My Only One (Jalex)

Alex's POV:

After Jack and I's moment in the forest, things had been starting to look up. Jack seemed to be a lot happier, although he did have his moments of sadness. I tried my best during these times to help him through it all but it wasn't always easy. May had been constantly hounding him with calls about wanting to see him and discuss things. He'd always put her off, saying that he was busy or he wasn't ready to speak about things concerning his mom. She backed off slightly after Jack threw his phone at me, telling me to speak to her because he'd had enough. I told her to back off and, thankfully, she did but both Jack and I knew that we couldn't hold her away forever.

Three weeks after the funeral, Jack and I were lying on the sofa, our legs tangled together, lazy kisses being swapped between the two of us. Things were starting to get a bit heated but the moment wasn't right. Jack wasn't feeling brilliant today and even though something like this would probably make him feel a lot better, I wasn't going to do something when the moment didn't feel right. Don't get me wrong, it's been weeks since we'd done anything and I was getting more and more eager to do something with him but my right hand in the shower will be just fine whilst he's still grieving.
"Jack, baby. Not now. It's not right, the moment isn't right."
"Yeah, I know...It's just, I've not gotten off in weeks and, you know, hormones."
"Not heard of a shower and your hand?"
"Well, yeah, but why would I need to if I've got you?"
He did have a point and I immediately felt guilty for stopped what we were heading towards.
"I'm sorry."
"What for, Lex?"
Jack sat his self up and pulled me into his chest, hugging me tight.
"For stopping. It was selfish."
"Don't be silly, Lex. You were right. The moment wasn't right anyway."
I only hummed in response and snuggled further into Jack's body, relishing in the warmth he gave off, breathing in his addicting scent. His warmth and smell soon sent me off to sleep.

I was awoken by Jack's phone ringing, more than likely being May again. She rings once every few days now, mainly just to check on how Jack's holding up. It's nice to know that she's looking out for her little brother but sometimes she can get very clingy.
"Hey, May."
I could hear her voice through Jack's phone but it wasn't clear enough to make out what she was saying. She seemed to ramble on forever, not once stopping to let Jack talk. I could see him getting increasingly annoyed, the frustration evident on his face.
"May! Shut the fuck up and let me speak!"
The line suddenly went silent, May obviously not being used to Jack snapping at her.
"Just..." Jack looked over at me, our eyes locking. I knew what he was asking so I nodded. "Come over to Alex's. We'll discuss it here."
Jack gave her my address and hung up, signing. There was a moment of silence before he turned and looked at me.
"It is okay, isn't it? I mean, for her to come over?"
"Of course, Jay. That's why I nodded. I knew what you were thinking of."
"That's what I love about you, about us."
Jack locked his lips with mine, his tongue entering my mouth soon after. Jack pulled away after a few minutes, his lips red and slightly puffy.
"What was that for?"
"I just wanted to kiss the man I love. Is there something wrong with that?"
"Of course not. I love kissing the man I love almost as much as I love him."
Jack blushed, dipping his head to try and hide it. That's the thing about Jack: he'll go from this confident person to a shy and timid one in a split second. It fascinates me how he does that but I think it's cute. I placed two fingers under his chin and brought his face up so it was level with mine. I kissed him again, slowly and passionately. I pulled away and locked eyes with him.
"I love you so fucking much, Jack. I don't ever want to lose you."
"I love you too, Lex, and don't worry. You're never going to lose me."
We stayed in our position a little while longer, Jack lying on top of me with out foreheads pressed together. The moment was perfect but it was short lived thanks to May turning up at my door step.

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"We have to report him to the police, Jack! He killed Mom!"
"I know he did, May, but no prison sentence will make him feel worse than how he's feeling now. He's still in the house, I've seen him. He looks a mess. He's feeling shitty. Let him live in the house that he pretty much ended her life. Let him live with the guilt."
"He can live with the guilt in a fucking prison cell, Jack!"
"No!"
"Why are you so hell-bent on not sending him to prison, Jack? You hated his guts and now you're sticking up for him!"
"Don't you see, May? He's going to feel guilty no matter where he is, prison cell or not! But, if he does go to prison, you'll just go back to James, to a home. I won't. I'll have no legal guardians left. I'll be put into care out of the state, away from my home, away from Alex!"
"So that's what it's all about, huh? You being your usual selfish self. You're only thinking about yourself! It would only be a for a few months anyway: you're nearly 18!"
"Me? Selfish? You're being selfish here. You'd rather make your little brother unhappy by taking him away from the man he loves than let him be happy! Our father hasn't spoken to me in months, May! He didn't even say a word to me when I got the rest of my stuff. I even physically gave him my fucking key and he didn't say a word. He's not likely going to come after me! Put yourself in my situation, May. How would you feel if I took you away from James?"
"The difference is, Jack, James isn't the same sex as me!"
"So this is what this is all about! I knew you never accepted my sexuality. Get the fuck out of my sight and don't you dare think about calling the cops because I will just go and tell James about that little fling you had with that guy a few months ago behind his back. What was his name? Patrick? Ahh, yes, that's it. You thought you were being sneaky and no one knew. I knew, May and what you did to Jame s was pathetic."
May huffed and stormed out the door, slamming it behind her. That's when Jack collapsed on the living room floor in floods of tears.

