Oh, Calamity.

I'm worried about Jack he's been acting so weir d ever since that night at my house and that was over a week ago now.

He's not exactly been avoiding me but he's just been distant towards me as shying away anytime I try to be cuddly with him. I can't help but feel like I've done something wrong, maybe I'm too clingy? Maybe he's realised he doesn't want to be friends? Maybe I've scared him off? There's just too many possibilities and it's driving me crazy.

The thing is that I think I feel things for Jack that go beyond friendship. I've always known I'm not exactly straight but I've never felt anything for a guy that's even similar to what i feel for Jack. I just have a special connection with him and I can't bear the idea of losing that or him.

Right now I was being tortured in chemistry wishing the teacher would shut up and Jack would actually talk to me instead of just ignoring me and focussing on the experiment we, well he was conducting. I just stood around looking useless and only doing something if Jack asked me too.

I just wanted things to go back to how they were when we would mess around and annoy the teacher instead of standing around ignoring each other. I groaned In frustration and slammed my hands down on the table.

'You okay?' Jack asked quietly from beside me.

'Yeah, just great Jack' I answered sarcastically.

'Whats wrong Lex. I'm worried' He pushed, making my temper flare.

'You! You're what's wrong Jack. Why have you been so distant with me? What have I done?!' I protested.

'You haven't done anything' he insisted.

'Then why are you being like this? If you hate me just say! If you don't want to be friends then tell me! Just don't be so distant! I miss my best friend Jackky' I yelled slamming my fist on the desk and knocking over a beaker of acid which covered my hand. 'Shit!'

'Gaskarth, enough of that language in my class' The teacher yelled.

'But he's hurt sir' Jack protested grabbing my hand as gently as he could and taking me over to the sink and running It under the tap. The feeling of his hand on mine immediately drained my anger from my body and I relaxed into his touch as he washed the acid from my skin.

'Sorry' I mumbled as he continued to wash my hand.

'What for?' He questioned.

'Yelling at you like that, it wasn't called for' I mumbled ashamedly.

'Hey, it was! I've been so stupid the past week Alex but it's nothing you've done, I can promise you that. You're one of the best people I know and I could never hate you' He said forcing me to face him, his brown eyes showing no dishonesty.

'Well what happened then Jack? We were fine and then we just weren't... Was I too clingy? Or.. ' I stopped my sentence unsurely pulling my hand from the sink to dry it just as Jack pulled it back and began to check for any burns.

'I'm not sure I can tell you yet, Lex but I promise that it wasn't anything you did. You're perfect Lex you couldn't do anything wrong if you tried' He said as I smiled widely like a little girl.

'Okay, Jack. Sorry for shouting and making you take care of me again' I said gently flexing my fingers which seemed unharmed.

'Its okay. I know why you were so mad but I promise I'm back now. We can fix this cause I've missed my best friend too' he said squeezing the hand he was still holding.

'Gaskarth, Barakat. As cute as you're little moment is, there's acid on my desk and I want it cleared' the teacher hollered.

Way to ruin a moment.

Notes

update 2/2

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