Worse Than Nicotine
A Lover on the Left, A Sinner on the Right
Chapter inspiration: Casual Affair ― Panic! At the Disco
A million thoughts were running in Holly’s head as she stood up and away from Alex. Everything seemed to play in slow motion: from her standing to Brendon’s mouth screaming to Holly hand pushing Brendon back as he went for Alex. Out of nowhere, it was as if someone hit the fast forward button.
“WHAT THE FUCK?!”
Holly’s hand clutched Brendon’s shirt tightly as she tried to push him back with all her muscle. She gritted her teeth, seething, “Brendon, calm down.”
His eyes still remained on Alex, who was pushing himself farther into the couch’s cushions. “Get off me, Holl.”
“You got it all wrong, okay?” Her voice was starting to form a shrill at her ex’s anger.
Brendon tried to free himself of Holly’s grip, but he forgot that the tiny blonde was actually strong as she held him back from the teacher. His eyes slowly slid to hers, and he lowered his voice, “Is he the guy you broke up with me for?”
Holly swallowed hard as she looked at her toes, finally releasing Brendon. Alex finally stood, putting his hand to calm Brendon down. “Listen, man―”
“DON’T YOU FUCKING TOUCH ME!” He swatted the teacher’s hand away, and finally looked in Holly’s direction. “He is, isn’t he?!” His dark eyes were fixated on her as he stepped closer, making her lift her chin to meet his angered eyes. He noticed that her cheeks were now tear-streaked, and he didn’t feel one ounce of guilt. “You ended it with me for a fucking teacher?!”
“HEY!” Alex slapped his hand away from Holly’s face, suddenly shielding her body. “Don’t touch her! And don’t you dare talk to her like that.”
Brendon went for Alex’s shirt collar. “Fine, then I’ll just go at you.”
“Hit me.” Alex gritted his teeth. “I dare you.”
“STOP IT!”
Both boys looked to Holly, and the girl soon pushed them away from each other, keeping her hand on Alex. “You’re acting immature. You could’ve at least heard me out about this, but you decided to start a fist fight.” She lectured, pointing at Brendon. “Besides, if you can get with Jasey after our breakup, then I can do the same thing.”
Brendon scoffed. “Don’t you realize how fucking different our situations are?”
“Stop that.”
“Stop what?”
She pointed an accusing finger at her ex and shook her head. “Stop acting like this. Stop making me feel awful for what I did. I broke up with you because I found someone else, and you let me go and did the same. We are not fucking different, Bren.”
“Actually, we are,” he added, “because last time I checked, I wasn’t dating a teacher.” He rubbed the back of his neck in frustration. “I swear to fucking god, I knew something was up …”
Alex sighed. “Listen, Brendon, why don’t we all just make up and―”
“I WILL NOT TALK TO YOU AS A FRIEND!” The ex-boyfriend grabbed for Alex again. “YOU STOLE MY FUCKING GIRLFRIEND!”
“BRENDON!” Holly’s eyes widened and she shoved him off of Alex with all the force she had.The ex almost tumbled to the ground. “WAKE THE FUCK UP AND STOP THIS!”
Brendon wiped under his nose, letting Holly know he was getting a nose bleed. He always got these when he got worked up. “I’ll tell the school board.”
Alex and Holly both went quiet. Alex was done with being an adult, he was ready to really hit Brendon, but Holly kept her hand on him to be ready to push him back. She narrowed her eyes as she muttered, “Excuse me?”
“I’ll tell the school board.” He repeated, more urgent this time. “I’ll tell my mom, who is the assistant education director.”
“You wouldn’t dare.” Alex growled.
“Try me.” Brendon intimidated.
They couldn’t do this terrorization technique anymore. At least Holly couldn’t, and she needed to get out of it the only way she could. Even though she was angry, she took a step forward to her ex with a soft expression on her face. “Bren,” she called softly, brushing her hand over his cheek and earning a glare from him. “Don’t … don’t do this.”
“And why shouldn’t I?”
She leaned in closer, just enough to be at his ear. “Because you still love me.”
He stayed silent.
“Promise you won’t say anything … because you still love me.” She continued, moving her eyes to his and seeing he was staring at her intently.
He took a moment to respond, and then he finally murmured, “Fine.”
Holly stopped him by grabbing his shoulder and stared him down. “Promise?”
He rubbed at the blood that dripped from his nostrils and bent down to grab his bag, which Holly noticed he had dropped. He looked deep into her eyes, glancing between each one before saying, “Promise.”
