*Jack POV*

Holy mother of God.

I swear Alex gets off teasing me in front of everyone till I’m as sexually frustrated as I possibly can be! Tonight he was ALL over me, treating me like his fucking personal plaything.

…Is it fucked up that I loved every minute of it?If you wanna play it like a game, then come on, come on, let’s play!

Every time he kisses or touches me onstage it’s like my brain automatically switches to fantasy daydream mode, causing me to forget everything, including where I am. I always get so into it. Honestly, I can’t get enough of him, and I love that he can’t seem to get enough of me right now either.

The show is over now, just like the kiss. But the voice inside me that is screaming for more is still ringing in my head. It makes no sense at all...

There was a moment's silence as Alex and I were making our way back to the tour bus together, through the dark fields, after the show. The rest of the guys were quite far ahead, because they walk impatiently fast compared to us.

I looked sideways at Alex naturally, but I did a double take when I saw he was staring ahead with squinted eyes and wearing a confused frown.

“What’s up with you?” I asked him, raising my eyebrows.

“I think I know him,” he replied thoughtfully.

I continued to look at him questioningly, but he didn’t explain, so I followed his staring eyes to find that they were fixed on a man with really long, Light brown hair. Through the darkness, I could only just make out he was wearing skinny blue jeans and a black shirt.

As we got nearer to the man stood by himself outside a tour bus the sound of him randomly singing ‘Wannabe’ by the Spice Girls filled my ears. Naturally, I assumed he was a bit mental.

I narrowed my eyes for a better look at the guy and realized that I actually recognized him too.

“Oh yeah, so do I,” I muttered to Alex.

Soon enough, we were stood a few meters away from the familiar-looking man. As we got nearer to him he looked up and saw us glaring at him like stalker sand his singing started to fade, until it eventually stopped altogether.

“If you wanna be my love…uh…”

It was in the same moment that Alex shouted “Shaun!” startling both me and the guy that I finally realized who he was.

The lead singer of Just Another Issue

Seeing him was like a blast from the past… The last time I saw him was when All Time Low toured with Just Another Issue which must have been about four years ago.

Shaun grinned widely as he recognized our faces too and he came bouncing over to see us.

“Oh hey, motherfuckers! Long time, no see!” He exclaimed, throwing his arms around both of us.

Alex started rambling excitedly before I could even think of responding.

“Hey man! Yeah, shit, what’s it been… Four years?” He greeted him elatedly.

“Yeah, something insane like that," Shaun shrugged, pulling away from the hug. "You guys have done pretty fucking well for yourselves in that time, haven’t you? ” He added, sounding impressed, raising his eyebrows and smirking.

“Yeah, everything has been pretty chill,” I just about managed to reply without being drowned out by Alex. Miraculously.

“Fuck, I’m so psyched that we’re on the same bill again!” Alex interjected, slightly off-topic.

I cocked an eyebrow at Alex. I hadn't seen him this excited in a while, and honestly, it was slightly unnerving.

Shaun grinned widely.

“When do you go on stage?” He asked, causing me to frown at him.

Clearly he was not very observant, or he would have noticed that we were walking AWAY from the stage area...

“We went on at seven. We’re just heading back to our tour bus now,” I told him, nodding in the direction of our bus.

“Ah. Good show?” Shaun asked conversationally.

“Yeah, it was… intense,” Alex answered eagerly, glancing sideways at me slyly and smirking.

I notice your eyes are always glued to me…

I nodded in agreement, my eyes briefly holding Alex’s gaze, until I looked away, smiling.

“Awesome. Hey, you should come and hang out with us tomorrow before we go onstage. Both bands, you know. We need a proper catch up,” Shaun invited casually.

This offer provoked doubts in my mind, caused by the snapshot flashbacks of the days we spent on tour with Just Another Issue I was having inside my head. The thing I specifically remember about that time was that Alex developed a massive crush on their bassist, Lisa, but nothing ever happened between them because they were both in relationships at the time.

Now, I don’t know about her, but the only relationship Alex has right now is with my heart (and he doesn’t even know it… and I can’t risk letting him know yet either.I’d rather waste my life pretending than have to forget you for one whole minute.). So yeah, the idea of them “catching up” actually makes my stomach turn over and my heart stutter.

I may have hesitated, but Alex wasted no time in replying; “Fuck yeah! We'll see you tomorrow, man.”

He sounded so thrilled at the idea. There was no doubt in my mind that he remembered everything I did.

We finally waved goodbye to Shaun and continued on our short journey.

“It’ll be good to catch up with them after all these years, won’t it?” Alex asked cheerfully once Shaun was gone.

“Oh, yeah. It's been so long… I think I’ve actually forgotten their names!” I replied, aiming for a response that would confirm my thoughts that Alex had not forgotten Lisa.

“Well, that was Shaun, obviously… Man, I love that guy..." Alex rambled enthusiastically. "And uh... That Chris guy plays guitar, doesn't he? And what's her name on drums?”

“Uh... Catty? No, wait… Kathy…” I wondered aloud, but Alex wasn't really interested in the answer.

“And then there’s Lisa on bass,” he concluded proudly.

Well, I was right. He certainly remembers her...

I don’t know why it’s bothering me so much. Alex might not even still feel the same about her… It HAS been four years. And even if he does, WHY should it bother me? Me and Alex are just friends.Let’s be more than this…Alex is not my property; he’s allowed to like whoever he wants…

I just wish it would be me.I guess I’m dreaming again…

When we eventually arrived back at the bus, the guys were already relaxing with their feet up in the living room.

“Oh, nice of you two to join us,” Robbie commented sarcastically as we walked through the door.

“We assumed you might be finishing off what you started onstage earlier tonight,” Rian stated flatly, and they all smirked.

I rolled my eyes and hit Rian over the head lightly as I walked past to sit on the sofa next to Robbie and Zack.

“Nah, I got that out of my system while we were onstage,” Alex announced, dismissing the topic.

I tried not to hide my disappointment; after all, it definitely wasn’t out of my system… I’m not even sure if Alex is ever going be fully out of my system anymore.

Crush crush crush...

Notes

Song lyrics/Credit: Paramore