought got a plan Ashley for how we are gonna get them together?" I said "I thought more of us would help so at the moment I am not sure." Ashley said. "Anyways plan?" "I say just let what every happens happen's they won't get together with all of us breathing down their necks." Jack said. "Dude your back already?" I called out seeing him, and Alan walk up. " Yea I am uh here everyone I need to talk to Alex so excuse us." He said putting the coffees down.

Jack's P.O.V.

I started to walk back from Starbucks and Alan kept trying to slow me down. It only determined me to get back quicker I heard kellin say. " "I have to agree with Jayy no offence Alex like I would hate to be set up if anything can be told from the last few days is we should let this go especially you because your messing with something that isn't in your control man." What does that mean. "Alright if you don't agree just go sit over there." He said pointing across the small cafe. I watched over half of the group walk over there including CC, Flyzik, Zack, Vic, Andy, and Juliet . "Alright so that leaves not to many of us." He said a bit disappointed. seeing only Danny, and Sam from asking, everyone from Silverstein, only Matt, and Jared from BTF, Ashley from BVB, Jamie from PTV, Jordan and Matt N from BMTH, Phil from OM&M already knowing Alan is in, and Rian and Alex. "Alright so umm looks like this is gonna be harder than I thought got a plan Ashley for how we are gonna get them together?" Alex said turning to Ashley "I thought more of us would help so at the moment I am not sure." Ashley said. "Anyways plan?" Alex said. "I say just let what every happens happen's they won't get together with all of us breathing down their necks." I called out catching on to what he meant. "Dude your back already?" He called out seeing myself, and Alan walk up. " Yea I am uh here everyone I need to talk to Alex so excuse us." I said putting the coffees down. I grabbed Alex dragging him away from the group . "Just leave it we are just going to be friends I don't like her that way after what I was told there she needs to much help for me to be with her so let it go I mean it Lex this isn't something I need right now." I said leaving him standing there. can't believe my best friend is still trying to set me up with her. Do I still like her? because that hurt to say. I got some food just before the doors of the cafe waiting by myself in the corner not wanting really to talk to anyone right now. As Matt came over. "Busses are here lets go man don't worry I'm not gonna push the subject thats why I wasn't in the group its wrong what ever happenes between you two happen's its none of my business unless its affecting your playing, or mental state." HE said smiling. "Thanks let's go because I just want to go to bed and for get the last few days." I said getting up walking out with Matt.

Notes

Just a filler chapter