We just hang around the house for the rest of the day.
Alan and I decided to have a skateboard race down our driveway and ended up knocking our heads together. Alex got angry at me for doing 'dangerous sports'.
Now we are lying on the couch sharing a cool pad, we sent Alex out to get us some ice cream because we are injured and Austin sits on the opposite couch his arms crossed shaking his head.
"You know, having to deal with one of you is often hard enough but the two of you together are unbearable." He rolls his eyes at us.

I get up from the couch and crawl onto his lap, still wearing only shorts and a bikini top. I hug him making dorky puppy eyes and imitating a little child's voice.
"I am so sowwy Uncle Austin that I have been a naughty girl. But I solemnly swear that I am up to no good" I laugh and lick the side of his face.

"Eww, you are disgusting and completely insane girl. I will tell Alex to give you a spank."

"Yes please, I want more S.W.A.G" they look at me confused."Sex With Alex Gaskarth" I explain fluttering my eyelashes, which leaves the guys groaning. "Come to think of it, it might also mean 'Surf With Awesome Ginger' I giggle.

...

As Austin wants to take us to some cool new club, the guys leave when it gets dark to get ready and Alex and I go up to the bedroom to do the same.
"I have nothing clean to wear, can I borrow some of your clothes" I ask already going through Alex's bag.
"Sure babe" he calls from the bathroom where he shaves.

"God, you have legit the worst fashion taste sometimes, I mean what kind of shirts do you own, you'll look like Vic Fuentes in this one." I hold up a baby blue shirt with weird faint red circles on it.

Alex looks around the corner. " Hey don't diss my cuddly sleepy shirt. I love it"

"Since when do you have a sleep shirt, I have never seen you wear this these holidays."

"I don't have to wear it because I've got you to cuddle with."

I pick up a white collared shirt and his maroon jeans. Whoever told guys to start wearing skinny jeans is a genius. I roll the legs up and they fit perfect. I slip on his shirt and just knot the loose ends. I bend down to get into my Toms and walk into the bathroom.

"I'm done" I declare "Hey you needn't shave for me. I like your rough look" I say and ruffle his hair. I look at him in the mirror I also like his new haircut with the short sides and the longer bangs. But let's be honest. Alex looks amazing whatever he does. I still cannot comprehend how such a good looking man can seriously be interested in plain average me.

"What?" He asks when he notices me staring at him.

"Just admiring your beauty" I say smiling.

He turns around taking me by the shoulders softly pushing me against the wall pressing himself against me as he kisses me. "You honestly don't realise how beautiful you are, do you? How everybody notices you and your natural grace?"

He looks down at me. "But hey, that was the shirt I wanted to wear, it's my only decent one, take it off sneaky bitch." That's typical Alex, making the greatest compliments and crushing them in your face the next minute.

"No way, it looks better on me anyway. You can go naked, you look best without clothes." I pout.

"Don't dare me" he grins.

When Austin picks us up in his car we learn that this 'awesome club' is about an hours drive away. I facepalm at this because I didn't plan on spending half of the night riding around in a car.
It turns out quite nice though. Alex and me get to sit in the back. At first I start to argue with Austin about the music we want to hear until Alan plugs in his iPod telling us to shut the fuck up and choosing a really cool playlist. I am impressed and resume my position cuddling into Alex's side.

When we finally arrive at the club I am again reminded that I am not just having a night out with friends, but hanging out with these famous rock stars.
The guys are swarmed by girls after minutes of entering the club. The fans don't even mind Alex and me sitting close together talking but ignore me completely to try to get his attention.
He is nice and polite to the girls, he signs whatever they request and talks to them but asks them to leave us alone after this.

Still it is pretty annoying and I give up maintaining a conversation after a while.

I haven't seen Alan or Austin for some time either because they are equally occupied.

I get the chance to snatch a slow dance with Alex who starts kissing me on the dance floor and it feels like we are just a normal couple having fun.
But that's not the case because our demeanour rather encourages the girls to try and get close to him as well.

I am not sure if I can do this, I am not even sure if I want this. Being with Alex would always mean having to share him with so many fans and always just being the girlfriend everybody secretly hates.
So I have to acknowledge that these little time-outs we took at Warped tour or here on holidays are not what the real life with Alex would look like. It would look like this. Me sitting around waiting and him occupied with his fans.

I try and let nobody see my thoughts as not to spoil the evening so when we finally end up in bed that night when Alex asks "so did you enjoy yourself?"
I smile and nod my head " yeah I did" and give him a goodnight kiss.

The next morning I sneak out early to go to surf, I love this morning hours when the world seems still and pure.
I think about getting my surf buddies to join and start to jog down the road to their house.

It's only half a mile and I take it as a warm up. I walk into the house without knocking because they're probably still asleep.
Their living room looks as if they had the party going last night. So I walk up to Austin's bedroom to wake him up and drag him out to surf if I can.

"Austin, mate you up for a surf?" I ask as I enter his room.

"What the fuck, Easy, what are you doing here, get the fuck out, NOW." Austin is awake but he is not alone. He is having sex with a girl I have never seen before. At the moment he tries to cover her with his body, which looks hilarious. He throws his shoe at me.

"Okay, looks like you're busy. I go and ask Alan." I turn around to leave the room.

"No, no, Easy, stop, don't do that" Austin yells after me.

"I can't hear you" I tease and open Alan's door. What I see is not remotely interesting. Alan is asleep beside another girl I haven't seen before. No sex here. At least not at the moment.

I bend down to bring my face close to his. "Alan darling," I sing in a sugar coated voice and give him a small kiss "I am looking for a surf buddy, the sun is shining and it's a gorgeous day, and after surf sex is awesome. I am talking from experience."

He opens one eye "Easy, you are fucking mental, you know that?"

"Yup. Are you coming or what?"

"Fuck. Okay, give me five minutes" Alan groans.

When he joins me on the beach a few minutes later he still looks half asleep struggling to pull up his wetsuit.

"I guess you had a good night, hey? Let's get into the water and wake you up." I say ruffling his hair.

The waves are glassy and we catch a few good ones, then the wind picks up and conditions deteriorate so we decide to get the next wave to the beach. There we sit side by side with the wetsuits pulled down to let the sun warm us up.

"So, you and Alex are a thing now?" He asks looking out to the water.

I sigh. "I don't know, it's not that easy, how can you have a relationship with guys like you. You have this crazy lifestyle and I realised I am just not a part of it. Sometimes I wish you would all be just normal people doing normal jobs, like selling ice cream, or something and we could all live together in this big house happily ever after."

"I know, it's the same for us, I mean, I can get so many girls just because I play in a famous band, that's insane. Would they also want me if I was selling ice cream ? I doubt it." He shakes his head.

"I would buy your ice cream every day just to get served by this awesome Ginger." I smile at him nudging his shoulder. "So the cute blonde in your bed?" I ask "By the way, I didn't know you had a thing for blondes?"

"You are right, I don't" he says looking at me, stroking my wet hair out of my face. "But when I am going to have sex with her later on I just imagine it would be...."

"Stop it, I don't want to know." I press my hand on his mouth shutting him up. He pulls away my hand and places a quick kiss on my lips.
I get up. "I have to go. Thanks for the surf mate. See you later maybe." I give him a small kiss on the cheek and get my board.

I walk back on the beach and when I turn around after a couple of minutes I can still see his figure sitting there.

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