We had made plans to all go to my house after the tests and hang out and play video games. We still couldn’t find Jasey so we had no choice but to leave. When we got to my house my mom had already made snacks and was about to head to work. She said everyone could stay but Maria would have her room and no one, she said while looking at Jack could stay in there with her except of course Zack.

She wouldn’t be home until about 8 in the morning so we had the house to ourselves. We started up on the video and card games. After a few hours there was a knock on the door, it was Jasey. I took her up to my room to talk, turns out it was occupied by Jack and Maria sucking face! So we ended up in the guest room/office.

I asked her why she had ran off stage and disappeared. She told me she had stage fright and got sick so she went home. She said she was sorry and was just so embarrassed she couldn’t face me. I felt so bad for her. After a few more minutes of talking we started making out.
This was the most intense make out we had ever had. We ended up on the bed. I was on bottom at first running my hands along her stomach. Then she flipped us over and I was on top. Things were getting hot really quick. She started running her hands along my back and started pulling my shirt up. She pulled it over my head and off. Things were getting even steamer. I sat up to take off her shirt and her eyes darted to my hips.

Shit I had forgotten about my cuts. She looked mortified and then it switched to disgust. I went to reach for her to explain but it was too late. She was already running out of the house. Fuck! What had I just done? She slammed the front door and I knew it would be seconds before everyone came to ask what had happened.

I ran to the bathroom and locked my self in there. Now she knew I was a freak, a stupid little emo kid. I was so stupid! How could I forget that? They had healed but there were still scars. What was going to happen now?

People started banging on the door and yelling my name. I didn’t want to hear any of it. I told them to just go away I would be fine. I got up and turned the shower on the hottest it could go and plugged the tub. I couldn’t hear anyone and I was okay with that. I stripped my pants and socks off and got in the boiling hot tub in just my underwear. I was going numb; the burning was all I could feel.

Just as I was about to black out I felt cold hands pulling me out. How could that be? I had locked the door. I looked up right before I blacked out and all I saw was Maria and a concerned look on her face. I wanted to ask what was wrong but I couldn’t speak, everything just went dark.

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When I woke up I saw blinding white lights and I could hear beeping noises. Where the hell was I? I looked around and realized that I was in a hospital bed. How had I got here? Last I remembered I was at my house, when… oh yeah, Jasey and the tub. I looked over and Jack, Maria, Zack, and Yannie were all there and they looked concerned. Maria was holding my hand and sobbing into Jacks shoulder. Zack and Yannie were both against the wall and looked so out of place.

Jack realized I was awake and told me my mom was on her way and my dad had been called. About 20 minutes later my mom showed up a sobbing mess. She hugged me and asked a billion questions but I was to numb to answer.

I eventually drifted off to sleep and woke up and Zack, Yannie, and Jack were gone, my mom was asleep on the chair in the corner, and Maria had her head in my lap and she was asleep in a chair right next to my bed. I didn’t want to wake her up but I really had to pee. I gently moved her head to the mattress and got up with the stupid IV and went to the restroom. It hadn’t dawned on me until I got to the bathroom that I had bandages on my arms, legs, and torso. I went to the bathroom and when I returned Jack was there with some soup.

I quietly asked him what happened and he told me I had 3rd degree burns, almost 4th. If I had been in there any longer it would have been 4th. He asked me what happened and why I had done it? He looked so upset, it broke my heart. We were both close to tears.



How could I tell him that this was Tom all over again, except this time I was Tom?

Notes

Welp that sooo did not go as I had originally planned but here we are. I'm sorry I just keep hurting Alex, but I have been down lately so yea. Things will get better, some day..

Also today is my fiances birthday so Happy Birthday baby! Sorry I couldn't write a happy chapter for you.

Love you all! <3

xoxo ^.^