Thanks To You

I had to go to school, but I felt like I was asleep and watching myself from outside. I watched as Alex would push me into lockers, trip me in the halls, elbow me in the ribs as he passed me, shout obscenities at me. I didn't do anything about it, why is that? I still loved him, that’s why. In all honesty I don’t know why I tried anymore. We had two months left of school, then it was onto our senior year. Days would go by, and I felt like I wasn't even paying attention anymore. It was the same routine everyday.

Get up, get ready, skip breakfast, go to school, get the crap beaten out of me or get shouted at, go home, mark off another day, go to sleep, then repeat. I didn't even cry anymore, because what good did that do? It didn't solve anything or help. It just gave me an awful headache and made people laugh. Every time Alex would swear at me or hit me, I would think that maybe, just maybe, the next day he would come rushing up to me, kiss me, and tell me everything was alright and that he was sorry. It never happened, it was only in my dreams that that Alex stayed alive, the new Alex was the real one, I just didn't want to believe it.

It was the first day of May, and I was walking through the hall with my headphones in, blasting Blink-182. I stopped at my locker and sighed as I put my book in it, just waiting. I felt a hand on my shoulder and I closed my eyes, completely ready for it. Then my headphone was pulled out of my ear and I turned around, shooting them a glare. It was Zack.

“Dude, I need to talk to you.” I looked up and down the halls to make sure neither Alex or Jeremy were around before nodding and letting Zack lead me out to his car.

“I talked to Alex a couple days ago.” I just nodded, normally I would have snapped my head up and asked him a hundred questions, but I was just out of energy.

“You need to talk to him Jack, get him to-” I interrupted him with a bitter laugh.

“To what? Beat the crap out of my again, hurt me worse than normal because we will be alone? Have him completely destroy anything I have left of myself? Yeah, I don’t think so. I have two months left of this crap, then I’m done, I'll go somewhere else and hopefully that will make Alex happy.”

“Jack, you need to listen to me! You look like shit dude! I’m not trying to be mean but when was the last time you had a good night sleep, or even ate?” I just shrugged, not looking at him.

“God dammit Jack, look at me when I’m talking! He told me everything, and I mean everything.” That’s when I looked at him, completely full of shock.

“Look I don’t really care that you’re gay or anything, me and Rian are still your friends no matter what alright? But you need to talk to Alex. When was the last time you actually looked at him?” As I thought about his question I realized I hadn't since the first day he threatened me.

“Not for a while, why?” I looked up at Zack and saw worry in his eyes.

“He looks just as bad as you do. He didn’t tell me why he is doing this shit, he just told me what you two were before this all went down. In all honesty I don’t know why he told me that. I do know that you need to talk to him. Please Jack, I know I’m asking a lot but, come on. You two loved each other at one point, and I'm sure you still do, even if you wont believe it. I told Alex to meet me at the park tonight at 7:30. Go talk to him Jack, please, me and Rian are really worried about you two. Please.” I was quiet for a minute, then I sighed.

“Alright, I’ll try. But what if he attacks me?”

“In all honesty, I doubt he will. But, if he does you tell me, I’ll hurt him much worse than he hurt you.” My eyes widened and I shook my head.

“I don’t want to see him hurt.” I whispered, looking down at my lap.

“Alright, then just talk to him okay? You’ll be fine.” I nodded and Zack hugged me before we got out of his car and went back into school. Why did this need to happen to me? What was I going to say to Alex? This is all just too much.

Notes

I don't own Blink-182!!! So yeah... this happened. Please don't hate me! Do you guys think it's too early to get them to make up? What do you guys think will happen when Jack shows up instead of Zack? Will Alex confess to whats going on? Should Jeremy get his face punched in?!? Leave a comment and let me know what you think:) I'm way super bored today because I'm just sitting at home sick, so yeah. There may even be another chapter tonight! I'm not sure. If not then I will update again this weekend! Thanks for all the support!