I Can't Live Without You Now, I Can't Even Live With Myself.
But Do You Think We Can Start Again?
"What?" I ask, gazing at the lanky boy, and then the cigarette in his hand, confused. "No? No it's fine." I say sharply, shaking my head, standing up and pulling my bag over my shoulders.
"Do you smoke?" he stretches out his words, as if I was thick or something. He pulls a green lighter out of his jacket pocket and lights up his cigarrette.
"Yes, but I need to get to my lesson, though." I say, my eyebrows forced together, he realises where I'm from and a wide grin from ear to ear appears on his face.
"D-don't go." he says, pulling me back, biting on his bottom lip, then exhaling the smoke from the corner of his mouth afterwards. "You're new here aren't you?" he says quietly.
"I suppose you can say that, yeah" I respond, forcing out a weak smile. He was sweet, but I don't feel like getting involved with anyone at the moment anyway, I mean, I can tell he'll be a great friend.
"I'm guessing you don't have a fucking clue where you're first lesson actually is then?" he says laughing, before inhaling more of the cigarette. I automatically shake my head, he continues to speak, "I'll show you around if you'd like?" he finished the sentance with a small smile, while flicking his cigarette bud onto the floor.
I was kind of staring at the floor, then I ended up dragging my eyes up his body. Why was he staring at me like that? Was he waiting for my reaction? But he was smiling and chewing on his bottom lip again. "Yeah, of course, I mean, if it's not enough trouble." I shrug, looking down at my hands that were rested on my lap.
"No, it's not" he says, sitting down with me, but keeping a safe distance. "I'm Jack Bara-" he gets interupted by the the school bell, making me laugh a little. I dont know him, or who he is, but atleast I've made one friend. "I'm Jack Barakat." he laughs again.
"I'm Jess" I laugh, "shouldn't we be getting going?" I say as I point over to the herds of people entering the school.
It was time for lunch, Jack had shown me around everywhere, but I still had to come to grips with it all, I haven't seen Drew all day, I hope he's alright. Since I had nothing to do, I went for a stroll through the music department, or whatever it's called here. I hadn't seen Jack since period two, so I've been alone half of the day. I just feel like playing some music you know? I thought about it, but instead I quickly turn around, accidently bumping into somebody.
"S-sorry!" I splurt out. I step back for a second. At first it looked like Jack, but then I thought 'what the fuck was Jack doing down the music department?'. Although, he looked really similar to Jack, except his face was fuller and he was slightly shorter, his hair was mousy brown, his eyes were darker than any others I have seen before. He didn't say anything to me though, he just flashed a little grin at me. I just walked past him quickly, I didn't even look back.
I throw my bag into my locker and made my way down the hall. I walked through the entrance of the cafeteria, looking around for the only two people I know, Jack or Drew. I saw Jack, but he was with two other boys and two girls. I decide to actually try to find my brother, who I haven't seen for almost 4 hours.
I slowly walk in, a few eyes on me, I just brushed it off, I couldn't care less of what they thought of me. Drew isn't to be seen anywhere, fuck him then. I guess I should just sit on Jacks table. He even noticed me before I got chance to sit down.
"Jess!" He shouts, I'm surprised he even remembered my name. His friends looking over, seeming confused. "You're sitting with us?" he asks as I smile back at him. I'm guessing he took it as a yes.
"Hey" I say quietly, sitting down.
"Guys, this is Jess, she's new, so, yeah, this is Rian and Zack, and these two, are Keirra and Cass." He says quickly, the boys are too busy in their conversation, but they nod at me anyway, Cass smiles the sweetest smile at me, shaking my hand and Keirra just grins and nods, nobody could manage to get a word in with this boy around, even if they tried, "Oh and Gaskarth should be here soon, too, he just sorting some shit down in the music department." he says quickly again, ignoring the fact they've carried on their own conversation again. "Actually, speak of the devil." Jack murmurs in my ear, smiling, keeping eye contact with the young man that was approaching our table.
"Barakat." He says, with a slight smile on his face, as he sits opposite us. "Er, who're you?" he says, throwing a glare at me, it was then when I realised it was the same boy I bumped into about fifteen minutes ago.
"Lex-" Jack says rolling his eyes at him.
"I'm Jess. You are?" I say, emotionless.
"Alex." he says whilst biting the straw of his drink. "You didn't even bother apologising earlier, you owe me." he says smiling, whilst leaning over the table, lowering his voice to a whisper.
