~Jack's POV~

"Jack? Jack can you hear me?" I heard a deep voice as my shoulders were shaken roughly. My head was spinning, and I felt weird. I felt numb.

"Huh?" I asked, trying to see who was shaking me.

"It's Zack. Come on, I'm taking you back to mine." He put one hand behind my shoulders, and the other under my legs, picking me up bridal style.

"Put me down, I can walk fine." I said plainly. I wasn't in the mood for any of this. I stumbled and nearly face planted the floor, but after a few steps my legs were moving normally. "Where am I?" I asked as I took in the unfamiliar surroundings.

"You're at the southern end of Thames Street." Zack explained. I had been here tonnes of times before, but it was too dark to be able to tell where I was just by looking at the buildings. "Dude, where have you been? We've been trying to call you, and we've even been searching."

"I don't know! I've just been walking. What time is it?" It was pretty dark, and the streets were deserted, so I'm guessing it was early morning.

"3am." He replied simply.

"Why are you even looking for me? I'm sure you could be doing better things than wasting your time on me, especially at this time. I'm fine anyway." The tone of my voice made me sound like I was pissed off at him, which I regretted. He was just trying to help.

"We care about you." He smiled, reassuring me. "And I'm pretty sure you're not fine, you were passed out in the gutter. I had just given up looking for you and was on my way home. Jack, we've all been so worried. Ale-"

That was when I cut him off. "Don't even finish saying his name." I spat on the floor as I kept walking, keeping my eyes in the paving stones.

"He's really sorry, Jack. He's barely speaking to us, and he's been crying for hours. He's hurt, too."

"What do you mean he's hurt?" I asked, probably sounding too concerned. I was meant to hate Alex after what he did to me, so why am I worried about him?

"Rian saw Alex yesterday morning, and he was pretty mad. We managed to pull him away after the first hit, but when Rian pushed Alex to the floor, he spilt coffee all over his chest. He's burnt himself pretty bad, and we keep saying that we should take him to the hospital, but he just keeps whispering something like "No, I just want Jay". Vic's looking after him now."

Hearing those words made my heart break even more. He's hurt, he wants me, but I couldn't exactly go back. He broke my heart. He can learn to live without me. He did for almost 18 years before he met me, so he can do it again. I felt horrible thinking these things, but he deserved it.

"Oh." Was all I said, and we walked in silence, until it was broken by Zack a few minutes later.

"You still love him."

"Of course I fucking do! Well done for noticing." I said sarcastically. Zack looked like a hurt puppy when I let those words slip, and like many other words I've said recently, I instantly regretted saying them. "Sorry, I didn't mean to snap." I looked up at him. "It's just, I do still love him, I don't think there's anything that could stop me from loving him. But he broke my heart. I can't just go running back to him when he needs me. He needs to learn to stop thinking with his dick and then we wouldn't be in this situation." I sighed.

"Just give it some time. Alex obviously regrets what he's done, but maybe just take some time away from each other, get your heads straight."

I mentally winced as his name was spoken.

"Yeah, thanks Zack." I nodded in his direction, giving him a fist bump.

"No worries man, you're still drunk aren't you?" He laughed, right as I walked into a lamppost, falling back on my ass.

"I think so." I giggled, trying to pull myself up but failing miserably.

"Come on, let's get you back to my house. You can crash for a few nights." He offered, picking me up and taking me back to his house.

Notes

Hey, so I'm really sorry that this is quite short but yeah, at least you know what Jack's thinking.

because I've broken up Jalex and I'm really sorry about it, I've found this YouTube clips that you could check out if you want to, they make me laugh haha :D

http://youtu.be/fBG4pOyrXys - All Time Low on Silent Library (I FOUND A JALEX MOMENT AT 10:29)

http://youtu.be/rMggtWqBWv8 - Alex Gaskarth "Where's My Laundry?"

yeah I hope they might distract you from the sadness of the Jalex breakup.

Ellie x