I'd excused myself from the room, thinking that Jack and May needed some space but now I regretted it. Seeing Jack crumble on the floor was a horrible thing to see. I don't think he'd ever cried like that in his life. I literally ran over to him and scooped him up in my arms. I carried him to our bedroom and laid him down on the bed, my crawling onto the bed next to him. He held onto my shirt like his life depended on it. His sobs echoed around the room, the sound kind of hurting my ears a little but I didn't care. He was more important to me right now.
"Jay? What's been on your mind? I can tell something's been troubling you for a while."
Jack didn't answer me, he just continued to sob into my chest. I decided to let him, knowing that it would probably be the best thing for him to get it all out.

Once he'd calmed down he started to speak, his words still slightly shaky.
"I knew that if we reported him to the cops they'd take me away into care. They'd take me away from you and I never want to be away from you. Lex, you're my everything. I love you so much and it would kill me if I was taken away from you."
"I'd thought about that too, Jay. I don't ever want to be away from you either. However, that being said, if May does go against your wishes and does rat him out and you get placed into care until you're eighteen, we'll work through it. We'll talk everyday and we'll skype and I can try and visit you whenever possible. It also goes without saying that you'd just come back here afterwards, if you want to, that is."
"Of course I'd want to. Lex, I see this as my home now. Actually, no. You're my home. We could be living in a cardboard box and I'd still feel at home with you. Thank you, though."
"It's okay. Anyway, even if you they do try and take you away, we'll fight against it. You're eighteen in a matter on months so there really wouldn't be much point."
"That's all well and good but what about your job?"
"I'd quit and apply for other jobs in schools around, I won't let something as stupid as that stop us. There's also Rian we could turn to. He's trustworthy, right?"
"Well, yeah, but it'd mean that we'd have to tell him about us."
"If we have to, then so be it. One day, I want the entire world to know how great you are, Jay, and I want them to know that you're mine. Forever."
"Forever's a long time, Lex."
"Yeah, but it's not long enough for us."
"You're so cheesy."
"You love it though."
"I suppose so."

We laid in silence for a little while longer, Jack still lying against my chest. I thought about what he'd said.
"you're my everything."
"I never want to be away from you."
"You're my home."
It made me insanely happy that he felt that way about me, about us. It also made me realise how much I loved him. I'd had a boyfriend before and we'd both loved each other but I'd never loved anyone as much as I love Jack. He completed me. He's the better half of me, the only half I need. I felt happy, more than happy, whenever I was around him. I know that we were breaking so many laws with our relationship but whenever I was around him, all of the worries about being found out vanished. I'd never really been truly happy until I met him and I was incredibly thankful for him coming into my life. I had a lot to thank Jack for but whatever I do will never be good enough. In that moment, I made a mental promise to do everything I can to make that boy happy. I'd do anything for him, with him, and I never wanted to be with anybody else.

I was brought out of my thoughts by a weight over my hips. I looked up to see Jack straddling me, a smirk on his face. Another thing that amazed me about him, his mood changes are so quick.
"What was that for?"
"You were thinking. What were you thinking about?"
"You, us, how I never want to lose you and that I'd do anything and everything in my power to make you as happy as possible."
"Really?"
"Really."
Jack leant down and crashed his lips with mine. He snaked his tongue into my mouth and started to battle against mine. I won dominance though and took control, flipping us over so I was no straddling Jack. I ground down on his crotch, making Jack moan into my mouth. I'm not going to lie, the noise turned me on a lot. My erection was now pretty much evident and my tight skinny jeans were not helping how it felt, both the friction and how restricted it was making me frustrated, in every sense of the word.
"Jack, how far are we going?"
He bit his lip, thinking through what he wanted us to do. I'd go as far as he wanted to, I don't want to push him into doing something he didn't want to.
"All the way, Lex. I want you inside me."
"Are you sure? I don't want to pressure you or anything."
"Yes, I'm sure."
Jack reached up with his hand and brought my head down to his by his hand on the back of my neck, his fingers playing with the little strands of hair on the back of my neck, pulling them slightly. I never told him that hair pulling is my thing but I'm pretty sure he'd figured it out from the moans that were coming from me.
"Take my virginity, Lex."
"You'll be taking mine too, Jay. We've already discussed this remember?"

Notes

Hey, I'm pretty sure you can see where this is going.

Second update coming later on :)

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