Guts
Chapter Fifty-One: Real World
"You're pregnant?" Jack asked, eyes wide.
I started to fidget with the hem of my t-shirt. I looked down and nodded before looking husk up and meeting his eyes.
"Are you sure it's mine?" Jack asked. I sighed.
"Yes. It's yours. You're the only one I've had sex with in the past two months," I muttered, looking back down. Jack sighed, and I watched him rub his eyes.
"Are you not happy about it?" I asked somewhat angrily, "Because if you're not, I could just abort it."
"No. Don't do that. It's just sudden, okay? I want to have this child with you, I do... but don't you think it'll be difficult when we're not together?" Jack asked.
"Jack... I'm not falling for that. I'm not going to get back together with you," I said.
"Becca.. I love you. I always have. I miss you, and I want to be there for you, Jackie, and the baby. Is that so much to ask?"
"No it's not. Jack, we'll talk it out when you stop by again whenever," I said.
"Next week we'll be back in Baltimore for two days, then we'll be gone. I want to talk to you about this sooner than later, and not over Skype," Jack said.
"So do I," I agreed. So, I gave him my address and I told him I had to go. I closed the laptop and shoved it to my right, and I sighed. I didn't want to do this alone. Should I forgive him? I love him too, but what he did was still fresh in my memory. There was a part of me that just wanted to jump into his arms and kiss him and forget about everything that happened, but the other part of me that wanted nothing to do with him was taking over.
"What the fuck am I going to do," I whispered to myself, not expecting a response.
"What's wrong, mommy?" Jackie asked as she padded into my room. She lifted herself onto my bed and sat there looking at me. I took a deep breath.
"How do you feel about having a little brother or sister?" I asked, and her face lit up like a lightbulb.
"Really!?" She asked, and I nodded wearily.
"Yeah kiddo.. mommy's pregnant," I smiled.
"Who's is it?" Jackie asked.
"It's Jack's," I said. She didn't say anything back, just laid down beside me. I wrapped my arms around her small frame, and soon my eyelids fell shut, and I slipped into darkness.
When I woke up, I felt extremely sick. I barely made it to the bathroom in time to rid my stomach of its contents. When I was done, however, I just sat there and sighed, but eventually I stood up, brushed my teeth, and went about my day as best I could.
Before I knew it, the week had gone by and I found Jack and Alex at my door. I had no idea why Alex was here, but I could care less.
"Come in, guys," I muttered, and I moved over so they could enter. I closed the door behind Alex, and I lead them into my small living room where Jackie was playing with a couple of Barbie dolls. She looked up and smiled at Jack, and she ran over to him, completely forgetting about her dolls.
"Hey kiddo! How are you?" Jack asked her.
"Good!" She exclaimed. Jack kissed her forehead and set her down before sitting in the only armchair in the room. Alex remained standing as I also sat down, and Jackie returned to her toys.
"Jack... I love that you want to help me-"
"Please just let me, Rebecca. I don't want you to be on your own during the pregnancy. I want to be there for you in eight months, holding your hand.. I love you, Rebecca. Please just give me another chance," he begged. I sighed.
"If you don't shut up, you're gonna make me cry," I muttered, and Jack broke into a grin.
"So.. is that a yes?" Jack asked, a hopeful glint in his eyes.
"Let me propose you a thing... I'll let you, okay? But I think I want to stay single," I said. Jack's face fell.
"I know you want more, but I'm not ready for that just yet. Let's take things slow. I mean really slow. Slow like you're going five miles per hour in a sports car. Can you do that for me?" I asked. Jack sighed.
"Can I kiss you one more time though? Before I agree?" Jack asked.
"If it'll shut you up, then I guess you can," I said. Jack cheered and stood up, pulling me into his arms. We hugged for a minute before he actually kissed me, and melted right into it. I still loved him, obviously. The kiss was pretty much perfect to me.
I pulled away before it lasted way too long, and I looked at Alex who had one eyebrow raised.
"Are you happy now, Jack?" I asked, and he nodded before stepping away from me to sit back down.
"You want a hug too, don't you?" I asked Alex, and he nodded. I approached him and hugged him as well.
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"You guys are seriously on tour for six months? That's a long ass time," I said about an hour later.
"Yeah. But it's great. You've been with us longer than that. Pretty much your whole life," Alex said.
"But not with all of you for six months on a tour bus," I pointed out.
"I'll give that one to you," Alex shrugged, and I smiled.
"Alex, we've got to go or Matt will throw a bitch fit," Jack said. Alex nodded, and they both gave me goodbye hugs. Jack's lasted a little longer, just because he's Jack, and then they were gone.