A million thoughts were running in Holly’s head as she stood up and away from Alex. Everything seemed to play in slow motion: from her standing to Brendon’s mouth screaming to Holly hand pushing Brendon back as he went for Alex. Out of nowhere, it was as if someone hit the fast forward button.
“WHAT THE FUCK?!”
Holly’s hand clutched Brendon’s shirt tightly as she tried to push him back with all her muscle. She gritted her teeth, seething, “Brendon, calm down.”
His eyes still remained on Alex, who was pushing himself farther into the couch’s cushions. “Get off me, Holl.”
“You got it all wrong, okay?” Her voice was starting to form a shrill at her ex’s anger.
Brendon tried to free himself of Holly’s grip, but he forgot that the tiny blonde was actually strong as she held him back from the teacher. His eyes slowly slid to hers, and he lowered his voice, “Is he the guy you broke up with me for?”
Holly swallowed hard as she looked at her toes, finally releasing Brendon. Alex finally stood, putting his hand to calm Brendon down. “Listen, man―”
“DON’T YOU FUCKING TOUCH ME!” He swatted the teacher’s hand away, and finally looked in Holly’s direction. “He is, isn’t he?!” His dark eyes were fixated on her as he stepped closer, making her lift her chin to meet his angered eyes. He noticed that her cheeks were now tear-streaked, and he didn’t feel one ounce of guilt. “You ended it with me for a fucking teacher?!”
“HEY!” Alex slapped his hand away from Holly’s face, suddenly shielding her body. “Don’t touch her! And don’t you dare talk to her like that.”
Brendon went for Alex’s shirt collar. “Fine, then I’ll just go at you.”
“Hit me.” Alex gritted his teeth. “I dare you.”
“STOP IT!”
Both boys looked to Holly, and the girl soon pushed them away from each other, keeping her hand on Alex. “You’re acting immature. You could’ve at least heard me out about this, but you decided to start a fist fight.” She lectured, pointing at Brendon. “Besides, if you can get with Jasey after our breakup, then I can do the same thing.”
Brendon scoffed. “Don’t you realize how fucking different our situations are?”
“Stop that.”
“Stop what?”
She pointed an accusing finger at her ex and shook her head. “Stop acting like this. Stop making me feel awful for what I did. I broke up with you because I found someone else, and you let me go and did the same. We are not fucking different, Bren.”
“Actually, we are,” he added, “because last time I checked, I wasn’t dating a teacher.” He rubbed the back of his neck in frustration. “I swear to fucking god, I knew something was up …”
Alex sighed. “Listen, Brendon, why don’t we all just make up and―”
“I WILL NOT TALK TO YOU AS A FRIEND!” The ex-boyfriend grabbed for Alex again. “YOU STOLE MY FUCKING GIRLFRIEND!”
“BRENDON!” Holly’s eyes widened and she shoved him off of Alex with all the force she had.The ex almost tumbled to the ground. “WAKE THE FUCK UP AND STOP THIS!”
Brendon wiped under his nose, letting Holly know he was getting a nose bleed. He always got these when he got worked up. “I’ll tell the school board.”
Alex and Holly both went quiet. Alex was done with being an adult, he was ready to really hit Brendon, but Holly kept her hand on him to be ready to push him back. She narrowed her eyes as she muttered, “Excuse me?”
“I’ll tell the school board.” He repeated, more urgent this time. “I’ll tell my mom, who is the assistant education director.”
“You wouldn’t dare.” Alex growled.
“Try me.” Brendon intimidated.
They couldn’t do this terrorization technique anymore. At least Holly couldn’t, and she needed to get out of it the only way she could. Even though she was angry, she took a step forward to her ex with a soft expression on her face. “Bren,” she called softly, brushing her hand over his cheek and earning a glare from him. “Don’t … don’t do this.”
“And why shouldn’t I?”
She leaned in closer, just enough to be at his ear. “Because you still love me.”
He stayed silent.
“Promise you won’t say anything … because you still love me.” She continued, moving her eyes to his and seeing he was staring at her intently.
He took a moment to respond, and then he finally murmured, “Fine.”
Holly stopped him by grabbing his shoulder and stared him down. “Promise?”
He rubbed at the blood that dripped from his nostrils and bent down to grab his bag, which Holly noticed he had dropped. He looked deep into her eyes, glancing between each one before saying, “Promise.”
Notes
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