Circles

Shaden's P.O.V.

My cell buzzed and I looked down, Jack I sighed and ignored it Alex looked at me kind of curious I rolled my eyes and raised his eyebrow then asked Jack? I just nodded Shay he remembers a bit of last night it came to him when he read your notes nice choice on where tho but he knows deep down you are right it will just take time for us to convince him alright? I sighed while sipping on my tea and eating my yogurt and a piece of toast and Jam "Alex we don't have time your flight is in 5 hours, and then I am out of his life so just forget it. it wasn't meant to be, and plus I found out someone else has feeling for me he may be better for me he knows how to be but I wouldn't do it unless he's single." Jake? "yeah, hes got Ella so again I am alone." Don't think that way we will fix things with Jack and you two will get together. my cell buzzed again Jack. "Again" Alex asked me I nodded and answered him saying

Jack: Hey Shay I didn't hurt you in the closet last night did I?
Jack: Shaden please answer this one I need to know I didn't want to hurt you!
Shaden: Jack the only harm done besides my hips being sore from when you were gripping me, and the hickies on my neck from you last night when we were dancing I am fine Physically, if you wanna know emotionally then take a wild guess, but you're going to have to talk to me in person to find out the other two anyways I am down stairs with Alex trying to eat something for once so come and find me don't hide behind your phone.

"What does he want?" Alex asked me so I just handed him my phone "See he's concerned he hurt you thats good" yea, but he did way more damage mentally, and emotionally than physically bruised hips, and hickies will heal, but broken confidence, and heart take a lot longer to fix, and hurt more maybe I can write a new song on this and it can be the one I use at my appointment to see if I get signed or not. "thats the way Shay but he is worried I saw it earlier he was so scared he hurt you and how much you remembered." "Oh well umm ahh maybe we should get to the lobby people should be down there now I think?" "Shay don't avoid this, but we do have to go oh, and before I forget you ended up butt dialing me last night I heard your whole conversation with Jack it was kinda awkward listening to that, but he is very right on almost everything he said." "What did he even say I honestly can't even remember what was said directly." "Here I'll send you it because I recorded it, and everyone has last night on tape." I looked at my phone seeing Alex sent me 2 files one labeled Shay & Jack's convo the other Shay dancing. “Umm Shay I have to know more about your past you up to talk about it since its only us?” "I'll check them later alright? And you know what sure I got nothing left to lose!"I said letting a heavy sigh fall from my saddened face. This is something I shouldn’t talk about but I need to. “So when I was younger first born I didn’t ever meet my dad he just up and left my mom says he died 3 weeks later in a vehicle accident, when I was 3 my mom got married to Dick of a step father he always teased me till I cried and showed no love for me or my mom only showed sone for melhanie my little sister, when I was 8 my mom and step dad separated the day my mom packed me and Melie up and just left, I went to a new school lost contact with all my friends esp my best friend at that time of 5 years I got bullied so bad my cousin had to save my hid everyday, I was moved schools and it was still bad moved to another town so my mom could get her job, it was bad there my step dad convinced us to move back to here Toronto and we moved to pickering once my bullying go so bad I tried to kill myself at only the age of 12 at 14 I went to highschool after I moved it was great for the first month on my birthday I got severe back damage from one of my bullies, at 15 was run out of that school it was so bad, at 16 I was abused by my other ex plus lots of bullying I got kicked out for bad behavior because I did drugs drank all the time this scar in my arm the G.C. is him a week later I tried to kill myself again this was the 3rd attempt 4 months later Scott and I got together he saved me but there has always been lots of family problems still while he was around my mom was sick and kinda went loopy for a while he used to throw things at me yell in my face punch the door beside my head throw me out in the cold because I didn’t follow once small thing it was shit then Scott moved him it was safe but while we were finishing highschool I got pregnant that’s the picture from prom you saw that’s why we were smiling so big I lost the baby when I had co-op and a bad behavior student kicked me in the stomach from there we went down hill and ended with a fight a littteral one so he didn’t hurt me and I was cutting really bad because I couldn’t deal my friend Jemma came in the bathroom I had to call her so I didn’t bleed out and die she helped me and now after well battling anorexia drugs alcoholism self harm I’m still here its like I won’t die but that’s my story oh wait plus last year I was raped.” “Wow Shay I never thought it was so bad but life gives you all this to show how tough you are right now things may look fairly dim but they won’t forever.” Alex said with his infamous smile that one that would make you go weak in the knees. Hes such a great friend. “Yea I never thought of it that way Alex but how about we head out? and please keep this to yourself I don’t need anyone knowing my story not one bit. I trust you not to tell anyone.” I said giving him a stern look that turned into a light smile. "Yeah sounds good lets go wait for everyone, but you might want to listen to the Jack one while we wait." He said "I honestly don't think I can not yet at least." he gave me a knowing look as we got up and headed to the lobby.

