Maybe Next May

I ran away. I could fucking believe I just ran away from Alex after I kissed him! Or he kissed me, or we kissed each other..... Whatever I still couldn't believe it. I was running towards my house and trying to call Cass at the same time. I had to talk to someone about this. I ran through the door, up the stairs, into my room, slammed the door shut behind me (Thank god my mom was still at work), and jumped onto my bed. I felt the tears falling down my face and I didn't even try to stop them.
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I woke up to someone gently shaking me.

"Mhm.... Mom? Just let me sleep, I don't want to eat dinner."

I heard a giggle and I opened one eye to see Cass sitting on the edge of my bed and Rian standing behind her. I felt my cheeks heat up as I slowly sat up and looked at the ground.

"Not your mom, just a friend who's hear to figure out what's going on. You've been crying. Oh sweet heart, what's wrong?"

I wiped my eyes and continued to look down as I told her and Rian what had happened.

"Wait wait wait, Alex said he was going to give everything up for you? His popularity, his girlfriend, and his safety? I don't believe it for one second."

"Rian, shush!"

"No no no, I'm not saying that you're not worth that Jack, it's just, come on we're talking about Alex here. There is no way in hell he would do that. He probably just wants something from you."

"Then why did he kiss me?"

"Now that I can't explain."

I sighed and felt like ripping my hair out. I flopped back onto my bed face first and buried my head in my pillow. felt Cass put her hand on my back and start rubbing it soothingly. After a couple minute she spoke up.

"Wait, you said right when his mom got home he shoved you away right? But before that you two were basically doing.... Well..... Everything together. At least you were getting there. Then he didn't look at you or say anything after, right?"

I nodded then thought for a minute.

"Well, he did run after me, but not far, only to his door I think."

"Jack, sweet heart, I think you should give him a chance."

"What?" Rian and I said at the same time.

"Look, I wouldn't trust that boy if it meant saving my own life. But, he did run after you, he did kiss you, he let you go as far as you did, and I honestly think it would have gone further if his mother hadn't walked in right then. You need to take small chances Jack, that's what life is about. Also, if anything ever happens, you have Rian and I. We Will always be there to catch you if you fall, and we expect the same from you. Now, give me a answer to something, what are you so scared of Jack?"

I didn't speak for a second, letting everything she just said sink in. She's right. Well of course she was, she's Cass. Then I thought about her question. What am I so scared of? Rejection? Heart break? Falling apart, again? Yeah, that was it.

"Falling apart."

"What?"

"Falling apart, that's what I'm scared of. This has happened before, at my old school. There was a kid who was just like Alex, popular, funny, cute. We dated for two years before he decided to break up with me. In our relationship he never did anything, he just made me do it all. I guess I should have seen it coming but that's why we moved here. To get away from it all and so I could start a new life. I don;t want to throw it all away because if something happens here, we cant leave again. I'll be stuck and be so broken if that happens again."

Cass didn't even need to take a second to think about what to say next.

"Jack, I know you're scared. But you have us, and we wont let that happen. How about we talk to Alex tomorrow, Rian and I. We will see if he is in this for the long run or just to play around. I'm a pretty good judge of character you know?"

She grinned and I couldn't help but do that same, I wrapped her in a tight hug then Rian put his arms around the both of us, making us all laugh.

"Thanks guys. I'm not sure what I would do without you."

"No problem man. Now get some sleep, you look like death."

"Ha. Ha. Ha. Thanks Rian."

"Anytime."

We gave each other a smile and with that they both left. Cass gave me a small kiss on the cheek before doing so. They walked out hand in hand and I couldn't help but envy their relationship. I want one like that someday.

If everything goes well with Alex tomorrow, I just might.

Notes

Hey! Here's another chapter. Sorry if it sucks, it's 2 in the morning here and I'm falling asleep on my desk. I'll fix anything that's wrong with it tomorrow. Please remember to comment, subscribe, etc. 50 subscribers and almost 2,300 views! Thank you so much guys, glad you're liking it! ~Anna :)