I could feel there eyes burning into my shirt, I mean I was never really into football but I knew they were Raven fans and they didn't particularly like the Steelers but Kyle bought this for me a few weeks ago when he went to a game an d I mean, it was comfortable and it really made me miss home a bit less.

They were walking behind me, trailing behind me and talking in hushed voices, making me more paranoid. But I felt a bit better when Zack joined me at my side, it totally boggled my mind how him and Katie fell out a few years ago. They were so perfect, I mean they literally are perfect for each other but he nor her told me what happened, and after awhile I stopped asking because it seemed to hurt them both when I did.

I remember when I introduced them to each other, it was like they had both died and gone to heaven because Katie nor Zack could stop blushing and I mean they both looked like those really good tomatos that my grandmother used to grow.

"Steelers huh?" He asked, in a betrayed voice and I laughed.

"Seriously, he got it for me a few months ago and I miss him, do you blame me?" I asked, and he laughed. But it seemed for a seconded the smile was fake, he was playing with something on his wrist but he man-boobs were in the way. Damn muscular men.

"Nah, I'm just joking" He asked and I smiled up at him. "So are you excited for this week?"

"I mean I am, but I worried for what could happen if I got drunk because I could be in the same room as Jack or even worse Alex"

"Wow, I think you screwed that up should it be 'or even worse Jack' - I mean he is the one with pretty much ever decease" Zack joked and I nodded.

"But if I cheated on Kyle with Alex, I think the world would end because Kyle knows about the time I kissed Alex in Rian's basement" I explained and Zack nodded in realization.

"That kiss"

"I really don't want to talk about it anymore"

"Fair enough, has Kyle called or texted you yet?" Zack asked, wiggling his eye brows in a suggestive manner and I laughed a bit.

"No, i'm kind of worried to be honest" I stated, cracking my knuckles in paranoia.

"Why are you worried?"

"What if he finds someone else while I'm gone?" I asked, in a high pitchy voice that I got when I was nervous.

"Sophie are you serious? He proposed to you! You really think that he would do that?" Zack asked, and I shrugged. I bit my lip, hid behind my bands and scratched my arm. "Sophie, is there something you're not telling me?"

"What? No, what makes you think that?" I asked, laughing and smiling.

"You're scratching your arm and biting your lip, meaning your nervous" Zack explained, I went to interject but- "And you hid behind your hair"

"Can we talk about this later?" I asked, feeling my head get hot and finding ourself in front of Subway.

"Sure, why don't we go to coffee tomorrow morning?" Zack asked and I nodded. He pulled me into another hug and this one was different from his welcoming one because I felt him breathe out a breath of worry before letting go.

"You guys go inside, I'm just going to call Kyle" I said, Alex looked at me, his brown eyes seemed too look at me differently and I raised my eye brow at him "Order for me?"

That made his eyes brighten up, considering he knew what I got everytime because I absolutely loved Subway more than anything.

"Extra cheese?" he asked and I winked a him before I turned to take my phone out. I found Kyle's name and tapped call before pressing the phone to the side of my face.

Hello this is Kyle C. I'm not able to answer the phone at this moment and if you wish to leave a message, leave one after the tone and I'll get back to you.

"Uh Hey babe, call me back when you get this"

I sighed, I felt really insecure at this moment but I'm going to push it back about talking about it for as long as I can. I can't take feeling that hurt again and I mean I think I would get so judged if people knew. I began scratching my arm again, walking into the Subway and sitting down, just before Alex had came to sit with both our Subs. He then took it out of the bag and handed it to me.

"Thanks, I'll pay you back later" I said, flatly and clearly dissapointed.

"Nah it's okay, no answer?" Alex asked, and I nodded, biting my lip and taking a small bite from the sub and suddenly losing my appetite. "I'm sure he's just out with friends, yeah?"

"Yeah" I breathed out, smiling a bit and taking another bite. Soon the other guys joined us, Alex scooted closer to me and my thigh was touching his. I took a sip of a my chocolate milk and tried to get into the conversation between the guys. But soon found out it was about football and that caused me to go off into my own world.

But then a felt a finger on my thigh, I slightly looked down to see Alex's finger drawing shapes on my thigh and it kind of calmed me down a bit. Alex always knew how to calm down my anxiety, I just got overwhelmed very easily and got stressed out over little things. But he was always there and he knew just what to do. Instead of objecting, I did what felt right and slipped my hand into his. He smiling indirectly when I squeezed his hand, he then rubbed his thumb on the back of my hand and I bit my lip a bit.

"Did you talk to Kyle?" Rian asked out of the blue, for a moment I had drifted away from the world and now I was back. I ripped my hand from Alex and scratched my arm again.

"Uh no, he didn't answer"

"You know who always answers his phone?" Jack asked, looking at me dead in the eye and I raised an eye brow. "Alex, he always does- have you notice that?"

"Yeah, but that's because he's always texting his flavor of the week" I stated, that's why Alex shifted farther from me. "I was joking"

I made an obvious face at Alex, he smiled at me and laughed. He playfully pushed me and then turned to Jack with pleading eyes.

I sometimes wonder what goes on through their heads.