Circles

When I woke up I wasn't laying on them anymore I was curled between Dahvie, and CC with me on CC's chest, and Dahvie cuddling me. How did I get here? I looked up and the where I was sleeping Austin was cuddling Alex I tapped CC Just in time to get to see Jayy, and Jeffree both asleep on Ash, and all the other girls were crashed out on the bed asleep on Kellin, and Brandon plus all the PTV boys all curled together on various parts of the couch it was kinda cute Vic, and Mike were leaning on each other, and Jamie, and Tony were out cold, and Alan was laying on them, but where are Danny, and Ben Probably in the tub, or somewhere stupid knowing them. I woke up CC, and Dahvie. I decided to prank a few of them well more like about 40-50 people I got no clue how we managed to fit so many people in a 4 bedroom with kitchenette I told Dahvie to wake up the girls nicely, and CC to go get the two couples, and come back while I get everything ready I won't be able to do this unless I find Danny, and Ben, and get Alex up away from everyone once the girls, and Alex were up with the couples back we quickly filed in the bathroom as quietly as we could. Where I was so correct on where the other two would be I woke them up, and told them what to do they were in soon as I said prank I don't know why CC had water balloons, or why Dahvie had baby powder for antiquing, or why Sammi, and Juliet had silly string, and Hayley had her sharpies, but I liked where this was going I told everyone I get Jack, Ash, and Jake for paybacks of last night they all agreed, and went out I told Andy to wait for my signal to scream. I thought to myself either this will go off without a hitch, or gonna turn utter chaos I hope it goes well, and no one finds out it was me who started this whole thing.

I walked over to Jack after taking a Sharpie from Hayley, and started to draw on him hes so not gonna be happy with the mustache, and dick on his forehead, I moved to Jake, and gave him a pink mustache an goatee then moved to Ash, and started to aimlessly draw by this time I saw Vic waking up, and decided now, or never I turned to Andy, and mouthed now Andy, Danny, Ben, and myself screamed like the beginning of Perfect Weapon. Everyone woke up, and everyone started going nuts Andy, Ben, CC, Danny, and Jinxx were whipping out water balloons while Sammi, and Juliet were running around with the silly string, Dahvie was running around spraying the baby powder, Hayley, Skye, Phoenix were passing the balloons to the guys I had no clue where Mercedes went to till I was her run past me with Brandon chasing her. I looked down when someone hit my leg it was Jack, and Alex wrestling the next thing I knew I was getting tackled by Jayy yelling "bitch you put this together didn't you" I just looked at him like a deer caught in head light then nodded after I did I thought shit worst thing I could have done he started to tickle me as he yelled out "SHAY DID THIS SHE STARTED IT" next thing knew I had brandon on me too damn it "guys let let me BREATHE" Alex pulled me up as Austin came over, and picked me up as he walked out of the room toward the pool I looked down, and started yelling " NO NO NO AUSTIN PUT ME DOWN AND NOT IN THE POOL" I turned, and saw Jack with a giant smirk following all I can think is oh fuck either way I am going in the pool no way out of it I need help so I yelled for CC not even two seconds later CC comes running down the hall towards us Jack looked back as he did he yelled to Austin "CC is coming run" Austin took off and ran through the doors for the pool with Jack not far behind he ran in just in time as Austin is holding me over the pool I saw CC start to run faster, and go to grab me from Austin. As he side stepped, and moved enough for CC to go right into the pool I couldn't help, but laugh out of no where I saw Ash running at it as I started kicking at Austin trying to get down just then Ash reached us tackling me, and Austin into the pool I guess he figured it out that I drew on him as a few other came in laughing at the sight as Alex walked up to Jack soon as I came up he pushed Jack in, but Jack was quick enough to drag Alex in with him. I just started dying of laughter as Austin was holding me up cause it was just taller than me the water. All six of us got out of the water soon as we all dried off, and went back to our own rooms to change. I was in the room I looked down at my stomach seeing I had writing on it I must have done this when I was drunk I normally do this so I remember what happened it say "you danced with austin to make Jack jealous it worked you and Jack kissed, danced and he wants to believe you but can't trust cause of his past have patients. It all makes sense why he wants to, but can't believe me Holly wow even when they are done she's still an issue wait I danced with Jack, and we kissed makes me wonder did I write on him?, or something I hope I didn't do anything I will regret cause of the hand prints on my hips, and the hickies on my neck omg did Jack, and I!!! I have to ask Alex!!! No we couldn't have there was too many people plus I would have wrote it on me. I decided I better get a roll on and get ready got my clothes out polyvore.com/going_home/set?id=105013027
once I was changed I went down to the lobby to wait for everyone.

Jacks P.O.V.
I looked in the mirror kinda pissed about what Shaden did to me like fuck I gotta get this off before we go the the airport I looked at my neck seeing a faint kiss line of lipstick on my neck, and some writing I took out my glasses, and put them on seeing what was written it said Read your left arm in Shay's writing I took off my shirt, and saw what she had meant I barely remember anything after she left the bathroom when Jake, her, and I were stuck in there. Anyways my arms said "I am sorry Jack, but when you see this tomorrow you will be on the plane, or changing to leave I may not be here when you read this. I hope you remember tonight, and the fun we had kissing, and dancing despite all the shit that happened in the last few days I am going to miss you please don't forget that I am your friend, and maybe more if you ever choose to believe me. Its 1:30am we are in a closet, and actually talking so please think I know you weren't drunk earlier when I told you everything if you were ask Jake today he will tell you what I had said because I know he is still one of the most sober ~forever and always your friend Shay I hope you will always be there for me like I am for you never forget that Jacky. <3

