Guts

It was the day Nevaeh was released to be able to leave the house for short periods of time and she wanted to see Maria. Jack, Rian, Matt, Zack, and I had all agreed to meet Nevaeh and her mom at the cemetery. Jack took his time getting ready; every move he made was slow and sluggish. I could tell he was holding back tears and knew it was just a matter of time before he started crying.

Matt had talked to or label and told them that we were ready to start touring, they were happy. They had arranged for a van to pick us up that evening to start the tour. It was with Warped Tour. We wouldn’t be main stage but that didn’t matter to us. We were stoked to be on tour with Warped Tour!

We all got to the cemetery and was greeted by Nevaeh and her mom. Zack led us to Maria’s grave. It was still brand new. It had fresh roses and there was no grass. Her tombstone read, “Wonderful daughter, sister, and friend.” And on the back it read,

“Live and let live
You'll be the showgirl of the home-team
I'll be the narrator
Telling another tale of the American dream
I see your name in lights
We can make you a star Girl,
we'll take the world by storm
It isn't that hard”
That was actually her parent’s idea. They had asked us to pick a part of Dear Maria to put on her tombstone since it was a song just for her and it was special to her.

Nevaeh set a single white rose right in front of the tombstone and sat there for a second then whispered something and got up and hugged Jack and I. She told us to enjoy the tour and she hoped we would call. We told her of course and she left with her mom, leaving Jack, Zack, Matt, Rian, and I standing there. Jack looked at me and I nodded. We both walked up to the grave and he just stood there for a second and then started shaking. I couldn’t do much other than wrap him in a hug because at this point I had started crying also. I’m not sure how long we stood there like that, but the guys had joined us and it was one big crying fest.

Finally I managed to stop crying and get the others calmed down. We all had to head home to get ready because the van would be there for us in a couple of hours. I helped Jack make it to the car and drove us home. I had to help him inside because he spaced out. Just when I thought things were looking good, it would seem that we had lost Jack again.

I got up and got him some warm milk and put on Home Alone and headed to the shower. When I got out he seemed to be a little better. He got up and went to shower while I did my hair. About halfway through doing my hair I realized I was missing a main ingredient to perfect hair, the hair spray. Jack was still in the shower and knowing him it would take him another 30 minutes and I needed the hair spray now.

I went and knocked on the door and he made a noise that I thought meant come in. I had guessed so wrong. I walked in to grab the hair spray and the water cut off. Right as I turned around to walk out, he stepped out of the shower, bare ass naked and dripping wet. At first he looked shocked, and then he busted out into laughter. He laughed so hard that he slipped on the bathroom tile. I rushed over to help him up but as soon as I got close I slipped in the puddle he made when he got out.

I fell right on top of naked, wet, hard Jack. By this point I know I was red because I could feel my face and neck burning up, I wouldn’t have been surprised if I started steaming. I got up as quickly as I could, which wasn’t very easy, both the floor and Jack were wet. I managed to get up, but my outfit was ruined and so was my hair. I helped Jack up and he just stared at me. It was kind of awkward not only because he was naked, but he was hard also and I couldn’t help but look, and he noticed me looking because he smirked and put his hands on his hips and just stood there posing. I just kept getting redder.

“Like what you see Lexy? You gonna show me yours next?” he asked me reaching for my pants. I turned and hit my hip on the sink trying to get away. I dropped to the ground in pain and Jack put a towel on and apologized. “I was just playing Lex.” He told me. Well tell that to the monster in my pants you woke up. I wanted to tell him, but I kept my mouth closed and told him it was okay.

I left the bathroom with the hairspray and went to change and re-do my hair. The only thing that was on my mind though was Jack. Why was my best friend turning me on?

Notes

I am so sorry that it has taken this long for me to write. I have no excuse I have just been really depressed and haven't felt like doing anything. Its taking all I have just to get up in the morning and face the day. I hate being like this and I'm sorry. Sorry if this chapter is crap, I started it last week and got like a paragraph in and stopped because I was just drawing up a blank.

Thank you guys for staying around, it means a lot <3

xoxo