Sick Little Games

Jack's POV:

It's almost been a week since I've seen Alex. Almost a week since out little 'encounter' after school. I've never felt so bad about bullying anyone before. He looked so vulnerable, so afraid. I took it too far, I know I did and I'm ashamed of it. For the rest of the week I just sat and stared at the door into my form room hoping he'd walk through. He never did. It scared the shit out of me if I'm totally honest. What if he'd gone too far and cut too deep? What if he tried to kill himself. What if he's actually dead? No, stop thinking like that, Jack. I never stopped thinking about him. Not once.

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My alarm woke me up with a start. I jumped, rolled over and ended up landing on the floor with a thud, all tangled up in my ridiculously childish Batman blanket. I thought about just skipping school today, tell my mum I was too ill to go but then the tiny glimmer of hope that Alex would be in today shone through. I had to go. I needed to know if he was okay. Well, maybe okay isn't the right word...alive fits better.

I untangled myself from the blanket burrito I had made during the night and got up, stumbling over a stray shoe on my way to the bathroom. I can't see shit without my contacts in, so I put them in first so I do something stupid like put shaving foam on my toothbrush, it's happened before. I finished my morning routine quickly and headed off to school. I really couldn't be arsed with my appearance today- I was well aware I looked like shit. After all, I hadn't slept properly in a week.

I arrived at school a lot earlier than usual, in the hope that I would catch Alex before the bell went. I walked to my locker, smiling slightly when I saw someone with their back turned to me leaning against Alex's locker with the hood of their grey hoodie up over their head. I sighed in relief, satisfied that Alex is here and okay. I walked to my locker and swung open the door, I turned to my left to talk to Alex.
"H-, oh." It wasn't Alex. My heart sunk. How could I be so stupid? Stood in front of me was Cassadee. How the fuck did I confused Alex for Cassadee?!
"Well, hello to you too, Jack." I grimaced at her harsh tone.
"What's up with you?" I had to know, she was acting like such a bitch.
"Oh, I don't know, Jack. Maybe the fact that Rian told me last night about a little incident that happened between you and Alex? Everyone has had enough of your bullshit. It's about time you started being, oh, I don't know, PLEASANT FOR A FUCKING CHANGE?" She was yelling now, hands flying around to acentuate each word. "AND BRING UP ALEX'S SCARS? THAT WAS FUCKING LOW, JACK. I DIDN'T THINK EVEN YOU COULD GO THAT LOW. YOU CAN TELL BY HIS EYES HOW HURT AND BROKEN HE IS! WHAT DO YOU HAVE TO SAY FOR YOURSELF?!"
I had nothing to say. Everything she spat at me was true. The venom in her words started to sink in. What the fuck had I done? I shrugged, knowing that whatever I said wouldn't help the situation. I slammed the door on my locker, pulled out my iPod and earbuds and started to walk to form. I blasted Green Day, blocking out the rest of the world. I felt like crying.

The halls had started to get busier just as I arrived outside my form room. I noticed that Mr Flyzik was already sat at his desk, biting on his lip ring like usual. I don't even know how he gets away with wearing that thing, students can't even dye their hair an unnatural colour! I opened the door, Mr Flyzik hitching an eyebrow at my earliness.
"Jesus, Jack. What's up with you?" I just shrugged, not trusting my voice to answer for me. Flyzik just sighed and went back to whatever teacher businesa he was doing. I lay my head on my arm, earbuds still blasting Green Day's album Dookie.

I must have fell asleep because the next think I know I'm being awoken by someone, or something, nudging my knee. I snapped my head up, annoyed at the sudden contact. That was until I saw those eyes, staring at me. He looked scared, tired, his eyes were puffy and his lip was shaking. I did something I've never done before to any new kid, let alone one I bullied. I looked up, my gaze softening, and smiled.

Notes

Heyy,
I'm actually having a lot of fun writing this :)
I'm sorry if there's any mistakes: I've not proof read it and I'm on my phone so yeah
I promise stuff will happen soon

thanks :))
Em x