*Alex POV*

I was sat at the kitchen table sipping my coffee, just happily minding my own business, and Rian was sat opposite me staring into space. Then suddenly, Jack and Robbie walked into the kitchen, causing Rian to spring to life and scare the living shit out of everyone.

“Hey, guess who got some tongue action last night?” He blurted out like he suddenly couldn't hold it in any longer.

Why the fuck is he so excited about it anyway?

I frowned at him and Rob arched an eyebrow at him questioningly. Jack just seemed to not hear anything, because his expression remained blank.

“Well, seeing as you’re so enthusiastic, I'm assuming it's Jack and Alex,” Robbie joked casually.

My eyes flickered in Jack's direction knowingly. His eyes were fixed on the floor, but I saw his mouth twitch into what looked like an involuntary smile, which told me that he was in fact listening. I couldn't help but smirk to myself.

Rob is so blissfully unaware of how right he is...

“Wrong,” Rian stated impatiently, shaking his head.

‘No... Not wrong,’ I disagreed silently inside my head.

“I know... I was joking,” Rob yawned. "I give up guessing."

Rian looked at me for encouragement, for some reason. He looked like he was about to explode from desperation to blurt out what I told him. I rolled my eyes at him wordlessly, which he took as “go ahead and reveal the details of my personal encounters”.

“Alex and Lisa!” He exclaimed, making me jump again. “Isn’t that great?”

"You know, Rian, your excitement about this whole thing is really starting to freak me out," I muttered.

“I’m just happy for you! I know how much you like her and you haven’t had a girlfriend since…” Rian trailed off, remembering that I don’t like people mentioning Dem.

It stills hurts to hear her name, even after three years. She didn’t just break my heart; she broke me.

“I know. But still… Will you calm down? You’re annoying me,” I told Rian flatly.

He grinned at me sheepishly.

"That’s pretty cool though. How did it happen?" Robbie asked with interest.

I almost didn't hear him though, because I was temporarily distracted by Jack's lack of reaction to what Rian had just blurted out. He didn't even glance at me; his gaze just stayed fixed on his feet.

I absent-mindedly looked away from Jack to focus on Rob again, but before I could even open my mouth to reply, Rian was rambling on and reciting everything that I had told him.

“They ran into each other last night… And they were talking for ages, and well... One thing led to another…” This was never the way I planned; not my intention…

When I ran into Lisa our little chat quickly led to flirting which rapidly led to a make-out session. She came onto me first and there was no way in hell I was gonna say no... I was already freaking out about everything that had happened between me and Jack; I needed to be calmed down and she has that effect on me.

Kissing her made me feel like everything inside me was back to normal. I kissed a girl and I liked it. Whereas, when I had kissed Frank I had just confused myself… It felt so wrong, it felt so right.

“So, did you fuck?” Robbie asked bluntly and typically, as he sat down on the chair next to Rian.

“You like asking people that, don’t you?” I frowned at him.

“Well, you know me… I like to know the gossip,” Rob smirked.

“Uh, the only 'gossip' you ever want to know is about who I’ve fucked,” I scoffed, before adding, "You're like an obsessive fangirl!"

"Yeah, God, I know," Rob replied sarcastically. "And I’ll take that as a yes seeing as you completely avoided the question,” he added, winking at me.

I rolled my eyes and looked away slyly, avoiding the question once again.

I suddenly felt three pairs of eyes staring at me suspiciously, but I avoided Rob and Rian’s, only briefly meeting Jack’s gaze… I felt like his eyes were analyzing my mind and hearing the truth I wasn’t going to admit, so I looked away hastily.

The truth is me and Lisa didn’t do anything more than kiss. However, if the guys think we did then I don’t see the problem with letting them believe that… Ain’t no big deal, it’s innocent... They know as well as I do that it’s been too long since I’ve got laid, so I’m sure they’ll feel relieved for me. And it’ll also make them realize there’s nothing between me and Jack… You’re my experimental game… I know their suspicions reached a whole new level last night.

Bob took my silence to mean a definite yes.

“I knew it! You’re a slut, Alex,” he snorted, making Rian laugh.

Zack came into the room just in time to hear Rob’s comment and me saying defensively “I am not.”

I’m hardly a slut though… Do I go around fucking everything that moves? No. I’m constantly sex-deprived, actually.

“What’s going on?” Zack asked, walking over so he was stood next to Jack, who had not yet moved or spoken once.