I think it was safe to say that I'd missed them.
I started to fidget with the hem of my t-shirt. I looked down and nodded before looking husk up and meeting his eyes.
"Are you sure it's mine?" Jack asked. I sighed.
"Yes. It's yours. You're the only one I've had sex with in the past two months," I muttered, looking back down. Jack sighed, and I watched him rub his eyes.
"Are you not happy about it?" I asked somewhat angrily, "Because if you're not, I could just abort it."
"No. Don't do that. It's just sudden, okay? I want to have this child with you, I do... but don't you think it'll be difficult when we're not together?" Jack asked.
"Jack... I'm not falling for that. I'm not going to get back together with you," I said.
"Becca.. I love you. I always have. I miss you, and I want to be there for you, Jackie, and the baby. Is that so much to ask?"
"No it's not. Jack, we'll talk it out when you stop by again whenever," I said.
"Next week we'll be back in Baltimore for two days, then we'll be gone. I want to talk to you about this sooner than later, and not over Skype," Jack said.
"So do I," I agreed. So, I gave him my address and I told him I had to go. I closed the laptop and shoved it to my right, and I sighed. I didn't want to do this alone. Should I forgive him? I love him too, but what he did was still fresh in my memory. There was a part of me that just wanted to jump into his arms and kiss him and forget about everything that happened, but the other part of me that wanted nothing to do with him was taking over.
"What the fuck am I going to do," I whispered to myself, not expecting a response.
"What's wrong, mommy?" Jackie asked as she padded into my room. She lifted herself onto my bed and sat there looking at me. I took a deep breath.
"How do you feel about having a little brother or sister?" I asked, and her face lit up like a lightbulb.
"Really!?" She asked, and I nodded wearily.
"Yeah kiddo.. mommy's pregnant," I smiled.
"Who's is it?" Jackie asked.
"It's Jack's," I said. She didn't say anything back, just laid down beside me. I wrapped my arms around her small frame, and soon my eyelids fell shut, and I slipped into darkness.
When I woke up, I felt extremely sick. I barely made it to the bathroom in time to rid my stomach of its contents. When I was done, however, I just sat there and sighed, but eventually I stood up, brushed my teeth, and went about my day as best I could.
Before I knew it, the week had gone by and I found Jack and Alex at my door. I had no idea why Alex was here, but I could care less.
"Come in, guys," I muttered, and I moved over so they could enter. I closed the door behind Alex, and I lead them into my small living room where Jackie was playing with a couple of Barbie dolls. She looked up and smiled at Jack, and she ran over to him, completely forgetting about her dolls.
"Hey kiddo! How are you?" Jack asked her.
"Good!" She exclaimed. Jack kissed her forehead and set her down before sitting in the only armchair in the room. Alex remained standing as I also sat down, and Jackie returned to her toys.
"Jack... I love that you want to help me-"
"Please just let me, Rebecca. I don't want you to be on your own during the pregnancy. I want to be there for you in eight months, holding your hand.. I love you, Rebecca. Please just give me another chance," he begged. I sighed.
"If you don't shut up, you're gonna make me cry," I muttered, and Jack broke into a grin.
"So.. is that a yes?" Jack asked, a hopeful glint in his eyes.
"Let me propose you a thing... I'll let you, okay? But I think I want to stay single," I said. Jack's face fell.
"I know you want more, but I'm not ready for that just yet. Let's take things slow. I mean really slow. Slow like you're going five miles per hour in a sports car. Can you do that for me?" I asked. Jack sighed.
"Can I kiss you one more time though? Before I agree?" Jack asked.
"If it'll shut you up, then I guess you can," I said. Jack cheered and stood up, pulling me into his arms. We hugged for a minute before he actually kissed me, and melted right into it. I still loved him, obviously. The kiss was pretty much perfect to me.
I pulled away before it lasted way too long, and I looked at Alex who had one eyebrow raised.
"Are you happy now, Jack?" I asked, and he nodded before stepping away from me to sit back down.
"You want a hug too, don't you?" I asked Alex, and he nodded. I approached him and hugged him as well.
~~
"You guys are seriously on tour for six months? That's a long ass time," I said about an hour later.
"Yeah. But it's great. You've been with us longer than that. Pretty much your whole life," Alex said.
"But not with all of you for six months on a tour bus," I pointed out.
"I'll give that one to you," Alex shrugged, and I smiled.
"Alex, we've got to go or Matt will throw a bitch fit," Jack said. Alex nodded, and they both gave me goodbye hugs. Jack's lasted a little longer, just because he's Jack, and then they were gone.
I think it was safe to say that I'd missed them.
Notes
Chapter Fifty-One!
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