"Ugh fuck" Alex moaned as he opened his eyes to the harsh sunlight coming through the windows, swinging his legs round the side of the bed Alex felt his stomach turn which caused him to run to the bathroom and empty his stomach from last night. Suddenly last night came back to him, Jack being upset, Tay, kissing John, running and falling; Alex looked up in the mirror and grimaced at his face, his cheek was scraped, a few cuts above his eyebrow and the blood was dried into his skin. Running the hot water he hissed as he attempted to clean the cuts on his face once that was done he shut the curtains and crawled back into the bed hoping that no one was in the house. Alex had been lying in bed all day refusing to leave the safety of the blankets and face the problems that waiting just outside the bedroom door, the fact was he was scared, scared that Jack would leave him or that Rian and Zack would hurt him. So instead he lay under the covers and thought about last night torturing himself over his stupid ass decision to kiss John back, knowing that he could have pushed John away when he kissed him made it a million times worse because even though he was drunk he knew what was happening. Jack and Zack came in a few times to probably see if he was awake but Alex screwed his eyes shut and tried to make it sound as if he was asleep, Zack more than likely bought it but he wasn't sure about Jack since they slept in the same bed, either way he didn't let on that Alex wasn't really sleeping. He lay in bed feeling sorry for himself as he tried to hold back tears and keep the guilt to a minimum but it wasn't working all Alex wanted to do was curl into a ball and sleep. The only time Alex left the bed was to use the bathroom, he decided to check his phone and saw he had over 12 messages all from John saying the exact same thing.
Alex I'm sorry about last night but I'm confused can you please call or text me so we can talk?
Alex threw the phone away from him so it hit the wall and no doubt cracked the screen, he felt tears rolling down his cheeks which made him more angry he didn't want to cry! Alex heard shuffling outside the door and then someone walked in as Alex sat on the bed his face hidden by his hands.
"Alex?" He lifted his head up and saw Zack standing there with a worried look on his face, he walked over and pulled Alex into a hug which made Alex cry harder.
"Shh Alex what's wrong?" Zack asked softly running a hand up and down his back trying to calm his friend down.
"I-I did something t-terrible" Alex sobbed looking at Zack with a desperate expression and he saw concern in Zack's eyes.
"Alex did you get a girl knocked up?" Zack joked and Alex smiled slightly at his friend before it faded.
"Zack if I-I tell you promise me you won't tell anyone not e-even Rian" Alex said gripping onto his t-shirt while Zack nodded still rubbing a hand on Alex's back.
"I-I kissed a guy last night and I didn't stop him! I knew what was happening and who it was but I didn't push him off me!" Alex said going back to sobbing.
"Alex" Zack sighed pulling his friend closer as he let him cry, he knew what Alex had done was wrong on so many different levels and it would be best to tell Jack the truth but he didn't know what would happen between the two of them. He didn't want to see his best friend hurting but he didn't want to be stuck in the middle or be the cause of them breaking up.
"Alex listen to me, you have to tell Jack the truth, it is not fair on you because of the guilt and it's not fair on Jack to lie to him. I know it will be hard but you owe him the truth Alex, he loves you and I know you will both work it out" Zack said giving Alex a tight hug before walking out the bedroom,
"Zack?" Alex asked before his friend disappeared and he watched Zack turn around to look at him
" Can you ask Jack to come here, please" Alex said quietly trying to brace himself, Zack gave him a short nod and then a few minutes later Jack was in his arms hugging him.
"Are you okay? Lex your face! What happened last night? Why are you crying?" Jack rushed out as fresh tears started in his eyes and his vision went blurry.
"I'm so sorry Jack" Alex whispered hugging Jack.
"Wh-" Jack started but Alex stopped him because he knew if Jack started talking he wouldn't be able to tell him the truth.
"I ki-" But Alex was stopped by Zack as he walked into the room holding the house phone.
"Alex! Some guy's on the phone for you" Zack said frowning as he handed the phone to Alex and Jack looked at him confused.
"Hello?" He asked already knowing that it was John
"Alex look what happened last night can we just talk about it please? I don't understand what I done to make you run away! You kissed me back so now I'm confused" John said down the phone and Alex sighed walking out onto the veranda not wanting Jack to hear him.
"John I'm sorry I mean I find you amazing, funny and kind but that kiss can't mean anything between us because I already have a boyfriend" Alex said and all he could hear was John's light breathing down the phone.
"You kissed me back Alex! Your boyfriend can't mean that much if you had your tongue down my throat" John said and Alex knew he was getting angry.
"I know I kissed you back John and I shouldn't have because it wasn't fair to led you on but don't you ever tell me my boyfriend doesn't mean anything to me! He has been there for me through a lot of things that I wouldn't have been able to do by myself. I'm sorry for last night as well ok? I was drunk and I couldn't figure out my feeling towards you" Alex said loudly and waited for John to say something.
"So you do have feelings for me" He heard John say and Alex sighed before saying
"I'll see you later" And hung up, he turned round and saw Jack standing there at the door way Zack a few steps behind him with a hand on his shoulder, he was crying and was shaking his head.
"You kissed someone else?" Jack asked not wanting to believe the conversation he had just heard from Alex and the guy on the phone, he wanted to wake up and have Alex in his arms and joke about what a stupid dream he had but no this really was happening.
"Jack" Alex said taking a step forward but the boy took a step back away from him not wanting Alex to touch him.
"Please Alex, please tell me you didn't" Jack whispered and that frightened Alex even more he would have preferred Jack to scream at him or something.
"Jack I'm so sorry" Was all Alex could say and he watched numb as Jack nodded still crying turned away from him
"JACK! Please I'm so fucking sorry! It didn't mean anything I swear! JACK!" Alex screamed but he watched as he ignored him and walked out the house leaving him staring at the door and Zack pulling him into a hug.