~after 45 mins of waiting for everyone~
Well this is it after the next 2 hours they're all gone it was good while it lasted Jack still isn't down here yet its kinda annoying, but oh wait never mind here he is why is he laughing I looked at his shirt then down at mine great we are wearing the same shirt at least I cut it up so it says J.A. now hope he notices it because it's directed at him

Once we got to the airport a gathered as many numbers as I could so we could all keep in contact I really am going to miss them of course I would it was such a great time I am going to miss them so bad its sad. I don't want them to go, but they gotta finish Warped when it came to my good byes with Alex, Zack, and CC I was tearing up a bit. Like hell Alex I trust him with my life same with CC they are like my best friends, and brothers already, and Zack well hes just do defensive, and sweet with me I love it once the goodbyes were said it kinda hurt because yea Jack did hug me, and told me " you better take care of yourself I know about your issues, and I remember what I said last night to you. Get better I mean it I am still your friend, but we won't ever be anything more" which only hurt more, so I asked him "did anything I say get to you? anything make any sense last night?" "I still didn't believe you, I want to, but can't, but yes it did I'll think about it, but its a low chance of us even talking. If you really need me don't be afraid to text me. He kissed my cheek, and walked off to his gate with the others I leaned into Brandon who was standing next to me as he put his arm around me I tried not to cry. I just wanted to kiss him again one last time cause I know I'll never see him again probably, and letting one of my last chances of happiness walk out, and on that gate to their flight I was gonna miss all those crazy bastards which just made me cry worse, but out of happiness, and sadness because the last 3 days have been the best I've had since I was very young, and that says a lot considering the drama that happened.

Jack's P.O.V.

Once we got to the airport I waited on Shay to finish getting numbers when she did it kinda hurt to see her tear up like that when she said her goodbyes, but I have to patiently waiting for my turn I want to be last so it sticks so she just forgets me even tho I won't forget her. This is it its going to be so hard to say goodbye I walked up to her and hugged her I honestly don't want to let go " you better take care of yourself I know about your issues, and I remember what I said last night to you. Get better I mean it I am still your friend, but we won't ever be anything more" which only hurt more because she looked like she was going to cry quite frankly I feel that way too. "Did anything I say get to you? anything make any sense last night?" She said sounding hurt. "I still don't believe you, I want to, but can't, but yes it did I'll think about it, but its a low chance of us even talking. If you really need me don't be afraid to text me." I said with a smile hoping she would return it and I could leave knowing she's okay. I kissed her cheek, and walked off to my gate with the others I looked back at her she was just leaning into Brandon looking like she was going to break all I wanted to do is turn back, and just kiss her again one last time cause I know it'll never happen again now.

Shaden's P.O.V.

once the 9 of us took off in our separate directions seeing as Sumo Cyco, and Courage My Love were semi local as CML took off to kitchener, and Skye, and I took off back to Toronto while her band mates went home, so I could catch a train home I said my goodbyes to all of them, and took my ride with Skye I think I am gonna miss her most. "Hey Skye umm mind if we keep in touch?" she looked at me like I was crazy, and said "You really think we won't geez your so just ugh we aren't not just gonna be friends after this hell we are friends lets just drop you off you need some rest after all this. Why don't I actually take you home, and your sis can actually meet me?" "sure why not".
After Skye dropped me off, and met my sis all I wanted to do is sleep for a while, and maybe try to forget Jack, but its impossible, and well Skye said she's going to help me make my demo, and send it out she, and Shane both said they are going to make it happen I hope soo.


Jack's P.O.V.
Once we were all situated on the plane I asked Alan if I could see the video he had it all damn she can dance her hair the way she looks in that light how she moved her hips and maneuvers her body to the music like that its like she's lost in it and Austins just there like a pole wow how can I forget her now after seeing that I was just watching when she was dancing with me over, and over she looked so perfect I am so glad Dahvie didn't follow what I said I can't believe how she looks Alan caught us go in the close,t and caught her kiss me as she left, and ran over to Alex fuck she really will be im possible to forget oh well Like Josh from you me at six sings its safer to hate her than to love her and lose her I am going to have to keep thinking about that when ever I think of her. Alex leaned over to me and said "you have to believe her man she was so sad this morning at breakfast with me like I've never seen her eyes so sad, and I've seen some pretty bad moments for her in a few days she told me a few things but not enough I have to talk to her and find out why she is like this I know she's been hurt by her x but man I think you hurt her more you were a hero to her and her crush you can see it when you both look at each other you got something so stop saying you don't need love both of you are so hard headed and need to admit you need someone to love" Alex man I just need to forget her I'm 24 She's 19 its not going to work plus she also likes Jake. "yea but she wants you more and Jake has Ella." he likes her man I heard it myself. I whispered to Alex."shit this is gonna be difficult I'll think of something" Alex for fuck sakes leave it I don't want it okay she's trouble like a month an a week and I've changed I've never had someone on my mind you should have heard myself when I was thinking earlier I sounded like a chick it's not good I just have to think what he said is real and stay away from her. I just popped my earbuds in and figure to get some sleep since I didn't get much.

Alex's P.O.V. / Thoughts

Well umm this is going to be hard they just want to forget, but they don't want to at the same time they won't I know that I'll have to do something to get them to work this out he is falling for her its so clear. with all that was said, and done last night it shows he still cares same with this moring. I just need to keep on it same with the other's

"Hey Zack we need to talk man." I said. "What is it?" he said. "We need to get them together you saw all the shit right, and them before we left to get on here?" I said "Yea I did, and we shouldn't mess with this." "I'm in" someone said I was looking around when CC tapped my shoulder from behind. "Good to know its going to take a lot of help with how stubborn they both are." "I hear you there." Sammi said from behind me where CC Jinxx herself, and Ash were sitting. "I need to talk to the other's when we get off the plane, but someone has to distract Jack. Who's up for that job?" " I am" Alan said from in front of me. "Jack still not paying attention?" "Nope he's out cold" Rian said. "Good let's string it along till everyone know's what to do just say Alan is running interference when we hit the cafe Alan you take him to starbucks while we go to the cafe and talk okay go."

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