“Alex had sex with Lisa last night,” Robbie casually informed Zackwithout hesitating.

“Oh… Nice,” Zack grinned, looking rather impressed.

“You’re being very quiet, Jack... That's weird," Rian suddenly acknowledged, voicing what I was secretly thinking. "I would have thought you’d be happy to know Alex will no longer be taking his sexual frustration out on you!”

I glared at Rian. Everyone else glared at Jack.

“I don't recall Alex ever taking his sexual frustration out on me," Jack responded nonchalantly.

Well, true, I've never tried to have sex with him or anything like that... But I guess Rian was referring to the way I mess with Jack onstage (and offstage... But no one knows about that.).

I didn't consider explaining that most things I do to Jack are not caused by my sexual frustration... It's my urges. (God help Jack if the two ever strongly combine!)

I finally turned to face Jack and my eyes instantly locked with his.

"But yes, I agree, Alex you are a slut,” he added with a shrug, then he averted his eyes to look out the window.

“Well, let's not jump to conclusions guys... I mean, was it a one-night stand thing, or are you together now?” Zack asked curiously.

“Uh... We didn't really discuss it,” I replied uninformatively.

"I bet you didn't," Rob smirked to himself.

“But do you want to get together properly?” Rian questioned, drowning Robbie's comment out.

I wish they would all stop questioning me about my love life… I don’t know for definite what I want yet. My head gets so confused.

“I don't know… I like her... But we’ll see," I mumbled slowly.

“I think you should go for it,” Rian advised enthusiastically.

“And I think you should stay out of it,” I retorted bluntly. “Now, if you’re all quite finished interrogating me, I’m going to go and have a cigarette.”

I quickly downed my coffee and got up from the kitchen table.

“I’ll come,” Jack spoke suddenly, following me as I walked out of the tour bus door absent-mindedly.

I didn't want Jack to come with me, because I couldn't be bothered to answer many more questions about me and Lisa, but I didn't say anything because I didn’t want to offend him by saying he couldn’t come with me. And secretly, part of me was happy to have a chance to be alone with him again.

Once we were outside, we wasted no time in polluting the fresh air with smoke. Jack lit up his cigarette casually and handed me his lighter, like he already knew I would have left mine inside somewhere, which I did... And pretty much always do.

I lit up my own cigarette and took a long drag.

“So, who’s the better kisser? Me or Lisa?” Jack asked randomly, after we had both exhaled the smoke slowly.

I half-rolled my eyes.

Here we go again...

“You’re both pretty good,” I shrugged, refusing to name a 'winner'.

It wasn't the truth; there’s no doubt in my mind that Jack is the better kisser… Soft skin, red lips, so kissable… His lips are like a drug to me, just like him… Hard to resist, so touchable… But I don't want him to know that I would rather kiss him than Lisa... That’s just weird.

“Hmm. Is she good in bed?” Jack questioned flatly.

He never usually wants to know the answer to personal questions like this… It’s not what I’m used to. Why is he so interested?

“Uh... Yeah,” I lied hesitantly, taking another drag on my cigarette.

Jack nodded slowly, looking away. He looked like he wanted to say something or ask more questions, but he didn’t speak. I was glad that it was silent for once.

But after a moment's silence, I decided to get even and ask him some personal questions in return.

“So, how’s that inappropriate crush you have on your friend working out?”

I hadn't forgotten that Jack told me he's fallen for someone, even if he tried to disguise it as "talking shit".

“What?” Jack replied questioningly, looking blank.

I raised my eyebrows wordlessly.

“Oh," he murmured in sudden realization. "Don't start that again."

I exhaled loudly, frustrated.

"But I can see it's bothering you more each day... Just let me help," I offered caringly.

It's true; Jack has been acting different recently... He's a lot quieter than he usually is. And he hasn't slept properly for the last few nights...

Jack shrugged and shook his head silently.

"Oh, come on... Who is it?" I persisted annoyingly.

“You must have some idea who it is...” He said slowly.

...Must I?

“Uh… Well, I was thinking it might be one of your friends back in Baltimore… Or something,” I replied hesitantly, feeling stupid, because I actually didn’t have any ideas, like I apparently should.

Jack didn’t confirm my suspicions, he ignored them completely.

“Well, how do you think this person, who I’ve been friends with for several years and who definitely isn’t interested in me in the same way, would react to me telling them I have feelings for them?” He asked curiously, staring at me intently.