Jack was watching us both, chewing on the left side of his lip, making himself look even more nervous. I turn back to Alex, smiling sarcastically before Jack gets any input. "Alex? It is Alex, right? You should've been looking where you was going, and what is that? Ribena, wow." I could hear Jack snigger to the left of me.
"So, er, Jess, how come you're friends with Jack?" He says, with a smug smirk plastered all over his face, making Jack's face suddenly drop and flush red.
"Lex, how about for a start, you actually gain some friends, then, you might be able to point fingers." Jack smirks, winking at his bestfriend across the table. I look away, laughing, but I still don't like Alex, he seems far too up his own arse, arrogant and that he thinks he can get every girl in the school, which, from what Jack has told me, he has. There was a lot of manlove going around here, thankfully, Drew noticed me and sprinted over, bumping into a few girls.
"Who's that?" Jack whispers in my ear, his soft voice was perfect to listen to. Alex didn't enjoy the fact me and Jack were growing closer by the minute, either.
"That's my big brother, Drew." I whisper back to Jack, Alex's head turns to join in on Zack and Rian's boring conversation about- I don't even know what they were talking about.
"I've been looking for you everywhere! Jess, for crying out loud." He splurts out at me whilst sitting down next to Alex, making him uncomfortable. "So, who's this?" he nods at Jack, smiling, then looking at me concerned, raising an eyebrow.
"It's Jack, er, met him earlier this morning-" I begin to speak, until Drew interupts me.
"I'm Drew, Jess' brother." he points out, "Ah ok, well, I'm going to have to go, I'll see you at home, yeah?" he says shrugging his shoulders, taking a sip of Alex's drink as he stands up from his seat, then he walks off quickly. I laugh at myself shaking my head.
"Alex, you looked scared for a moment then." Zack laughs at Alex. "You little pussy." I couldn't help but burst into laughter at Zacks little input. Jack began to laugh along with me and Rian, making Alex's face flush bright crimson.
"Aw, little 'Lex is scared of big bad Andrew." I tease, trying to hold back my amusement.
"I'm not scared of him!" he spits out, shaking his head. His deep brown, almost black, eyes ended up locking on mine when everyones individual conversations carried on. His eyes were beautiful, it's just a pity his arrogance hid it, it was almost like a battle for either of us to look away first. I didn't like him, I didn't even know him, or know anything about what he's going through.
"Do you smoke?" he stretches out his words, as if I was thick or something. He pulls a green lighter out of his jacket pocket and lights up his cigarrette.
"Yes, but I need to get to my lesson, though." I say, my eyebrows forced together, he realises where I'm from and a wide grin from ear to ear appears on his face.
"D-don't go." he says, pulling me back, biting on his bottom lip, then exhaling the smoke from the corner of his mouth afterwards. "You're new here aren't you?" he says quietly.
"I suppose you can say that, yeah" I respond, forcing out a weak smile. He was sweet, but I don't feel like getting involved with anyone at the moment anyway, I mean, I can tell he'll be a great friend.
"I'm guessing you don't have a fucking clue where you're first lesson actually is then?" he says laughing, before inhaling more of the cigarette. I automatically shake my head, he continues to speak, "I'll show you around if you'd like?" he finished the sentance with a small smile, while flicking his cigarette bud onto the floor.
I was kind of staring at the floor, then I ended up dragging my eyes up his body. Why was he staring at me like that? Was he waiting for my reaction? But he was smiling and chewing on his bottom lip again. "Yeah, of course, I mean, if it's not enough trouble." I shrug, looking down at my hands that were rested on my lap.
"No, it's not" he says, sitting down with me, but keeping a safe distance. "I'm Jack Bara-" he gets interupted by the the school bell, making me laugh a little. I dont know him, or who he is, but atleast I've made one friend. "I'm Jack Barakat." he laughs again.
"I'm Jess" I laugh, "shouldn't we be getting going?" I say as I point over to the herds of people entering the school.
It was time for lunch, Jack had shown me around everywhere, but I still had to come to grips with it all, I haven't seen Drew all day, I hope he's alright. Since I had nothing to do, I went for a stroll through the music department, or whatever it's called here. I hadn't seen Jack since period two, so I've been alone half of the day. I just feel like playing some music you know? I thought about it, but instead I quickly turn around, accidently bumping into somebody.
