Who Said It Was Gonna Be Easy?

Before we set off, I texted my mum to let her know I was coming.


"of course you can come round, honey! I'll stick some extra veg and potatoes in. What do we owe this unexpected visit?"


"I'm actually bringing my boyfriend over, I want you to meet him"


"it'd be my pleasure! We'd love to meet him but your dad's away on a business trip so its just me"

"okay, let's go. It's like an hours journey, is that ok?" I asked Alex.

"mhmm. As long as you play good music"

"I can do that" I grinned, then started the car.


After driving for just over an hour, we arrived at my parents house. "ready for this?"

"yeah, I guess so" he smiled and I could tell he was nervous.

"you'll be fine, baby. They'll love you" I told him firmly.

We got out of the car and I took his hand in mine, pulling him close to me.

"they'll love you, I promise" I reassured him and gave him a quick kiss. He nodded and swallowed anxiously. I led him up the path to my parents house and rang the doorbell.

My mum answered the door and greeted me cheerily, pulling me in for a tight hug.

"jack, honey, it's been a while!" she beamed as she let go of me.

"yeah, it has. Mum, this is my boyfriend, Alex. Alex, this is my mum" I introduced Alex to her. He smiled nervously as she beamed at him. She then pulled him in for a tight hug as well.

"come in, come in!" she said cheerily, bustling us through the door.

"cmon lex" I grinned as I took his hand and led him to the kitchen where my mum was putting the kettle on.

"so, Alex, tell me about yourself!"

"um..I..don't know what to say" Alex looked at me for help.

"Alex is 18, he lives with his grandma, he likes bands and he plays the guitar, although I've not heard him yet"

"how did you guys meet?"

"I actually started teaching Alex a couple of months ago and we just got talking"

"jack!" Alex muttered in a panic.

"it's okay, baby" I told him, shooting him a smile and taking his hand again, resting our hands in my lap.

"you're his teacher? Are there no rules against it or are you just breaking them?"

"no, we're breaking them"

"good for you guys!" she exclaimed.

After a couple of hours of catching up and my mum getting to know Alex, tea was ready.

"are you two staying the night? It's no problem if you want to. The spare rooms all made up already"

"I don't know, Alex, it's up to you"

"sure, I don't mind" he smiled.

"I don't really want you driving in the dark, jack. I know you're a careful driver, but other people aren't and I don't want to let you and Alex be put at risk"

"we can stay the night, sure" I told her. She smiled and returned to dishing tea up.


We sat down at the table and all ate a full meal, even Alex. After we'd eaten, we all sat and watched some tv. Alex was snuggled up to me, my arms around him, my chin resting on his head.

"I'm just going to the bathroom a minute" Alex told me suddenly. I nodded and let him out of my arms.


He returned a few minutes later and settled back down against my chest.

"you okay?"

"mm..I've just been sick but I'm fine" Alex told me, his face guilty.

"oh no, are you coming down with something, honey?" my mum interjected.

"hm..maybe, I dunno" he answered. He snuggled closer to me and I kissed him on the head softly. When I next looked at him his eyes were closed. I sighed to myself.

"I definitely don't want you driving whilst poor Alex isn't feeling well"

"nah, he's okay. It's fine though, we can stay"

"jack, he's been sick, he's obviously not fine, he must be getting ill"

"trust me, he's fine"

"he's clearly not though, is he?"

"mum, he made himself be sick, ok?!"

"he-he did what?"

"Alex is bulimic, mum. He didn't want you to know, he's kind of ashamed of it. He thought you wouldn't like him if you knew"

"that's ridiculous! We love Alex already! He makes you happy and that's all we need to know"

"I know but.." I shrugged.

"why does he do it, the poor thing?"

"he does it because he thinks he's fat but I think there's another reason that he's not told me"

"why do you say that?"

"because..he self harms as well and he's not told me the reason why he does that" silence fell over us for a few minutes and Alex shifted slightly in his sleep.

"he'll stop sooner or later, don't worry about it too much"

"why will he?"

"jack, sweetie, it's amazing the extent people will go to if they love somebody"

"if they love somebody?"

"Alex loves you. It's almost as obvious as the fact that you love him"

"I-I-I..uhh"

"don't deny it, honey. It's obvious. I can tell from the look in your eyes when you look at him"

"do you think he's noticed it?"

"have you not told him yet?"

"no..I don't want to frighten him. It's still early days for us"

"tell him. He loves you too"

"do you think so?"

"I know it. You should just tell him"

"mum..honestly, do you not think it's weird that I'm his teacher?"

"well..I admit it's a little strange but if you're happy with each other then you don't need to give a damn about what anybody else thinks. You love each other and that's all that matters"

"true I guess. I'm just scared that one day he'll get sick of everyones negative opinions on our relationship and decide I'm not worth it. Not that anybody really knows yet but"

"jack, he won't do that. He loves you too much and you love him too much. I haven't seen that twinkle in your eyes since you were with..HIM..and it's stronger this time"

"yeah, I suppose so. Thank you, mum"

"no problem, honey. If you ever want any help with helping Alex, just come down, okay?"

"I know, I will do. I think I'm going to go to bed now, Alex clearly needs it"

"sure thing" she smiled. I shook Alex gently and he opened his eyes, looking at me sleepily.

"come on, baby. We're going to go to bed now" he hummed a reply before we got up.

"night, mum"

"goodnight, mrs barakat" Alex said shyly. I took his hand and led him out of the room and upstairs to the spare room which used to be my old bedroom. He lay down on my bed and closed his eyes again, ready for sleep to wash over him again and pull him under.

Notes

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