“Alex save me.” I moan into the phone as my eyes scan over centerpiece after centerpiece, barely registering each one.

Alex chuckles on the other line, the sound filling my ears. “Aren’t girls supposed to be obsessed with this stuff? Isn’t that why guys are never involved?”

I roll my eyes. “Well I fucking hate this. I’ve been here for like a solid two hours! Cass left me after 20 minutes. This shit is not like the movies and the flower smell is hurting my nose.”

“Take a break then, come over and we can hang.”

I smile and turn away from the table in front of me, already making a beeline for the exit. A few salesladies question me, wondering where I’m going, if I need help finding the right centerpiece for my wedding, but I don’t pay attention to them or to that word.

Recently, although it’s been about a month since Daniel’s asked me to marry him, every time I hear the word wedding I want to vomit. My stomach churns and my throat closes up and I feel like I can’t breathe. I have no other explanation for this feeling except for nerves. Maybe I’m just getting cold feet. And of course I have every reason to. I mean this is Daniel and he did break my heart once, so who’s to say he won’t do it again?

Alex and I have also gotten closer over the past month. At first, it was a little awkward with the proposal, but somehow we managed to work past it. It started with a few phone calls here and there when Jack would leave town to go see his girlfriend Annabelle in Boston, but soon it changed from Alex and I just talking on the phone to Alex and I hanging out and becoming almost inseparable. We never talk about Kelsey and to be honest I’m not even sure if they’re still together, and I really don’t care. I’m just grateful that I have Alex back in my life. I don’t know if I would be able to handle all this planning and stress without him.

So as I pull up to his house, I notice that Jack isn’t home, of course, and when I push open the door, I can hear the faint sounds of Alex singing, a new song in the works.

“Hey,” Alex says, a smile on his face as he brushes hair out of his eyes. “You finally got here.”

I roll my eyes and toss him a bag of gummy bears. “For you.” I say as I plop down next to him, leaning over to sneak a peek at the lyrics in his notebook.

“Nope, back off you can’t look.” He shoves me away and I try to fight back, putting all my weight into it, but I’m still small and weak and Alex pushes me down onto the floor, tickling my sides.

I squeal, kicking and squirming as I try to get out of his grasp. In the end, we make a huge mess, knocking over the entire pile of papers on the bed and somehow landing on the floor where Alex is hovering over me, a mischievous smile on his face. I don’t comment on his closeness and neither does he. I’m afraid to ruin the moment. But I can see Alex’s eyes searching my face and I wonder what he sees when he looks at me. I wonder if he feels all the disappointment I’ve caused him everytime he sees me or if I still make him as happy as he makes me.

Just as I’m about to ask him one of these questions, I feel his lips crash down onto mine. I feel a small gasp escape my lips and I close my eyes, pushing them back onto his. All I can think of is how the softness of his lips feel like home and how they fit perfectly into mine. I lift my hands and runs them through his hair, gently pulling at it. Alex moans into my mouth and I shiver as he trails his fingers up and down my side, gently lifting my shirt higher and higher.

We slowly move from the floor to his bed and as I help him pull of his shirt, we pause, both of us slightly unsure if we’re really willing to go through with this. But Alex kisses me again and my stomach erupts in butterflies and I know that I want this, even if it’s just one time. So when he hovers over me quietly murmuring in my ear if I’m sure, I gasp out a yes and when he pushes into me I can’t control the sigh of pleasure that escapes me.

I wrap my legs around him as he gently thrusts into me, both of us moaning loudly into our kisses. And when we finally release in union, I lean forward and kiss Alex softly, letting my lips linger on his for a while, letting our breath mingle with each other before he silently lays down next to me and folds me into his arms. And even though we’ve finished, we can’t seem to stop touching or kissing each other. My lips find his hands and fingers and his find my shoulders.

We lay together in silence for a while, not moving, just enjoying each other's company and thinking about what just happened. It’s not until my phone rings for the third time in thirty minutes do I decide that it’s time to go. Thinking that Alex is asleep, I quietly release myself from his warm embrace and pull on my panties, while searching for my dress. And it’s not until I’m done getting dressed that I realize Alex is awake when he speaks up. “Why are you marrying him?”

I reach over and run my fingers through his hair again, loving the way it feels between my fingers. And then I smile and lean over to kiss him before leaving, never responding to Alex’s question.

Notes

okay so first of all i'm SO SORRY that this took so long. i don't know what happened to me these past two weeks but i just like disappeared for a while and i'm really sorry about that. secondly i also want to apologize because this chapter isn't too great and it was supposed to be longer but today is the first day that i've had off in a while and i'm not sure if i would've had time to add to it so i just updated now. so forgive me that this chapter is subpar. i would also like to tell you guys that the story is coming to an end soon and i know i said this like ten chapter ago but im serious this time it's almost done and i don't think i'll be writing a sequel. okay so that's it comments are appreciated! I LOVE THEM SO MUCH YOU GUYS ARE ABSOLUTELY AMAZING AND WONDERFUL like seriously whe i first started writing this i didn't think anyone was going to read it but you guys are lovely