"S-sorry!" I splurt out. I step back for a second. At first it looked like Jack, but then I thought 'what the fuck was Jack doing down the music department?'. Although, he looked really similar to Jack, except his face was fuller and he was slightly shorter, his hair was mousy brown, his eyes were darker than any others I have seen before. He didn't say anything to me though, he just flashed a little grin at me. I just walked past him quickly, I didn't even look back.
I throw my bag into my locker and made my way down the hall. I walked through the entrance of the cafeteria, looking around for the only two people I know, Jack or Drew. I saw Jack, but he was with two other boys and two girls. I decide to actually try to find my brother, who I haven't seen for almost 4 hours.
I slowly walk in, a few eyes on me, I just brushed it off, I couldn't care less of what they thought of me. Drew isn't to be seen anywhere, fuck him then. I guess I should just sit on Jacks table. He even noticed me before I got chance to sit down.
"Jess!" He shouts, I'm surprised he even remembered my name. His friends looking over, seeming confused. "You're sitting with us?" he asks as I smile back at him. I'm guessing he took it as a yes.
"Hey" I say quietly, sitting down.
"Guys, this is Jess, she's new, so, yeah, this is Rian and Zack, and these two, are Keirra and Cass." He says quickly, the boys are too busy in their conversation, but they nod at me anyway, Cass smiles the sweetest smile at me, shaking my hand and Keirra just grins and nods, nobody could manage to get a word in with this boy around, even if they tried, "Oh and Gaskarth should be here soon, too, he just sorting some shit down in the music department." he says quickly again, ignoring the fact they've carried on their own conversation again. "Actually, speak of the devil." Jack murmurs in my ear, smiling, keeping eye contact with the young man that was approaching our table.
"Barakat." He says, with a slight smile on his face, as he sits opposite us. "Er, who're you?" he says, throwing a glare at me, it was then when I realised it was the same boy I bumped into about fifteen minutes ago.
"Lex-" Jack says rolling his eyes at him.
"I'm Jess. You are?" I say, emotionless.
"Alex." he says whilst biting the straw of his drink. "You didn't even bother apologising earlier, you owe me." he says smiling, whilst leaning over the table, lowering his voice to a whisper.
Jack was watching us both, chewing on the left side of his lip, making himself look even more nervous. I turn back to Alex, smiling sarcastically before Jack gets any input. "Alex? It is Alex, right? You should've been looking where you was going, and what is that? Ribena, wow." I could hear Jack snigger to the left of me.
"So, er, Jess, how come you're friends with Jack?" He says, with a smug smirk plastered all over his face, making Jack's face suddenly drop and flush red.
"Lex, how about for a start, you actually gain some friends, then, you might be able to point fingers." Jack smirks, winking at his bestfriend across the table. I look away, laughing, but I still don't like Alex, he seems far too up his own arse, arrogant and that he thinks he can get every girl in the school, which, from what Jack has told me, he has. There was a lot of manlove going around here, thankfully, Drew noticed me and sprinted over, bumping into a few girls.
"Who's that?" Jack whispers in my ear, his soft voice was perfect to listen to. Alex didn't enjoy the fact me and Jack were growing closer by the minute, either.
"That's my big brother, Drew." I whisper back to Jack, Alex's head turns to join in on Zack and Rian's boring conversation about- I don't even know what they were talking about.
"I've been looking for you everywhere! Jess, for crying out loud." He splurts out at me whilst sitting down next to Alex, making him uncomfortable. "So, who's this?" he nods at Jack, smiling, then looking at me concerned, raising an eyebrow.
"It's Jack, er, met him earlier this morning-" I begin to speak, until Drew interupts me.
"I'm Drew, Jess' brother." he points out, "Ah ok, well, I'm going to have to go, I'll see you at home, yeah?" he says shrugging his shoulders, taking a sip of Alex's drink as he stands up from his seat, then he walks off quickly. I laugh at myself shaking my head.
"Alex, you looked scared for a moment then." Zack laughs at Alex. "You little pussy." I couldn't help but burst into laughter at Zacks little input. Jack began to laugh along with me and Rian, making Alex's face flush bright crimson.
"Aw, little 'Lex is scared of big bad Andrew." I tease, trying to hold back my amusement.
"I'm not scared of him!" he spits out, shaking his head. His deep brown, almost black, eyes ended up locking on mine when everyones individual conversations carried on. His eyes were beautiful, it's just a pity his arrogance hid it, it was almost like a battle for either of us to look away first. I didn't like him, I didn't even know him, or know anything about what he's going through.
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