~Alex's POV~

I woke up in someone's bed, with the worst head ache I think I've ever experienced. I was probably in Vic's house, but I wasn't entirely sure. It was Vic's party last night, wasn't it? It all just seemed like a big blur. It seemed strange though, the man I loved wasn't lying in bed next to me, like normal.

I sat up and groaned, holding my hand up to my head as the sudden movement worsened the pain. I got out of the bed and slowly walked downstairs, to see if I could find some people and something that could cure what I presume was a hangover.

The place was actually cleaner than I thought it would be, people must have tidied up already. I made my way into the kitchen, following the smell of bacon that was drifting through the house.

"Hey." I groaned, my voice croaky.

"Oh, hey Alex. You look like shit." Vic said, looking concerned. He looked chirpy, and then I realised that Jenna was sitting at the breakfast bar, watching him cook. He must of had a fun time last night.

"I feel like shit. Have you got anything to make me feel better?" I said, taking a seat next to Jenna and slumping down onto the table.

"Yeah, hang on." He looked in the cupboards and put the kettle on. After a few minutes, he found what he was looking for and then made me a coffee. "Here you go, aspirin and coffee. Best hangover cure." He smiled as I took the aspirin and a big gulp of coffee, not caring how much it burnt my throat.

"Where's Jack?" I asked. I really wanted to see him so we could cuddle and watch movies.

Vic looked at Jenna with a concerned look, and then started to speak. "Alex, do you remember what happened last night?"

What does that mean? The only part I can remember was the amazing sex I had with Jack.

"Not much, why?" I asked, lifting my head from the table.

"You, um, y-"

"YOU SON OF A BITCH!" A loud voice shouted as I was pushed off of my chair, my coffee spilling all over my chest, burning like hell. I screamed out in pain, and looked up to see Rian above me. Just then, his fist connected with my nose, and I let out another howl. Suddenly, Zack and a man I didn't recognise pulled him away from me as I lay on the floor, holding my chest, trying to keep the tears in. I was such a wuss sometimes.

Vic was at my side immediately, putting a tissue to my nose and holding a pack of frozen peas so my chest. I winced at the sudden contact.

"Why did you do it, huh? You stupid little fuck. You've really messed up this time, Gaskarth, seriously." Rian spat, still being held back by the two men. I looked at him, confused and terrified at the same time.

"W-what?" I whimpered, my voice barely a whisper. I don't even know what I did wrong.

"Don't even pretend like you don't know. You've ruined everything Alex." Rian looked at me, disgust in his face. I think he had calmed down a little bit.

"What h-have I done?" I asked as Vic picked me up and took me over to the couch.

"You slept with Cass. You slept with my girlfriend. The person I love. And me and Jack caught you right in the middle of it."

I could feel my eyes start to water and before I knew it, tears were rolling down my cheeks as I just stared at Rian. I didn't even answer him. How could I do that? How could I do that to Jack, the man I loved. After all he's done for me, I go and do this, to him. To us. I've ruined everything.

It felt like years before I finally said something. "Did I really?" My voice came out in a strangled whisper, but it was the best I could do. I looked at Vic who was sitting by my legs, and he nodded sympathetically. This just caused more tears.

Everyone was looking at me as I cried. "Do you know where J-Jay is?" I looked around the room, people shrugging and shaking their heads.

"He left last night. I saw him go to the kitchen, he grabbed a bottle of Jack and started to head to the door. I tried to stop him, but I lost him in all the people. Sorry. We've all tried to call him, but he isn't answering." Zack said. He was still holding Rian.

"We didn't bring our cells out with us, but thanks anyway. Don't say sorry, I'm the one who messed up." I said feeling even worse with myself. Jack had wandered out onto the streets at god know what time last night, with a bottle of whiskey and no cell. He doesn't even know the area. What if he's hurt? What if he's lost?

"Too right you are." Rian muttered, giving me a death stare. I felt terrible.




It was now 5pm, and I was still at Vic's house with him, Zack, Jaime, Alan, and the other man that had held Rian back earlier. His name was Austin and he was really nice. I think I remembered seeing him with Alan last night, but I wasn't entirely sure. I now had some violent blisters on my chest from the coffee, and they hurt like hell. Vic wanted to take me to the hospital, but I refused. I didn't care how badly I was hurt, I just wanted Jack back.

I had spent most of the day crying, and I wanted to go and look for Jack desperately, but the others said I need to rest, and he needed time to think. I was really worried though, what if he had done something stupid? I would never be able to forgive myself if he was hurt. Hell, I would never be able to forgive myself for doing this.

I kept looking at the promise bracelet that Jack had gotten me for my birthday, reading the writing that was engraved on the charm. I missed him, and I can't believe what I had done.

Alex, you have really fucked up this time.

Notes

I don't really have anything to say apart from I'm really sorry and I will fix Jalex as soon as possible :(

Ellie x