There was brief, thoughtful silence between us, and then I decided to question Jack’s apparent assumption.

“Well, how can you be so sure they don’t feel the same way?”

“Because they like someone else,” he answered bitterly.

I stared at him closely as he took an extremely long drag on his cigarette.

“You should tell them anyway, just so they have the option… You never know… They might secretly like you too,” I advised.

He looked thoughtful as he processed my advice, but then he suddenly started shaking his head.

“Trust me, this person is not the kind of person to deny themselves what they want... If they wanted me too, they would have had me by now,” he retorted matter-of-factly.

Who the fuck is this person?

“Well, maybe they’ve been denying what they want because they are scared of rejection, like you,” I suggested reasonably.

He paused, before stating with a defeatist sigh; “they’re not gay.”

So, it is a guy...

“And you are?” I questioned, even though the answer was staring me right in the face... I just wanted to hear him admit it to me.

I continued to stare at him intently, but he suddenly turned away to look in the opposite direction shyly. Then he sighed again extensively and shrugged.

"I’m bi," he admitted after a short pause.

Well, there's a fact I never knew about my best friend... I really had no idea he was anything but straight. He’s never been with a guy, as far as I know…

I was quiet for a moment while I processed all the information I knew about the situation…

Jack’s a guy who's been his friend for several years, but the guy likes someone else... a girl, presumably, seeing as Jack’s sure he's not gay. And this dude also gets what he wants a lot apparently...

He sounded familiar yet unrecognizable at the same time.

“Okay, you’re killing me here… Just tell me who he is,” I pleaded impatiently.

Jack was silent for a while, seemingly considering the pros and cons of spilling his secret to me.

Is it really that hard to tell me? I'm supposed to be his best friend... Doesn't he trust me?

“Fine,” he eventually sighed. “But I don't want this to affect us or anything..." He sounded worried.

Why would it affect us?

“Uh... It won't. I won't even tell anyone," I promised hastily.

He took a deep breath and stared at his feet as he slowly replied.

“Okay... Uh... The person I like is-"

“-Alex!”

Who the fuck shouted my name?

I turned around sharply to see who had rudely interrupted Frank's moment of truth.

It was Lisa.

Oh for fuck sake!

I sighed and forced a smile as she walked towards me. She beamed back at me brightly.

I turned quickly to look at Jack apologetically, but he was already backing away.

“Well, I’ll leave you two alone…” He said awkwardly, before quickly tossing his cigarette on the ground and turning to re-enter the tour bus.

Shit. He was going to tell me who it was then! Lisa has the worst timing in the world.

By the time I looked away from the door which Jack had just closed and turned back around, Lisa was stood right in front of me, her face only inches from mine.

“Whoa… Hey,” I greeted, tossing my own cigarette on the floor.

“Hey yourself,” she smiled, leaning forward and pecking me on the lips.

I kissed her back... Too good to deny it. But I was slightly taken by surprise by her forwardness.

“What’s up?” I asked her casually, when we broke apart.

“I haven’t stopped thinking about our kiss last night,” she told me.

“Oh yeah, me either,” I told her distractedly.

I was suddenly feeling totally disconnected from the conversation because my thoughts were too occupied with Jack. I wished so bad that Lisa hadn’t interrupted what he was about to say.

“I really like you, Alex," she blushed sweetly.

"I like you too," I replied automatically, but it didn't sound very convincing and I didn't care.

I noticed she was looking towards the tour bus door hopefully.

“I’d ask you inside, but you’d just be bombarded with questions and stuff about last night,” I informed her.

“Oh right... So you told them about me then?” She asked brightly.

I wonder what she’d say if she knew that I had basically told them I’d fucked her…

“Yeah, well, they don’t know the meaning of privacy…” I said, keeping my thoughts to myself and rolling my eyes.

“I know what you mean.”

“So what are you doing today?” I asked conversationally, wondering why she was here.

“Well, I was just on my way to watch Pierce The Veil... Wanna come?” She invited.

“Oh, yeah… Okay,” I nodded with a shrug.

It’s not like I have any other plans.

My thoughts of Jack faded to the back of my mind as I walked off with Lisa to see one of my favorite bands. She is the perfect distraction from a secret addiction.

Notes

im so sorry my parents took my lap top! right now they are watching TV so i snook it not for long though sorry!!! ill update at school on like Wednesday..
Song title: Katy Perry