Bite the Bullet

-Jack’s Point of View-

“W-What are you doing here?” I said, “This is Brenna’s party! Why would you be here?”
He shrugged, “You already said why with one word; Party.”
“But you.. you kissed me! Thats not.. You’re Alex!”
“You already said that once loser. The Drink does that to people, its nothing personal. See ya later kid” he said getting up -more like staggering up- and leaving the room.
I sat there on the bed, dumbfounded.
How do this happened? And why would it have to happen to me!
Maybe the whole world didn’t know I was gay at this moment, but with Alexander William fucking Gaskarth knowing 100% that I was “one of those homosexuals”, the world would soon be updated. Just give it an hour or two.. I know how fast he works, especially with people he doesn't like.
I heard that there was this girl he fought with who messed up his old car once, and boy did she get it! It was only a scratch too, but he found a way to pin something on her and she ended up getting suspended with half the school hating her guts.
I grimaced, remembering the incident with his car yesterday. The odds were not in my favorite to go unnoticed now.
He had been making my life miserable as it is, I didn’t want it to get worse.
If I had been thinking a little more, running after Alex and trying to make a deal with him would be stupid. It’d be worse than stupid; It’d be idiotic, insane, and totally not worth it. High School didn’t last forever, I could deal with a little bad rep and hate for being gay. If I had been thinking a little more, I wouldn’t have sprinted down those steps and flung open Brenna’s front door.
But when have I been known for thinking?
“Alex! Aleeeeeex!” I screamed, trying to catch up with his rather fast moving body.
I wiped at my face with the sleeve of my hoodie, gathering some of the rain that was falling in my eyes. I kept running, but he kept walking down the sidewalk.
Apparently he had come without his car.
“Alex please! Wait!” I yelled, even though the rain was getting harder and beginning to drown out my voice.
He stopped, whirling around to glare at me before his look turning to shock, seeing as I almost ran into him.
“What do you want fag?” he seethed and however much I didn’t want to be in this situation with him, I spoke anyways.
“I’m just.. I have to ask a favor. Please, Pleeeease don’t tell everyone that I’m gay. Please stop trying to make me miserable. Please just let me go back to watching from the shadows and let me go unbothered. I won't get in your way, I just want to be left alone” I pleaded, fully aware how desperate my voice sounded.
He let out a cruel laugh, one that reminded me bullies can’t be bargained with.
“And why would I do that? You don’t understand how this works.. Jack” he sneered, “I’m everything, and you’re nothing. See? Easy as that. You can’t me ask for favors, especially not ones like that. I have no intentions of leaving you alone, especially not now”
My mouth was hanging wide open as he began to walk away. My mind raced, this couldn’t be happening. I had to change his mind.
“Wait! I’ll tell! I’ll tell everyone that you kissed me and that you’re gay!” I called, causing him to laugh again. I balled my hands up into fists out of frustration.
“And no one would believe you! As I said, you’re nothing! Literally worthless to the world! No one would take your word over mine, and you’d just bring more trouble on yourself”
I felt tears start to run down my face, even though they were washed away by the rain.
“Alex! Please, I’ll do anything! ANYTHING!” I cried out, not thinking he’d hold me to my desperate pleas.
He turned slowly, “And what would you be able to give me?”
My mind churned and I said the stupidest thing in my life, “You’re gay. I’m gay. You didn’t mind kissing me last night, and you’ve got leverage over me. I couldn’t go blabbing. Whenever you needed to be a little gay, you could come to me. I would be your secret gay friend with benefits… Minus the friend part. We’d act normal at school, maybe you’d even ignore me completely. No one would know, and you’d finally be able to act on your sexuality”.
I gasped a little for air at the end of my lengthy explanation. Honestly it surprised me he hadn’t turned away mid-way through my little plan, or laughed at it.
But instead, he just stood there, scrutinizing me.
I waited, out of breath, forced to imagine my horrendous appearance that he was observing.
I was still in the rumpled clothes from yesterday, my hair unbrushed and dripping hairspray and water from the rain. I was soaked to the bone and lightly shivering in the breeze. My eyes probably had dark circles and I could tell my face was pale with the horror of what could come from this, no matter which option he chose.
“Fine” he said shorty, “Give me your phone number”
I quickly recited the digits for him, waiting to be told his in return. I looked at him expectantly.
“I”ll text you when I need you” he called over his shoulder.
“O-Okay” I said, a slight stutter finally coming out.
“Oh and Jack?” he said, turning back to look me in the eye, “If you tell a single soul, you’re dead”.
I gulped and nodded.
I had just made a deal with the devil.

Notes

Title Cred: Forget about It by All Time Low
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