Fuck I kissed her last night, but why what did she do that made me want to I was so mad with her, but I still like her I just can't chance getting hurt again after what's happened in the past with Jasey, and Holly I guess I will have to pretend to hate her for now on its safer to hate her then to love her, and lose her. I know that for a fact from experience. I heard a knock at the door probably Lex "Come on in" I called sure enough I was right Hey man what's all that writing on you? he asked me "Shay wrote on me last night what happened? I know I kissed her, and we danced from what she wrote, but what really happened?" you don't remember do you? he questioned "not at all" so after your dick move you stayed in the bathtub drinkin till Jayy had to pee, and kicked you out, and Shay had her best dance song come on at that point pulling me, Austin, and some of the girls on to the bed, and she was dancing with Austin she was trying to make you jealous, but don't blame her she was extremely hammered man. he stated "yea I don't care what happened after that?."I urged him to continue. Well she was dancing really great like I think Alan actually has a video same with Justin, and a few others we'll show you later, but Alan got everything after too with you guys up until you disappeared, but looks like she explained that on your arm, and well either you or her some how dialed me on her phone and I heard the whole conversation about her, and you Jack I've never heard you like that man you really like her huh? he said laughing, and then continued. "But I know when the song just was ending she jumped down started talking to you she went to leave, and you grabbed her waist roughly might I add, and started to dance with her you said something then started kissing her neck I looked to see if she was okay she nodded about 10 mins later I was looking for you, and couldn't find you Ash said you guys were off fucking, but about another 15 mins later she came out of the closet ran over to me I asked her if she was okay she was, but didn't want to talk about it, so I left her alone, and then not long after you came out told me what happened in the closet. I cut him off asking "What did we do in there?" Looks like she wants you to remember, but you told me you pinned her against the wall, and kissed her, and then she wrote on you I took a pic case it came off, but it didn't, and your conversation was like wow."he said "send it to me now Lex." I demanded.

alright so that explains everything now especially the lipstick mark on my neck how much did we actually do past that?, and how much does she remember tho "Hey Lex how much does she remember?" "how am I supposed to know talk to, her and find out later I am going downstairs you get ready we got to go in an hour." "Kay see you down there soon." with that Alex left I can't believe I did that to her I pulled out my phone to see Alex's text of our conversation, but I need to text Shay see if shes alright I have to text her.

Jack: Hey Shay I didn't hurt you in the closet last night did I?
I got no reply for about ten mins so I text her again
Jack: Shaden please answer this one I need to know I didn't want to hurt you!
Shaden: Jack the only harm done besides my hips being sore from when you were gripping me, and the hickies on my neck from you last night when we were dancing I am fine Physically, if you wanna know emotionally then take a wild guess, but you're going to have to talk to me in person to find out the other two anyways I am down stairs with Alex trying to eat something for once so come and find me don't hide behind your phone.

Wait eat for once yea I haven't even seen her eat at all in the 2 days besides the veggies N' dip thing I have been around her what is with that?
and humm Okay she's still mad at me, and was I that rough I have to see that video she had to have turned me on a lot, or gotten me really jealous to hold her that tight, and go somewhere private I can't help, but stare at my arm I am really going to miss her I want to believe what she said last night, but I don't think I can plus after we say good-bye today she will never see me again its for her own good soon as she gets her contract, and moves to L.A. she'll be around BVB, and Jake will get her yes I know I didn't even have my music on at that time she likes us both, but shes better with him hes not so wild he wants to settle down she almost settled down she knows how to love look at me I sound like a fuckin chick a month an a week of knowing her, and she's got me all messed up maybe her ex is right I should stay away from her. I'm Jack Fucking Bassam Barakat I don't do love I don't date look what happens when ever I do I am a one night stand kind of guy I've been that way for years why should that change she's just a woman I finished my hair, and changed polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=105024227 Guess I should listen to the conversation now

~Conversation~

It was silent for a little then I heard myself
"you don't know how bad I want to believe you, but I just can't not after Holly I like you, and I want you right now so bad." I slurred it became silent again before I heard Shay speak up and say "Jack we can't be like this its not good you'll just forget all this in the morning and hate me again I don't want it to be that way, but it will, but I hope you will remember in the morning, but there is one thing I am going to do to make sure you do know what happened right here, and now." "What is that?" I questioned in a hushed tone it was quiet for a short bit of time before I heard myself moan lowly after a little I heard Shay gasp then She moaned while later it was silent again for a few minutes "Shay you honestly don't know how beautiful you are I saw when we were up stairs on the roof you don't have to be ashamed you have scars everyone does. You are still beautiful its a painful, and devastatingly beautiful the kind you don't want. Many of us think you are fuckin beyond gorgeous, but you being so insecure and the fact you cut, starve, and whatever else you may do to yourself its not worth it trust me you need to put it behind you. You are killing me its been only like a month an a week that I've known you, but you've got me so freaking messed up over this I don't know what to believe, but I want to believe it its just who is right I'm not sure, and I like you a lot Shay you don't even understand yea I was jealous about you having to kiss everyone else, and then dancing with Austin like that who wouldn't get jealous seeing you move like that." I said she interrupted me. "Umm does this have a point." she said a little impatient. "Yes there is I was meaning that you are beautiful in the worst way I wish you could see it, and that I want you with me, but you are so damn scared, and that you are trouble in the best way." I said after a few seconds of silence I "Now what were you saying Shay" I said smoothly

"This give me your left arm after I do this." She said I guess this is when she wrote on me
then it ended about a minute later when I heard the door open.

I put my wet clothes in a plastic bag leaving the room I went down to the lobby, and everyone I mean everyone was there waiting. I looked for Shay, and saw we had on the same shirt from my line it made me laugh a bit even tho she cut her's so it said J.A. I guess I deserve it huh?

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