I Knew You Were Trouble
Chapter 11
Sometimes I want to pause life. I believe whoever controls life has this giant remote and you can wish they would pause it. When you get to a point where everything is wonderful. Nothing can tear you down. You feel as though you're on a never ending high. Life is just the best. That's what I feel like sitting on the roof of the apartment building my mother and brother live in. It's a starry night and I can't help but sit here and wonder.Not about anything specific.Just wonder.
"You're missing the party " said a familiar voice from behind.
"I just wanted to look at the stars"
"I don't blame you at all. You're parents are just ogling over Willow"
"Surprising. Now why are you up here?"
"I had two days to coo over the baby. I guess the guys are just the opposite"
"Fair enough"
By now Jack had found his way seated next to me.For a while we sat silently staring at the stars. It feels different. From sitting alone to sitting next to Jack. It just changed.
"Stars are like friends; there's always some around,you just need to find your favorite one"
"That's brilliant. Where'd you find it?" I asked curiously. "Alex will stay up really late and text me all these random facts about the stars and moon. One day that was what he texted me, and I suddenly remembered it"
"Alex would be a good astronomer if the band doesn't work. But considering how perfectly amazing you guys are I doubt he'll even have to consider it"
" Oh you're too kind" he said and we laughed a little.
His once smiling face fell flat in little time. "Have you ever?" he started to stay then stopped. Obviously thinking of how to word what he was going to say. "Have you ever been with someone, but wanted to cut it off with them, and you didn't because you didn't want them thinking you were leaving them for someone else?"
I thought long and hard. I've had one boyfriend before in 9th grade. I got with him because I thought I liked him. Eventually I wanted to call it off because I just wasn't into him anymore. Instead I was falling for the new guy that all the girls were drooling over. I just never thought that he thought I was dumping him for someone else. "No. I haven't" his face fell even more when I said that. "But I think you should break it off, and wait a little bit before asking this girl out" I suggested. "What if she asks me why and I have no real reason?"
"People loose interest in each other after a while. That should be enough reason, and if not maybe she wasn't worth it to begin with"
We sat together silently for a while longer until he asked, "Are you going with anyone to prom?"
I was slightly confused why he was asking. If he had a girlfriend isn't it kind of an unspoken rule that you're already going together? I forget the thought and answer anyway,"No"
Then I thought back to who could it be that he wants to dump Holly for? Most definitely not me. "Who is it you were thinking of dumping Holly for?"
Jack just looked at me sort of shocked that I'd even asked. "Well she's umm very pretty. Tall and long hair.Her eyes are gorgeous, you could get lost looking in them. Her personality is light, funny,smart, definitely a badass. She looks good in everything she wears. My definition of perfect" And who is Jack's definition of perfect? I was kind of sad knowing he thinks of someone else as his definition of perfect.
He then leaned in and whispered in my ear "Wanna know who that is?"
I nodded still looking away from him. His breath hit my ear like he was going to say something until I heard the door to the roof open. "Jack, Elaina,you guy's up here?" came Alex's voice. Jack and I decided not to answer over a silent discussion of mouthing words at each other in the dim moonlight. We then heard the door closed and both let out the air we were holding. We sat there a second before I said "What were you saying". Then he we were back where we were before Alex interrupted. I was starring at the stars and Jack was whispering in my ear. "I asked if you wanted to know who my definition of perfect was. You said yes. I was just going to tell you" then he stopped. "It's you"
My world stopped. It really did feel like it was on pause.
Then someone pressed play, and I realized he's still dating Holly.
"You're still dating Holly" I stated. "Yes. But I'd rather have you"
This is going to sound bad, but..."When you brake up with Holly give it time. Then see if Im still interested".
I didn't wait and see his reaction. I ran. Again.
Instead of running away to a pond to put out the fire on my hands, I went to my mothers apartment and joined in on the adoration of Willow. I put on a happy face and tried to forget all of what just happened.
