Thanks To You

I walked into the park at seven and headed towards the swings that were right in the middle of it. As I sat down I looked up at the starry sky and remembered the date Alex took me on. I felt tears threatening to spill but I forced them not to. I couldn't be crying when he got here.

“Jack?” I looked over and saw Alex standing there. Zack hadn't been lying, he looked awful. The emotions that were going through his eyes were a mix of anger, hurt, sadness, confusion, and guilt.

“W-What are you doing here?” He asked, even his voice sounded bad.

“Zack asked me to come. He wanted me to talk to you, but I only have one question. Why Alex?” I asked as I stood up, trying to sound as calm as possible.

“It’s a really long story, I don't think you-”

“Well it’s a good thing my mom is working the night shift tonight huh?” I crossed my arms, staring him down. He sighed.

“Alright, alright. Jack, I-I’m so so so sorry…. I wish that was enough, but god I know it isn't.”

“I don’t want an apology Alex, I want to know why you did it.”

“It all started with that text.”

“Yeah, I figured when you kicked me out for no reason after the best night of my life. Continue.”

He was looking at the ground now, I swear he was shaking. A part of me wanted to go over, hold him, kiss him, and tell him everything was okay, that all was forgiven. The other, more reasonable part was reminding me of all the shitty stuff he has done to me, so I stayed where I was.

“Jeremy got my number, he found out about us Jay.”

“Don’t call me that.”

“Jack… I knew you were scared of what people would do if they found out, and in all honesty, I was too. He threatened me, Jack. Said if I didn't do what he told me, he would tell everyone and just start hurting you worse than before. I didn't know what to do Jack! I wouldn't be able to stand it if I found you hurt somewhere because of me being careless, or you wanting to break up because of what other people were saying. I didn't know what to do Jack. I was scared, I still am, I’m sorry.”

“I wouldn't have cared what people would have said Alex, because I would have had you beside me. Did you ever think to talk to me about this before you agreed to it. You hurt me a lot worse than Jeremy ever could have. We could have protected each other Alex. I didn't need to break up with you, you did that all by yourself.”

“Jack…”

“Figure out where you stand Alex, then come find me. Until then, do what you need to do. Just know that, I seriously loved you Alex. I would have done anything for you.” I could hear that he was crying. I did the only thing I could think to do, I turned and walked away. He called out for me but I didn't turn back, I couldn't. Tears fell as I walked home. At least I knew the truth now, I just couldn’t forgive him yet. I had to know if he loved me as much as I loved him.

I’m sorry Lex.

Notes

Here is the last update until the weekend! Hope you guys liked it and if you didn't, please don't be mad! I wonder what Alex will chose to do. Thanks for the comments guys and for all the votes and subscribers! Glad you like it so far, and there is plenty more to come!:D