Oh, Calamity.

Shocked was the only word that could describe how I felt as I was washed up on the shore. I was shocked after having been washed away by that wave and more importantly I was shocked that Jack was actually nearly about to kiss me back. Our lips had brushed for a second before that wave swept us both away and now all I wanted was more. I wanted my hands on Jack, his hands on me and our lips colliding together in a perfect rhythm. I swear that boy will be the death of me.

The only problem with my little fantasy was that I didn’t know if Jack would want the same anymore, maybe him nearly kissing me back had just been a mistake, a heat of the moment decision that he was glad was broke apart by that god damn wave. What if I had made things awkward between us again? What if he went back to ignoring me? I guess I would deserve it for behaving so impulsively.

I groaned internally as I stood up and wiped the sea water from my face and spat it out my mouth not enjoying the salty taste at all, stupid mother fucking wave. It’s ridiculous that I’m actually pissed at a wave but I am. It ruined everything and possibly for good. Stupid wave. I kicked a piece of driftwood out of my way roughly and began to stalk up the beach to get my towel and dry off before I even consider facing Jack who I could see was being checked over by Rian and Zack to make sure he was unharmed. Nice to see they cared so much about me. It was ridiculous to be as angry as I am but I couldn’t help it. I was annoyed at that wave and I was annoyed at myself for being an idiot. What was I thinking trying to kiss him in front of a beach full of people. What was I thinking trying to kiss him at all?

I used the hoodie I had brought to make a makeshift pillow and buried my face in it as I lay face first on my beach towel. I would join the guys in a few minutes once I had calmed down enough to do so. The sun beating down on my back actually felt pretty nice and I savoured that warm feeling as I let my eyes flutter shut and focussed on just enjoying the sun and not worrying about the mess I had no doubt made for myself.

My few minutes of ‘me time’ must have turned into a power nap as the next thing I knew I was being shaken awake as a gentle voice cooed in my ear.

‘C’mon Lexy, it’s lunch time. Get up’ the voice that belonged to Jack cooed into my ear as he gently shook my shoulders.

‘Don’t wanna get up’ I whined, figuring that if Jack was still speaking to me and touching me things must be okay so I’d just go with It and act like nothing happened.

‘But you need to eat’ Jack insisted, never once stopping his irritating shaking of my shoulders.

‘Feed me then’ I whined and rolled over, opening my mouth wide and just lying there waiting for Jack to place food in my mouth.

‘Attractive’ Jack scolded as he shoved a bit of the sandwich he was holding in my mouth and wiping the crumbs off of my lips and chin.

‘Being friends with you is like having a fucking baby’ He joked playfully.

‘Bullshit. I’m way cuter than a baby’ I said with my mouth full of sandwich flashing him a smile and revealing my half chewed food.

‘Dude, you’re disgusting’ He muttered shoving more food in my mouth and repeating the process of wiping my face.

‘Awww, look at the happy gay couple’ Zack cooed jokingly.

‘They make me want to vomit rainbows and glitter’ Rian gushed in a girly manner flashing his white teeth in a toothy grin. Both Jack and I just flipped them off and continued with what we were doing.

Night fell a few hours after and whilst everyone else on the beach was packing up to leave we were all still lounging around. Rian and Zack were passing a football between them, whilst Jackand I lazed by the fire we had built, hiding from the cool winds blowing from the sea by snuggling up under a blanket. Jack’s head rested gently against my chest and my arms were wrapped lazily around his waist, holding him close to me so I could steal the heat he was radiating.

Neither of us had spoken about what had happened earlier in the water but it had not been at all awkward between us, I even managed to convince Jack to rub my sunscreen in for me earlier and I definitely enjoyed it way more than I should have but the feeling of Jacks hands roaming my back had been incredible. It had taken all my strength to resist the urge to flip us over and kiss the shit out of him but I thought that might have been a step to far given our earlier moment.

‘Lex, you look like you’re having a sex dream’ Jack commented with a laugh. I guess I had been too caught up in my thoughts to notice that he had been trying to speak to me.

‘Thinking about you’ I replied with a wink, watching as he turned the brightest shade of red I had ever seen.

‘That’s fucking adorable when you do that’ I muttered pulling him back into my chest as a particularly cold wind blew.

‘Do what?’ He asked gently.

‘Blush like that, it’s so cute. Almost as cute as when you fell over on your first day’ I said laughing at the memory of Jack getting a fright and falling over.

‘You’re not funny.’ He huffed. ‘That fall was embarrassing and it fucking hurt too’

‘Aww, my little baby hurt himself’ I said childishly as a nice silence fell over us and we enjoyed each other and the crackling fire. The silence was nice and I gently began to sing to myself, forgetting Jacks presence.

‘I wish you could see your face right now
'Cause you're grinning like a fool
And we're sitting on your kitchen floor
On a Tuesday afternoon
It doesn't matter when we get back
To doing what we do
'Cause right now could last forever
Just as long as I'm with you

You're just a daydream away
I wouldn't know what to say if I had you
And I'll keep you a daydream away
Just watch from a safe place
So I never have to lose’

‘You have a beautiful voice Lex’ Jack interrupted gently turning to look at me as I blushed. I usually didn’t sing in front of people never mind get compliments on my voice.

‘Yeah? Well you have a beautiful face’ I whispered back. ‘Those big brown eyes, you’re massive nose’ I said whilst bopping his nose gently making him giggle. Yes, he fucking giggled.

‘You’re silly’ He muttered, looking down. ‘I’m just average, nothing special’

‘Hey’ I muttered, pulling his chin up so he was looking at me. ‘You’re everything special’

‘You really think so?’ he questioned looking down quickly before turning the full force of his eyes on me.

‘I do really think so’ I said, meeting his intense gaze. ‘In fact, I know so Jack. I knew from the moment I met you that you were something special.’

The look of sheer bliss on Jack’s face actually made my day, our eyes were still locked and my hand was still on Jack’s face. If there was ever a time to try and kiss him again this was it.

‘Close your eyes Jack’ I whispered.

‘Why?’ He questioned suspiciously making me sigh.

‘Do you trust me Jay?’ I asked as he nodded. ‘Then close your eyes for me’

Gently his eyes fluttered shut, and the look of vulnerability on his face was priceless but I couldn’t enjoy it for too long. I knew that it was now or never. I took Jacks hands in mine and squeezed them gently before placing them on my shoulders and placing mine on his hips as I leaned forward to close the gap between us. I breathed out gently before nudging Jacks nose with my own to get him to tilt his head slightly allowing me better access to his lips. I could feel him let out a sharp breathe as I slowly brought my lips to his till they brushed his gently like they had earlier, I could still taste the salt of the sea. I waited for a moment before going back in to capture his lips properly with me, kissing him softly and sweetly.

Jacks lips were soft against mine as he came to life and started to kiss me back in the same soft and sweet manner. This kiss was not heated but hesitant and innocent on both our parts and that was perfectly fine. In fact it was just perfect. I pulled away slowly to see Jack smiling up at me shyly. He went to speak but I placed my finger onto his lips, wanting to savour this moment. I pulled Jack back against me and we cuddled close still not saying anything as I began to hum part of my song again.

‘You're just a daydream away
I wouldn't know what to say if I had you.’

Notes

Sorry its so so long and takes ages to get to the point. I'm not very well today but i tried!

love you all!