"You're missing the party " said a familiar voice from behind.
"I just wanted to look at the stars"
"I don't blame you at all. You're parents are just ogling over Willow"
"Surprising. Now why are you up here?"
"I had two days to coo over the baby. I guess the guys are just the opposite"
"Fair enough"
By now Jack had found his way seated next to me.For a while we sat silently staring at the stars. It feels different. From sitting alone to sitting next to Jack. It just changed.
"Stars are like friends; there's always some around,you just need to find your favorite one"
"That's brilliant. Where'd you find it?" I asked curiously. "Alex will stay up really late and text me all these random facts about the stars and moon. One day that was what he texted me, and I suddenly remembered it"
"Alex would be a good astronomer if the band doesn't work. But considering how perfectly amazing you guys are I doubt he'll even have to consider it"
" Oh you're too kind" he said and we laughed a little.
His once smiling face fell flat in little time. "Have you ever?" he started to stay then stopped. Obviously thinking of how to word what he was going to say. "Have you ever been with someone, but wanted to cut it off with them, and you didn't because you didn't want them thinking you were leaving them for someone else?"
I thought long and hard. I've had one boyfriend before in 9th grade. I got with him because I thought I liked him. Eventually I wanted to call it off because I just wasn't into him anymore. Instead I was falling for the new guy that all the girls were drooling over. I just never thought that he thought I was dumping him for someone else. "No. I haven't" his face fell even more when I said that. "But I think you should break it off, and wait a little bit before asking this girl out" I suggested. "What if she asks me why and I have no real reason?"
"People loose interest in each other after a while. That should be enough reason, and if not maybe she wasn't worth it to begin with"
We sat together silently for a while longer until he asked, "Are you going with anyone to prom?"
I was slightly confused why he was asking. If he had a girlfriend isn't it kind of an unspoken rule that you're already going together? I forget the thought and answer anyway,"No"
Then I thought back to who could it be that he wants to dump Holly for? Most definitely not me. "Who is it you were thinking of dumping Holly for?"
Jack just looked at me sort of shocked that I'd even asked. "Well she's umm very pretty. Tall and long hair.Her eyes are gorgeous, you could get lost looking in them. Her personality is light, funny,smart, definitely a badass. She looks good in everything she wears. My definition of perfect" And who is Jack's definition of perfect? I was kind of sad knowing he thinks of someone else as his definition of perfect.
He then leaned in and whispered in my ear "Wanna know who that is?"
I nodded still looking away from him. His breath hit my ear like he was going to say something until I heard the door to the roof open. "Jack, Elaina,you guy's up here?" came Alex's voice. Jack and I decided not to answer over a silent discussion of mouthing words at each other in the dim moonlight. We then heard the door closed and both let out the air we were holding. We sat there a second before I said "What were you saying". Then he we were back where we were before Alex interrupted. I was starring at the stars and Jack was whispering in my ear. "I asked if you wanted to know who my definition of perfect was. You said yes. I was just going to tell you" then he stopped. "It's you"
My world stopped. It really did feel like it was on pause.
Then someone pressed play, and I realized he's still dating Holly.
"You're still dating Holly" I stated. "Yes. But I'd rather have you"
This is going to sound bad, but..."When you brake up with Holly give it time. Then see if Im still interested".
I didn't wait and see his reaction. I ran. Again.
Instead of running away to a pond to put out the fire on my hands, I went to my mothers apartment and joined in on the adoration of Willow. I put on a happy face and tried to forget all of what just happened.
Notes
I have a week off from school and so much time to do nothing. So If anyone would be interested in a sequel please tell me with some ideas. There's not a whole lot left in this story. So if I get at least 5-10 comments saying I should write a sequel. I'll do it. Otherwise I'll rewrite some old stories and post them. Keep calm and Read On. Lovely day/night to you allhttp://www.polyvore.com/chapter_11/set?id=72888092
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